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A Letter for RYT.

Since wala naman nang chance na mabasa mo ito, dito ko na lang siguro sasabihin lahat ng mga bagay na hindi ko na nasabi sa’yo.

Hindi man maganda ang naging ending natin, at hindi man tayo nakapag-usap nang maayos noong huli tayong nagkita, nung hinatid ko sa’yo ang natitira mong mga gamit, I hope you know that I genuinely wish you well.

Alam kong masaya ka na sa buhay na meron ka ngayon, and I hope you know that you deserve every bit of that happiness.

I’m sorry. Sorry dahil pumasok agad ako sa isang bagong relationship kahit ilang buwan pa lang tayong naghiwalay. Alam kong nasaktan kita nang sobra, pati na rin ang mga taong naging part sa pagmamahalan natin. Hindi ko man na mababago ang mga nangyari, sana dumating ang araw na mapatawad mo rin ako.

Masaya akong makita na nagagawa mo na ulit ang mga bagay na dati mong isinantabi, at nae-enjoy mo na ang buhay na minsan mong iniwan para sa akin. Sana, sa pagkakataong ito, piliin mo naman ang sarili mo. Sana mahanap mo ulit ang mga parte ng sarili mo na unti-unti mong nakalimutan habang tayo ang magkasama. Sana maibalik mo ang mga sarili mo, matuklasan mo ang mga bagay na nagpapasaya sa’yo, at makilala mo ulit ang sarili mo beyond the person you were when we were together.

Thank you for the nine years you gave to us. Nine years is a long time, and no matter how things ended, I will never pretend that those years meant nothing. You were a huge part of my life. We shared so much of ourselves with each other, and there will always be a part of my story that will have you in it. I may not be able to change how our story ended, but I will always acknowledge that, for a long time, you were someone I called home.

Deserve mo lahat ng blessings na dumarating sa buhay mo ngayon, pati na rin ang lahat ng magagandang bagay na naghihintay pa sa’yo. I hope life continues to be kind to you. I hope you get to experience the kind of happiness that feels peaceful, the kind of love that never makes you question your worth, and the kind of life where you never have to lose yourself just to make someone else happy.
Maswerte ang taong mamahalin mong next because you have so much goodness in you. I hope they get to see it, appreciate it, and take care of your heart in ways that you deserve.

And if there is one thing I hope you remember, it is that despite how things ended between us, I never want life to be unkind to you. I genuinely hope you find everything you have been looking for, even if I am no longer someone you share those things with.
Maybe we were meant to be part of each other’s lives for a long time, but not forever. And as painful as that may be to accept, I hope we both find peace in the lives we have chosen to live apart.

Magiingat ka palagi. I hope you keep choosing yourself, keep growing, and keep finding reasons to be happy.

Thank you for the nine years. I hope life gives you all the beautiful things that I once wished we could experience together.

You will always be a part of my story, and I will always wish you well, even from a distance.

ikaaaaw ba? ano karugtong ng hanggang kailan mo?

Doing the right thing always hurts😞

So hard to make peace with the fact na I may have been collateral damage from the healing my ex refused to do after his long term relationship.

I know what you guys will say. It's stupid to get into a relationship with someone who had just gotten out of a long term relationship. But I genuinely believed he was over it and I failed to recognize the minor tells of what I’m stepping into.

He was still carrying years of trauma and unhealthy coping mechanisms he had never really addressed, and I was on the receiving end of those. I'm not saying he's a bad person, because I genuinely believe he isn't. And I'm not saying I'm perfect either. I know my anxiety and tendency to overthink contributed to our fights rin, but I also know I was constantly on edge because he avoided fights and the things I bring to light.

I believe he had good intentions. He showed me in those first few months that he was capable of being the partner I needed, and I genuinely believed in him. But I think he was still carrying the exhaustion of his past, and you know what they say na the feelings/thoughts you suppress will eventually caught up to you.

It was my first relationship, and I admit I was idealistic which caused some recurring fights. But I also believe that relationships require effort, especially when you're still building a foundation. You can't expect things to work if you're unwilling to face discomfort together.

I don't want to draw conclusions, but I can't help but wonder if I was just a placeholder. Maybe he did love me, but he wasn't ready to do the work that loving someone requires. Maybe he was used to having someone there that he mistook that familiarity for being ready to love again.

I loved him deeply, and I don't regret it. I just wish I knew if he really did love me the way I believed he did, or if I was simply someone who temporarily filled a void he hadn't learned to sit with on his own.

Context: evr since my kid was born, no sustento or care received from his other side of family. Ending, its all on me, im grateful that my family
Loves him dearly too

Pero, to evry parent especially single parent out there, i know u can relate sa feeling where ull look at ur kid and u just feel sorry for them.

You feel sorry because sorry his dad isnt around. Sorry cuz i cant do anything to make ur otherr family care for u. Sorry cuz u have to leave them and double ur effort sa in whatevr u do to give them the best.

Thats how i feel when i look at my child, it can be tough at times, lalo if my sakit sila cause it breaks ur heart to see them suffer. Honestly after becoming a parent, di ko gets yung mga magulang na inaabuse anak nila and all.

Anyway, u also have to accept na not all ma ggets ka and ur decisions. Some would hate u for it. Sometimes un decisions that a single parent has to make, we are forced to do it and cause we are left with no option. In terms of work, lets say pursuing a career in abroad, it will pay well pero wala ka naman sa tabi ng kid mo, mga ganon ba

Its really an eye opener to me after i became a parent. Its not also providing their needs lang but also making sure na lumalaki silang tama and mabuting person.

Thats my fear right now, kaya its hard to left kahit my yaya pa and all.

Minsan i feel crazy kasi i dont know what to do anymore.

Dont let 1am-5am catch you.

Where the world is perfectly silent, and but your thoughts are the loudest.

It’s strange how someone can become part of your everyday life, even when what you have is something peculiar and difficult to explain.

I’ve always tried to be understanding. I know people have their own battles, and sometimes they need space to process things on their own. I don’t expect constant attention or immediate explanations. I just believe that a little honesty goes a long way.
But I guess even when you try to understand someone, being left clueless still hurts.

You find yourself wondering if they’re okay, if something changed, or if you’re simply overthinking things.

I think what hurts isn’t the possibility of things ending. It’s the thought of being left without the honesty you thought you could expect from each other.

I can give someone space without asking for anything in return. I just hope that, somewhere along the way, they remember that silence leaves someone wondering, too.
Maybe everything is fine. Maybe I just need to let things be for now.
I just wish my mind knew how to do that, too.

Dear Self,

Alam mo yung right people, wrong timing? Pero let’s be real, ina-assume ko lang talaga lahat ng attention na binibigay niya. Ayun, limerence nang malala si gago. Wag mo nang isipin na magre-reply ’yan kahit online siya. Hindi ka niya jowa.

Get a life! Hindi porket feel mong iba siyang tao, na kaya mong makita kung sino talaga siya kapag kayong dalawa lang, at gets na gets niyo ang humor ng isa’t isa, ibig sabihin may something na. Wag ka nang mag-what if, wag ka nang mag-isip kung may hidden agenda siya o kung may chance ba. Wake up!

Mandiri ka naman sa sarili mo. Todo-post ka pa araw-araw para lang mapansin ka, tapos oras-oras mong chine-check kung nag-view ba siya o kung nag-reply na. Kadiri! Have some self-respect, please.

You are worth it, and hindi ka pinanganak sa mundong ’to para maging kabit.

Any successful stories here? :((

Just… tired. Idk, it feels heavy and I don’t what to do with all of these things on my chest.

Im on my 30s and di ko alam if nangyayari ba sa lahat itong laging nag ooverthink. I know advice ng old gen is dont stress to much pero I tend to do that. At this age kasi feeling ko crucial bawat decision. Mga desisyon sa ganito stage ng buhay will make or break you (thats how i feel). Also now I hate going sa gatherings dahil nakikita ko mga kamaganak ko na maayos sila and thats make.me question ano mali sakin. They talk about building their own house or investing on a property amd ako tamang tipid tipid lang sa araw araw. Ayun nag rant lang ako baka may iba jam same pinagdadaanan lwento nyo pano nyo nalampasan.