It took a while to come but now I'm really happy!

I look fat in this outfit right?

Hey, I’ve tried to say this multiple times and I’m just going to type some things and get them out there. I’ve had these thoughts for a long time around teen years and tried to shut them out, in my mind I was supposed to be male but I freaked out cause I knew deep down I didn’t want a male body.

I feel like my masculine features came a bit later and before I thought it wasn’t a big deal I was fine being a boy but then those features came in and oh no. I don’t think it’s me, I don’t hate being a boy but the image of being a girl gives me no grief. Aging as a man seems weird, a little wrong. However, wanting to be in a female body just seems to resonate with me in way I can’t describe.

I’m just really scared this is a big big thing to come to terms with, and I feel like I push it down and feel like I’m fine during the day when with people, but at night the feelings always creep back up. I get obsessed with what it would be like to be her. I’m so jealous of women where they got to live as women their whole lives but I see a beautiful woman and get a little sad I can’t look like her, as if I’m missing out on the greatest thing ever.

I also have to come to terms that cis men don’t have these thoughts and I’m most likely a her. I have a serious choice to make.

When I started hrt I was maybe 20% attracted to men/masculinity. This is now at about 80%. I’m in a relationship with a woman and I want to stop playing a masculine role, but she’s also a bottom.

We’re both in talks and working on improving our intimacy issues, but it’s been going on for like 9-10 months at this point. We are intimate maybe once a month.

Has anyone experienced attraction changes like this? If so how did you navigate them in a monogamous relationship?

So I’m looking for a breast form that I can preferably get online for under 45 dollars and wanted to know if you girls have any suggestions 🫶

I feel like I should just give up going down this road, that I'll be making my life significantly harder, that I'll be disappointed and never pass as much as I want to. But at the same time I can't let it go. I've tried to repress these feelings again but it feels almost impossible this time around.

The depression around this is hitting me like a frieght train, I'm trying to stay positive and let things unfold as they do naturally but it's so hard. Thankfully I am seeing a gender affirming therapist on the 22nd to get some clarity with this so it's not like I'm not doing anything to explore this but even then I worry I'm going to find out I'm just cis and have some fetish/obsessive fantasy and the thought of that would be so devastating since I feel this less and less being attached to sex.

It feels very pure and innocent to me because I can trace these feelings all the way back to being 12 (I'm 30 now), and it's made me so happy to have that connection back to my younger self and being able to say "there really is something to this", I feel like finding out there isn't would be heartbreaking.

Idk, I'm a mess lately, I feel more vulnerable than I've probably ever felt in my adult life.

It’s a hole in the rubber stopper. also sorry if this violates rule 7, don’t yell at me :(

I know it can feel a little overwhelming and hopeless at times. Especially for those of us who discovered we were trans after puberty. I just wanted to show these pictures and tell all of you that there is hope and you are beautiful❤️❤️. The first picture was taken on my 18th birthday, and the second was taken a week after my 23rd

Went to a restaurant wif my familia for breakfast

So im a newbie when it comes to this I've just finally at 22 accepted im mtf even tho I knew since 17 and I wanted some advice...I wanna start my transition but dont know where to start im in canada I know we have alot of resources but idk where to start looking I thought about calling one of the hospitals that deal with trans stuff maybe I can join smoothing but yea any advice for a newbie starting out

I did not know I was trans in the first two photos

Had an idea cause my genders been a tad loose lately what if after bottom surgery which I hope to have eventually I apply T-gel to the area would I get bottom growth like trans men get? Just a thought

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