After ko maadik sa kakabembang, nanawa na ako like ayaw ko na talaga minsan kahit pilitin ako ayaw ko na talaga. Kahit itrigger pa yan di ako malilibugan 💀

Kimi lang guys, humor lang natin 😭😭😭

Since uso ngayon yung “Show your scariest Halloween costume,” here’s mine. 👻

Bigla na lang, out of nowhere, ayaw na niya. HAHAHAHAHA

Lord, salamat po sa magandang buhay at career, pero bakit naman po sa lovelife ako binawi? HAHAHAHAHAHA

Edited: Guys, that conversation happened months ago na po. Okay na po ako ngayon, siya na po yung naghahabol sa akin. HAHAHAHA

Doing the right thing always hurts😞

Context: evr since my kid was born, no sustento or care received from his other side of family. Ending, its all on me, im grateful that my family
Loves him dearly too

Pero, to evry parent especially single parent out there, i know u can relate sa feeling where ull look at ur kid and u just feel sorry for them.

You feel sorry because sorry his dad isnt around. Sorry cuz i cant do anything to make ur otherr family care for u. Sorry cuz u have to leave them and double ur effort sa in whatevr u do to give them the best.

Thats how i feel when i look at my child, it can be tough at times, lalo if my sakit sila cause it breaks ur heart to see them suffer. Honestly after becoming a parent, di ko gets yung mga magulang na inaabuse anak nila and all.

Anyway, u also have to accept na not all ma ggets ka and ur decisions. Some would hate u for it. Sometimes un decisions that a single parent has to make, we are forced to do it and cause we are left with no option. In terms of work, lets say pursuing a career in abroad, it will pay well pero wala ka naman sa tabi ng kid mo, mga ganon ba

Its really an eye opener to me after i became a parent. Its not also providing their needs lang but also making sure na lumalaki silang tama and mabuting person.

Thats my fear right now, kaya its hard to left kahit my yaya pa and all.

Minsan i feel crazy kasi i dont know what to do anymore.

Any successful stories here? :((

Dear Self,

Alam mo yung right people, wrong timing? Pero let’s be real, ina-assume ko lang talaga lahat ng attention na binibigay niya. Ayun, limerence nang malala si gago. Wag mo nang isipin na magre-reply ’yan kahit online siya. Hindi ka niya jowa.

Get a life! Hindi porket feel mong iba siyang tao, na kaya mong makita kung sino talaga siya kapag kayong dalawa lang, at gets na gets niyo ang humor ng isa’t isa, ibig sabihin may something na. Wag ka nang mag-what if, wag ka nang mag-isip kung may hidden agenda siya o kung may chance ba. Wake up!

Mandiri ka naman sa sarili mo. Todo-post ka pa araw-araw para lang mapansin ka, tapos oras-oras mong chine-check kung nag-view ba siya o kung nag-reply na. Kadiri! Have some self-respect, please.

You are worth it, and hindi ka pinanganak sa mundong ’to para maging kabit.

(Spoiler alert: Medyo downer 'to.)

Two months ago, I was discarded by an avoidant. Today, accidentally ko nakita yung ex ko kasama ang bago niya for the first time since the breakup (if you can even call it that). It threw me off, so I took a day off work.

Initially, balak ko lang magmukmok buong araw. Pero naisip ko, ayoko namang sayangin yung buong araw ko kakaisip sa nangyari. I also wasn't in the right headspace to work. So, I did what any reasonable person would do... nag-open ng ReClub at naghanap ng open play near me. 😅

First time kong sumali sa open-play badminton. Medyo hesitant ako kasi six months na akong hindi nakakapaglaro due to a medical condition and surgery. Feeling ko newbie ulit ako, and I was worried na baka hindi na ako makalaro nang maayos or maging burden sa magiging partner ko.

I've tried pickleball a few times this past month, pero iba pa rin talaga ang badminton. Sorry, not sorry. 😅 Before surgery, decent intermediate player naman ako. Kaya kong kontrolin yung shots ko, although alam ng mga kalaro ko na hindi ako yung tipong hahabulin lahat ng bola kahit ikatalo pa namin. HAHAHAHA

Lately, napansin ko rin na mas naging aloof at socially awkward ako. I'm no longer the social butterfly that I was before. I usually play with workmates, so joining an open play with complete strangers was a little outside my comfort zone. I enjoy doing things alone and genuinely like my own company, pero this was different. Sa badminton doubles, kailangan mo talagang makipag-communicate sa partner mo.

Thankfully, accommodating yung queue manager (QM) and friendly yung mga players. I met new people and even bonded with someone agad (siyempre, sila ang unang nag-approach sa akin HAHAHAHA). I didn't expect na magiging ganito kasaya! Nakakamiss yung adrenaline rush from playing. I actually wished I had started sooner.

I guess that's one thing I'm learning about healing: you don't always have to wait until you're okay before you start living again.

Minsan, you just have to get out of bed, find something to do, and show up for yourself. Kahit wala kang kasama. Kahit kinakabahan ka. Kahit hindi ka pa 100% okay.

Today, I chose to do something for myself instead of spending the whole day sulking. And for a few hours, I got to enjoy something that had nothing to do with my breakup. That's a win in my book. 💜

...Until dumami na yung players and humaba yung waiting time. May idle time tuloy ako between games.

Sumali ako para maka-move on, pero yung tugtugan sa court, pang-broken. 😭

Parang sabi ni universe, “Ay, gusto mong mag-heal? Sige, eto soundtrack mo.” 💀 HAHAHAHAHA

I miss talking to someone who actually cared about what I think. Who actually asked me questions. Who actually seemed that they were interested in me. Someone I can talk to for hours and still feel it's not enough.

Fuck this. What the hell did I get myself into? And why does this hurt? And why do I still love you?

A Letter for RYT.

Since wala naman nang chance na mabasa mo ito, dito ko na lang siguro sasabihin lahat ng mga bagay na hindi ko na nasabi sa’yo.

Hindi man maganda ang naging ending natin, at hindi man tayo nakapag-usap nang maayos noong huli tayong nagkita, nung hinatid ko sa’yo ang natitira mong mga gamit, I hope you know that I genuinely wish you well.

Alam kong masaya ka na sa buhay na meron ka ngayon, and I hope you know that you deserve every bit of that happiness.

I’m sorry. Sorry dahil pumasok agad ako sa isang bagong relationship kahit ilang buwan pa lang tayong naghiwalay. Alam kong nasaktan kita nang sobra, pati na rin ang mga taong naging part sa pagmamahalan natin. Hindi ko man na mababago ang mga nangyari, sana dumating ang araw na mapatawad mo rin ako.

Masaya akong makita na nagagawa mo na ulit ang mga bagay na dati mong isinantabi, at nae-enjoy mo na ang buhay na minsan mong iniwan para sa akin. Sana, sa pagkakataong ito, piliin mo naman ang sarili mo. Sana mahanap mo ulit ang mga parte ng sarili mo na unti-unti mong nakalimutan habang tayo ang magkasama. Sana maibalik mo ang mga sarili mo, matuklasan mo ang mga bagay na nagpapasaya sa’yo, at makilala mo ulit ang sarili mo beyond the person you were when we were together.

Thank you for the nine years you gave to us. Nine years is a long time, and no matter how things ended, I will never pretend that those years meant nothing. You were a huge part of my life. We shared so much of ourselves with each other, and there will always be a part of my story that will have you in it. I may not be able to change how our story ended, but I will always acknowledge that, for a long time, you were someone I called home.

Deserve mo lahat ng blessings na dumarating sa buhay mo ngayon, pati na rin ang lahat ng magagandang bagay na naghihintay pa sa’yo. I hope life continues to be kind to you. I hope you get to experience the kind of happiness that feels peaceful, the kind of love that never makes you question your worth, and the kind of life where you never have to lose yourself just to make someone else happy.
Maswerte ang taong mamahalin mong next because you have so much goodness in you. I hope they get to see it, appreciate it, and take care of your heart in ways that you deserve.

And if there is one thing I hope you remember, it is that despite how things ended between us, I never want life to be unkind to you. I genuinely hope you find everything you have been looking for, even if I am no longer someone you share those things with.
Maybe we were meant to be part of each other’s lives for a long time, but not forever. And as painful as that may be to accept, I hope we both find peace in the lives we have chosen to live apart.

Magiingat ka palagi. I hope you keep choosing yourself, keep growing, and keep finding reasons to be happy.

Thank you for the nine years. I hope life gives you all the beautiful things that I once wished we could experience together.

You will always be a part of my story, and I will always wish you well, even from a distance.