Before you start reading, huge wall of text warning! I'm not sure if being a devotee to Apollo counts as one, but I want to disclose that I have no experience with working with spirits. This is my first time interacting with my spirit guide. Advice on this subject is very much appreciated!
(Also, I'm posting this here as an alternate because r/spirituality automatically removes a post I make regardless if I joined or not... what does that mean?)
Yesterday, I was curious of who was my spirit guide and tried contacting them via tarot after some research. I got to talk to them for a bit so I could get to know them, and apparently, my spirit guide was a knight of some sort. She told me she was a medieval knight, and used her power to hurt others and deeply regretted it after. Then after she described herself, she gave me some helpful advice (while also throwing some shade lmfao).
The weird thing is—during the reading, I felt her presence and it felt really powerful, like she was right infront of me, but also felt heavy. I got slightly lightheaded for some reason as I continued on talking with her (though I speculate that it's because of the strong energy she carries). It isn't that the energy was I felt was off-putting, but it just felt really powerful. And when I pull a card, the answer just seems to... pop up in my mind immediately.
Right after the reading, I felt extremely drained and needed to sleep now, and not even five minutes passed I fell asleep right immediately. When I woke up, I was curious as to why I felt that way when I contacted her, and immediately went to briefly researching about this.
I only read that she may be a powerful type of spirit because of how intensely my body reacted to her energy. And with powerful spirit as a guide, it means heavy protection, but that's about all I could get. So I figured I could ask here.
Here's some facts about my life that might help. Throughout my life, I feel like I'm protected by some unseen force; lil me thought it was the Christian God, but when I used to pray for him, I never got any responses. I noticed that I never got into dangerous situations whatsoever, and things in my life seem to just seem fall in place when I'm super stressed. There have also been times where I thought I was fucked and got saved by some small detail I never even knew was there. And if it helps, I have Jupiter in 12H in my birth chart. Not sure if it's a factor to consider, but it's usually called the 'Guardian Angel' placement, so I'll put this here.
As the time of writing this, I can feel as if she's around. I'm a very rational person myself and usually, when it comes to this kinda stuff, I'd tell myself that I need to sleep it off because I probably got exposed too much so I could avoid having a psychosis episode—but right now, there's this persistent ringing in my head that's telling me that she's around. Not in the literal sense where I can feel migranes. It's really stubborn/intense, and as if trying to get me to convince that she really is here, and I'm also feeling my heart beat loudly.
Oh and I'm not sure if this is relevant, but when I asked her what she felt when she found out I was the person to guide, I pulled two cards—Reversed Two of Swords and Reversed Sun. Immediately took it that she didn't have any choice and felt disappointed, lmfao. But she did give me an answer afterwards that she'll help me anyway after a few questions later (I got Sun again, but Upright this time).
Please let me know if you have an idea about what type of spirit is she, and just how powerful is she? Anything is appreciated. Thank you so much!