Like the title says, I consider myself to be ungrateful for life in general, primarily because of how depressed I’ve been lately and how much I hate life. I hate waking up every day and it actually drives me insane that I can’t stop existing in a human form. I have to piss and shit every day until I die. My hand in life could be considered extremely lucky in terms of money I’m destined to receive in the future.

My great grandparents died when I was in my early teens, and combined they left me about 1 million dollars, of which I will receive the grand majority when I turn 30. I get around ~100k when I turn 25 next year (I’m 24). At 22 I got 75k and blew it in bad stock market option trades. Basically liquidated that whole thing. I felt terrible and even suicidal for desecrating the gift my great grandmother left me (even though there’s 200k more she left me, and 800k my great grandfather left me).

I just feel so undeserving of anything. I’ve never worked because I needed to or built anything that I can call my own. Especially recently I’ve been feeling this way and staying very isolated, losing all my friends. I find people in my university or in general don’t like hanging out with me, maybe I’m just a tough hang. (Tough to hang out with)

When I lost my first portion of the money stock trading I was devastated and I still feel that way. I just want to make the money back to feel like I paid myself back, but I’m also a lazy bum and don’t want to work. (Sorry capitalism, fuck you xD)

If I had my own money I’d live off it, but I have to wait a little under a year to get more. For now I’m just a student and my dad gives me money to pay for everything. I feel bad taking the money he gives me and it depresses me too. I’ve felt like a taker my whole life.

In order to get money from my dad however I have to keep studying in college which makes me feel like I’m living a fake life because deep down in my heart I know I don’t want to work.

So I’m living a friendless lonely life right now and I’m relatively poor with not that much money besides what I need for the basics (gained through no effort of my own except exhaling oxygen with my meat bag of a body) People would kill for my position but I hate my life.

The worst part is my rich family is all college educated and both my father and my grandfather are self made millionaires, which makes the feat of getting to their level feel impossible. Especially with my grandfather. My father has a net worth of around 15M while my grandfather has a net worth of ~500M. He owns a lot of major regional and international businesses.

I’m not even joking, I swear with God as my witness I’m telling the truth. I’ve never gotten a dollar from my grandfather (lol, lmao even), a little stingy gramps. I’m sure he’ll leave me a nice surprise when he goes. But my father is my grandfather’s only son, which means he’ll inherit the grand majority of all those assets in the near future.

My life truly feels surreal. Do you know how truly rare it is to be born into a line of succession like mine? But still I’m ungrateful and depressed when in theory I should have no reason to be. I could literally bed rot for the next decade and do literally nothing and there will be a day where I’ll wake up a multi millionaire. I could probably have ~50M by the time I’m 40, and that’s a conservative estimate.

It’s just all so undeserved. Yesterday I was in NYC, standing over a ledge overlooking the Hudson water in a spot that dropped several feet down and I was going to jump in to drown myself. these rollerskaters pulled up before I could do it and wouldn’t leave me alone until I climbed back over the ledge to their side.

They must have known something was up because I tried to convince them I was just smoking on that spot but all the things in my pocket were on the floor next to me including my phone and a paper that said “It was good knowing you earth, I’m glad we enjoyed our time together”. They couldn’t read that though cause it was folded.
Thanks rollerskaters for saving me I guess lmao, you just left the malice of my heart and mind in this world. All I’ve ever done is consume and take from others, now I can keep doing that …

Any advice on how to be grateful for my life instead of feeling desperate to end it? I just hate living in this cursed earth, and I feel that no money will ever fix that.

I started working at this fast food place a few weeks ago and there’s this one girl that works there, I’ll call her S. S is this really kind, funny and cute girl and we’ve had a good few shifts together now and I would love to create something more with her but I have no idea how I’d do it. We would chat whenever we say eachother and we work similar hours as we are both students so we do the closing shifts which results in more conversation because the last hour of every shift is just cleaning after the place closes. S talks to me when she sees me and the last two shifts we’ve had together I walked her to her car afterwards (fyi I don’t really know if it’s just because by chance we left at the same time or she wanted to walk out with me who knows) and she told me if I needed a ride home I could ask her, obviously this seems like there could be more but I also think it could just be her being nice because she did say she gives people spins when they need it. The last shift we worked together I was cleaning this hallway and she was cleaning the lobby and I was looking at her through the glass and she took off her hat and let her hair fall down and man she is so beautiful. That kinda beautiful where you feel like time just slows down for a little bit and u can’t look away. Please help me I don’t know what to do!!!

What if instead of girls feeling scared to go outside because of creeps, we make creeps scared to go outside instead? Every creep you meet, make them feel so uncomfortable that they don't want to talk to you again. Shun them, and insult them.

I'm 22F and I will be going to another country to pursue a masters degree! So my parents are forcing me to come back to india after completing the degree because they want to marry me before 25 or 26, that too a arranged marriage (no intercaste strictly)! I have siblings and I'm the older one so there is a lot of pressure on me because I'm the only one academically good and can make them proud and I'm the one who has always agreed with my parents and if I wanted something so bad I used to manipulate or lie. But mostly I had compromised!

The twist is that I am dating a guy and it's been 4yrs! We love each other and we are really comfortable but since it's just the start of our career and we both are still unemployed! So I decided that after a few years I will tell my parents that I can't conceive and maybe by doing some drama I will convince them that no one will marry me and an arranged marriage is impossible! But my bf says that I should not lie and talk to them directly but Ik they will not agree Ik them really well because we had this discussion and I have predicted what will be their action! They are MY parents Ik there soul dude Ik them very well. But my bf said no he won't marry if I want it to be this way! But I'm the cat in the box Ik where the poison is just listen to me 😭 Its been 4 yrs I cant even think of other men Im madly in love its just him or I will never marry! I will just quietly vanish from everyones life!

Maybe I have missed a lot of context but my brain is so restless at this point I can't think! I'm just crying and there is no one who wants to understand the situation!

...Reddit and other such places will be filled with people with Alzheimer's. Expect an onslaught of reposts, nonsensical comments and self replies. Forever.

I try my best to not show my 5 & 4 year old that deep down, I am fighting for my life. I go to work everyday to “try” to provide for them & get us out of this mess that their father put us in. We finally should be out of this Women’s shelter tomorrow & I should be happy but the feeling of not failing them is always in the back of my head.

We have started completely over except the 4 bags we brought with us. My 5 year old has been adjusting to his new school for a couple of weeks now and everything has been going okay for the most part. One of his classmates mom gave me an invitation after school yesterday for her son’s birthday party Saturday. It’s at a trampoline park . He was so excited to tell me about it & that’s all his friends were talking about it. Leave it to me to let him know that we most likely won’t be able to go because I simply can’t afford it. I’m barely keeping my head above water. We are visiting food pantries almost daily, what little money I make has gone into this apartment, I’ve been wearing the same tennis shoes from the Goodwill for the past few weeks because I can’t purchase a decent pair. I HATE disappointing my kids. They deserve the world, especially with what they have gone through.

We have court next week & I have to see their father’s face… he filed a motion for a custody agreement but I doubt that will be granted after we show the judge the police documents & hospital bill where he broke my nose. I’m trying to survive. I want to make sure my babies know that we will be okay soon. It’s just rough right now.

Woke up to see a friend (from same batch in college) pursuing Phd from an eminent college. Also, randomly came across a Junior (from college) pursuing Phd as well as travelling around the world attending conferences and workshops. It broke something in me. I know I have had different start in life and a different environment than these people and that's the reason how things are and I am proud of myself wrt wherever I stand in life, but still the fact that these people went to the sameplaces as me and yet had different outcomes is just heartbreaking.

Specifically the casual encounter section. And the m4m section. Probably late 2000s to early 2010s, and at some point Craig removed those sections. I can’t remember why they removed that section. Such a bummer cause that was such a fun time just as the internet was really fast pace to being super mainstream with the launch of the smartphone and all. Did anyone ever read those sections m4f, m4m, w4w and the rest of them? Did anyone else ever meet up for some casual fun? Or complete anon or anything like that? Sure wish Craig would bring that section back.

For me I think it is lying in bed with my wife. We have been married 25 years. I love the sleepy comfort of our legs touching and the slow breathes that show her chest rise and fall. It is clean and warm.

Describe the safest place in the world for you?

i hadnt seen a few of my friends in a long time and i was actually excited. one of them has been my best friend since school, we did everything together, she felt like a sister. they came to my house, they were all employed, and for the whole ten minutes they were there it was jokes and digs about me not having a job

the part that got me is that it was her who started it. the one i trusted the most

and ive been noticing things for a few months now. i tell them everything, even tiny news, and they hide basically everything from me. relationships, work, all of it. i just thought we were close

now i cant stop going back over every nice thing any of them ever said to me and wondering if any of it was real. being unemployed already makes me feel low and today made it feel like thats how everyone sees me

has anyone had a friend show you a side of themselves you didnt know was there. how did you deal with it

What is happiness for you?

i would be happy if you could tell me

I think that my happiness is not money, I think that it is health and human relations

I know most people here will scoff at this post, kinda like most people irl kind of blow me off when I talk about this but these feelings are real and I want to let them out somewhere.

Im 21M, Canadian and currently living in Singapore for an exchange semester that has been fun, but more expensive than I had ever imagined. I came here with great savings and am now seemingly either going to have pretty much no money leftover after or will actively have to ask my parents to help me.

Ive worked for pretty much as long as I was legally allowed too. I had been employeed since I was 18 up until I did this exchange (it is not legal on a student visa to be employed in Singapore). I keep seeing the number go down but never up.

I graduate in 6 months and have nothing lined up for work when I graduate. I got pretty far in one role's interviewing just to be rejected at the last round, I was devastated. I feel like im not getting anywhere and im just actively blowing all my savings here and maybe even going back to financially depending on my parents.

I feel like such a loser. I know im young or whatever but being in this position is really bothering me, could use encouragement/advice

Epictetus has this short passage where he tells his students to remember they're like an actor in a play, except someone else decides the role, how long it runs, and what kind of part it is. If the playwright wants a short play, you play it short. If he wants you cast as a poor person, a cripple, a magistrate, a nobody, your job isn't to argue for a different part, it's to play whichever one you got as well as it can be played. He's pretty clear that picking the role was never on the table to begin with, the only real job is the performance itself. What I keep coming back to with this one is how much of what people struggle with in life falls into the category of role they didn't choose, the family, the body, the timing, how long any of it lasts, and how much energy goes into resenting the casting instead of just playing the part in front of you well. It's not that the role doesn't matter, some roles are genuinely harder than others. It's that the one thing actually inside your control was never which part you got, it was always just how you played it. What's a part of your situation you spent a long time fighting the casting on, before you finally just started playing it?

with 15 years old, autistic with asperger and adhd, mexican( pls rate englishpls). The past year i had an iq test. At that moment i had a good auto-steem. Believing i was going to had a good score. "Ts is easy, im getting like 102-105!"

I got 92.

I entered in a depressive episode, i learned chinese, piano,start to study, etc. Washing my brain to believe i was intelligent and hide my low auto-steem. When i learned those skills i, began to have an arrogant personallity, thinking inside i was better than everyone else. Everything was normal until i entered high school.

At first i had the same personallity. first day... then i got obliterated (intellectually) by all my classmates. That destroyed my fragile aotusteem.

One of my biggest fears is to be below everyone. And probably. I felt that fear for the first time. At that moment i knew that intelligent people are born, not made. Because they really solve problems like nothing, catch all the information at the first try, me being the only one that makes questions because i didnt understand while my classmates are "really lil bro" "bro let the teacher continue with his class".

Also when they talk with the teachers, they have a very elegant and tecnic lenguaje. As i alredy said, that destroyed me emotionaly. Today is my 6th week in the school. I became a bit shy. I try to not look "intelligent" because i feel that, im someone who doesnt deserve to be one. when they do a debate, im always in silence, because i perfectly know that in an argumental duel, im losing.

Probably what i wanted in life after the iq test is... to be valorated

Now everytime i sit, i cant stop thinking what i made with my own life, wondering when i will be "great"/"happy, and the phrase :"mom! Bring me to the bed! I want to sleep!"

I had a dumbahh phrase that i really liked :"dragons fly so the people on the ground can notice their presence."

I dont think i will fly...

It feels horrible when someone or something replaces you.

To have almost everything you once hoped for.
To have people who respect you, people who trust you, a family that matters to you, work that gives you independence, and the freedom to make your own choices.
To look at your life and realise that, from the outside, there isn’t really much to complain about.
And yet, somehow, you feel lost.
Not because something is missing that you can point to.
Not because you’re unhappy with everything you’ve built.
You just wake up some days and wonder what you’re actually doing with your life.
You have reasons to be grateful, things to look forward to, and people who believe in you.
But when you’re alone with your thoughts, none of that seems to answer the one question that’s been sitting quietly in the back of your mind.
You keep moving, keep working, keep becoming the person you always thought you’d be.
And still, there’s this strange feeling that you’re somewhere you never planned to be, even though you can’t explain where you were supposed to go.
Maybe that’s the hardest part.
When life is falling apart, you know what you’re trying to fix.
But what do you do when almost everything is fine…
and you still don’t feel like you’ve found yourself?

Discuss…

I know its a dumb question but i think i dont know how to be happy anymore the last few years😅
My days are all the same and i dont felt happiness for a long time, i wake up every day and the first thing that comes to my mind "is this all worth it?" then i go to work and hope that the time goes by fast so i can go home and when im home i do absolutely nothing because i dont have the energy or the mood to do something😅

Life’s problems come one after another, leaving me in a constant state of discouragement. There are times when I have absolutely no idea what to do. What words have helped you navigate the various ups and downs of life?

I hate a lot of things. I am a very judgmental person I would say and I don't like being this way. I really started to notice how judgmental I am when I was dating this one girl and I really started hating so many things. I think she made me hate them, not because she hated them, but because the things she did made me hate.

I particularly dislike politically correct people, they aggravate me. I don't like liberals or republicans, they both speak nonsense and whine about everything they can. I hate people that whine all the time and can't just man up (figuratively) instead of taking the easy way out all the time. I can't stand pride parades or any protests really, I think they are silly and dumb. I hate people that flaunt/make it their personality that their gay or black or Muslim or redneck or whatever it might be. I hate people that get "offended" easily or rather act offended because there is some societal 'obligation' for them to be offended. I hate people with no common sense; "common sense isn't so common" lol.

I'm not catholic or really Christian or whatever but I think people need to start listening more to the seven deadly sins, especially pride, greed, and lust.

I sometimes wish I could be more accepting of people cause after all, we are all human, but this current state of society I just hate. I blame much of my hatred on this ex-girlfriend of mine, as I never felt this way with previous relationships before her.

I think I am a person that likes control. Is that narcissism? What is that?

I wanted to be as real as possible with this post so tell me: what can I do to be a more accepting person and not hate people and their decisions so much? if that's even possible...

Peace is not finally arriving at a life with no uncertainty. Peace is learning that uncertainty does not have to steal this moment from you.”

We sometimes say to ourselves:

I'll relax when this problem is solved.

I'll enjoy myself when I'm financially secure.

I'll feel peaceful when I know what comes next.

But life keeps moving the finish line.

One uncertainty disappears and another eventually takes its place.

Perhaps peace isn't waiting at the end of uncertainty. Perhaps peace is something we learn to carry while walking through it and walking the path one step at a time. You can still make plans. You can still work hard. You can still want better. But you don't have to sacrifice today to prove that you care about tomorrow.

In Daoism one is taught to flow with the current of life. A river doesn't require the landscape to become flat before it flows peacefully. Mountains, rocks and unexpected bends will appear on the river path. And still the river remains a river and continues to flow.

Your mind can create a hundred tomorrows before breakfast. But reality only give you one place where you can actually live. And the place is here...this moment.

Im kinda selfish I think... so I'll start with that... but im not completely selfish because I do think about other people, that is where I am stuck.

Sometimes, I just want to move me, my husband, and two daughters across the united states and start over because im so tired of having to think about other people in my decisions. Im tired of people always thinking about what im doing and why i am doing it, and im tired of feeling like every decision i make has to involve thinking about people that aren't even part of the decision i am making.

me and my husband live by both of our families. I am so tired of my parents wanting to be invited and included in everything because they always have FOMO. Im tired of going on a trip with my husband, and then my mom subtly dropping a hint that she wants to go on a trip with me next... because i can never just go on a trip with out the expectation that she wants to go on the next one. Im tired of not going to a family BBQ at my husbands families house and them getting weirdly suspicious and saying things like "jeeze.. did you guys fall off the face of the earth???" as if having a life outside of them and their dumb weekly BBQs is unheard of.

Im just tired of feeling like i have to answer phone calls... see people when i dont feel like seeing people, and like i cant do things i want to do because someone else expects something else out of me. im tired of feeling like our stupid families are judging our every move because we have lives outisde of them... and we dont spend every waking minute thinking about them. im tired of daily phone calls with my mom about literally nothing... and basically just re-hashing our lives. my mom doesnt need to know what im doing every waking second.

There is nothing worse that pressure to be something for someone that they want you to be.

if i would leave the past the past and would think about the future, i just don't know what i should do. the times with ai confuses me as-well, i can learn anything i want with ai and the stupid thing is i have nothing i want to learn, no questions no curiosity. But somehow i am not content with my life i miss something but i don't know what. So just wondering what ambitions you guys still have what drives you?

I feel guilty even typing this but I feel like I need to confess it somewhere. I am a single mom and several years ago when my son was young, he was crying and crying for a husky puppy. This went on for almost a year. I finally caved and bought him his dream puppy, Cooper. Cooper is a husky and the sweetest, most loyal dog in the world. I didn’t anticipate at the time that my partner and I would separate. I didn’t anticipate the crippling depression. I didn’t anticipate the price of EVERYTHING going up so much that I am always in the negative every month. I feel like I am working my ass off all day, everyday. Sun up to sun down. Cleaning, working, driving my son to school, being a nag, paying bills.
Huskies require so much exercise or else they are absolutely nuts. I find myself resenting having to go on the walks with him when I’m already exhausted. Or realizing he’s losing his undercoat and having to stress about how I’m going to pay the groomer bill. Or not being able to go see family because I can’t afford pet care. Or not being able to take him to doggie daycare (which is a godsend) because I just can’t afford it. I feel terrible. He follows me around the house, eager to do something, and I’m doing my best. I am just so damn exhausted. Lately, he’s gotten in the habit of having to go out in the middle of the night. I’m finding myself feeling so overwhelmed by him and so guilty at the same time, because it’s not his fault. In hindsight, it probably wasn’t the best move to get a dog, but it felt like a meaningful decision at the time. And I truly could not have asked for a sweeter companion. I just had to be honest about how much I’m resenting the work of having a dog lately. I feel like he deserves better than me but we’re so bonded. I just don’t know what to do.

Not sure who to be annoyed with my dad who did something thoughtless, my bro for just being a .. or my other one for not saying .. and then why is it always the case where you are actually innocent is the time you’ll get the blame.

This just an experience i want to share

I often feel like I'm a very lonely person, in the sense that i am surrounded by people, my family I have friends in my classes..but tbh they don't really get me...class friends are all catty, family is not really understanding and we'll that's the only two worlds i interact in currently since I have social anxiety and I am more of an introverted person.

Now I am not all, i need to be loved 24*7 i don't have any other purpose in life, no ...i have things in life, i have hobbies (poetry, photography,movies, anime etc) academics, stuff I want to learn.

I have a whole arsenal of things I can talk with you about, but i often feel no one's really interested in doing that with me, i have tried putting in efforts in past too.. it's just I feel like friend A(kind of a replaceable friend)to people imo.

For a good long while i have also been addicted to adult content and i think in the recent years i have realised it has a bit to do with this particular feeling of loneliness and being left alone. That feeling was strong yesterday when someone whom I recently met and got somewhat close to,real fast seemed distant... and idk all the unpleasant experiences from past started to hit me(yes sir , i did try asking her if something's wrong or if she's not feeling fine today)

Now i watch adult content kind of daily atp because, well it's like why people drink daily uk it's harming u ,but u do it anyways helps u feel better for a while uk.Ik it's bad but I am trying to get over it.Now yesterday i spent the day having a break watching this show, and 2 movies... but by the end of it when I was gonna sleep i switched my phone on...to watch that "stuff" and all of a sudden i felt so lonely, like I wanted to be told I am loved, I am loveable, wanted to be kissed , effed, held in arms all at once... there's wasn't anything in me that actually wanted to watch porn it was just this craving for intimacy i very strongly had, i texted my ex fwb a hi, then reminded myself to respect her boundaries and did that ....

But in that moment I felt so unlovable so invalidated, like yea i stopped my urge to make my ex fwb uncomfortable I wished her goodluck for her studies and respected her, did the right thing.... that's the thing uk....i mostly do the right thing...just to feel like that on a random midnight ...and i could heal this thing in me

Like uk apply some magic roll on and everything's alright but it's not all that simple ig

Genuine question.

All opinions appreciated.

I find myself struggling to understand what is considered normal, and abnormal, expectations.

I have been working on it. For years. But I don’t know what I don’t know. It certainly isn’t something I’ve internalized.

So when I hear somebody tell me “normal people don’t do that”, when I think it’s actually a perfectly normal thing to do, I always question myself. Even when I truly don’t think I’ve done anything wrong.

I believe that questioning my sense of normalcy is a good thing. It’s brought me a lot of help and healing over the years. It’s important to me to always strive to better myself. Know better, do better, and all that.

But, sometimes, I think the people around me use that belief of mine against me. Maybe unintentionally at first. But it works. Because I will always question myself if somebody gives me a reason to do so. Just in case I am in fact in the wrong.

I have heard people tell me that my sense of normal is very wrong and I should question everything I think to be normal… but that doesn’t really help me at the end of the day. I have questioned my entire life numerous times… but if I still don’t know what truly is and isn’t normal… how do I know for sure which of my internalized beliefs still remaining from my childhood are problematic?

I have recently been hearing people say “thats the bare minimum” and “your expectations are too low”… so, my question to the internet today is, what do You consider to be the bare minimum? For whatever type of relationship. Family. Friends. Significant others. Doesn’t matter. What is normally and typically considered to be a requirement of a healthy relationship? Not a great one. Just the bare minimum requirements of not being unhealthy?

I might go into some of the messy and messed up details of the life that led me to my own admittedly flawed sense of normalcy and internalized beliefs about myself and others… but my priority at present is understanding this elusive concept of what exactly the bare minimum even means.

Please help me.