Since uso ngayon yung “Show your scariest Halloween costume,” here’s mine. 👻

Bigla na lang, out of nowhere, ayaw na niya. HAHAHAHAHA

Lord, salamat po sa magandang buhay at career, pero bakit naman po sa lovelife ako binawi? HAHAHAHAHAHA

Edited: Guys, that conversation happened months ago na po. Okay na po ako ngayon, siya na po yung naghahabol sa akin. HAHAHAHA

Dont let 1am-5am catch you.

Where the world is perfectly silent, and but your thoughts are the loudest.

Dear Self,

Alam mo yung right people, wrong timing? Pero let’s be real, ina-assume ko lang talaga lahat ng attention na binibigay niya. Ayun, limerence nang malala si gago. Wag mo nang isipin na magre-reply ’yan kahit online siya. Hindi ka niya jowa.

Get a life! Hindi porket feel mong iba siyang tao, na kaya mong makita kung sino talaga siya kapag kayong dalawa lang, at gets na gets niyo ang humor ng isa’t isa, ibig sabihin may something na. Wag ka nang mag-what if, wag ka nang mag-isip kung may hidden agenda siya o kung may chance ba. Wake up!

Mandiri ka naman sa sarili mo. Todo-post ka pa araw-araw para lang mapansin ka, tapos oras-oras mong chine-check kung nag-view ba siya o kung nag-reply na. Kadiri! Have some self-respect, please.

You are worth it, and hindi ka pinanganak sa mundong ’to para maging kabit.

Sino naman itetease ko diba? hays

in short, amats ko

Any successful stories here? :((

So hard to make peace with the fact na I may have been collateral damage from the healing my ex refused to do after his long term relationship.

I know what you guys will say. It's stupid to get into a relationship with someone who had just gotten out of a long term relationship. But I genuinely believed he was over it and I failed to recognize the minor tells of what I’m stepping into.

He was still carrying years of trauma and unhealthy coping mechanisms he had never really addressed, and I was on the receiving end of those. I'm not saying he's a bad person, because I genuinely believe he isn't. And I'm not saying I'm perfect either. I know my anxiety and tendency to overthink contributed to our fights rin, but I also know I was constantly on edge because he avoided fights and the things I bring to light.

I believe he had good intentions. He showed me in those first few months that he was capable of being the partner I needed, and I genuinely believed in him. But I think he was still carrying the exhaustion of his past, and you know what they say na the feelings/thoughts you suppress will eventually caught up to you.

It was my first relationship, and I admit I was idealistic which caused some recurring fights. But I also believe that relationships require effort, especially when you're still building a foundation. You can't expect things to work if you're unwilling to face discomfort together.

I don't want to draw conclusions, but I can't help but wonder if I was just a placeholder. Maybe he did love me, but he wasn't ready to do the work that loving someone requires. Maybe he was used to having someone there that he mistook that familiarity for being ready to love again.

I loved him deeply, and I don't regret it. I just wish I knew if he really did love me the way I believed he did, or if I was simply someone who temporarily filled a void he hadn't learned to sit with on his own.

It’s strange how someone can become part of your everyday life, even when what you have is something peculiar and difficult to explain.

I’ve always tried to be understanding. I know people have their own battles, and sometimes they need space to process things on their own. I don’t expect constant attention or immediate explanations. I just believe that a little honesty goes a long way.
But I guess even when you try to understand someone, being left clueless still hurts.

You find yourself wondering if they’re okay, if something changed, or if you’re simply overthinking things.

I think what hurts isn’t the possibility of things ending. It’s the thought of being left without the honesty you thought you could expect from each other.

I can give someone space without asking for anything in return. I just hope that, somewhere along the way, they remember that silence leaves someone wondering, too.
Maybe everything is fine. Maybe I just need to let things be for now.
I just wish my mind knew how to do that, too.

Im on my 30s and di ko alam if nangyayari ba sa lahat itong laging nag ooverthink. I know advice ng old gen is dont stress to much pero I tend to do that. At this age kasi feeling ko crucial bawat decision. Mga desisyon sa ganito stage ng buhay will make or break you (thats how i feel). Also now I hate going sa gatherings dahil nakikita ko mga kamaganak ko na maayos sila and thats make.me question ano mali sakin. They talk about building their own house or investing on a property amd ako tamang tipid tipid lang sa araw araw. Ayun nag rant lang ako baka may iba jam same pinagdadaanan lwento nyo pano nyo nalampasan.

Context: My ex (27M) and I (27F) broke up after being in a relationship for four years. One week pa lang since our breakup, and naging kalmado naman talaga yung conversation namin about it. Malinaw naman sa akin kung bakit kailangan na naming maghiwalay since hindi na talaga kami nakakatulong sa isa’t isa.

Pero taena, grabe yung suffering ko after just one week. Hindi ako makakain, hindi ako makatulog, at nasusuka ako. We also lived together for three years, so now that I’m living alone again, pakiramdam ko mababaliw na talaga ako. Sobrang sanay na ko sa presensya niya.

I badly want to reach out to him and ask if we can just get back together and try to fix everything. Hindi ko na kasi kinakaya yung nararamdaman ko.

Blocked naman na siya sa lahat ng socials ko, pero di parin enough.

Please, realtalk-in niyo ako. Ayoko na talaga. Pero sobrang binebetray ako ng emotions ko ngayon. Ang hirap hirap na.