have adhd and I've been in depression for the last 9 months. I somehow overcame it with my own will and meds. The docs and parents helped , and I'm really grateful . I read books specifically about adhd , and honestly, they were the one thing I'd say did 60% of the work. I started making routine. I'm preparing for NEET, so I started with 40-mins timers and did 4 sessions a day. Gradually, I started covering up for the time I'd lost, recovered everything, and gained pace.
But now, when I study, there's something weird . I make to-do lists, but I make them so lengthy . I try my best to complete em, but yk the problem? When I'm watching lectures, I keep looking at the time, thinking, 1 hour left? That's too much. I watch lectures at 1.75x or 2x speed because I can never understand them at 1x, and I can even write notes at 2x speed.
I keep looking at the time, and I feel like crying from inside, thinking about how 2 hours are left and how much backlog I still have. I cry and somehow get through it. Sometimes, I feel sleepy, so I take a nap, but it's barely 20 minutes, sometimes even less. I wake up all of a sudden with a sharp pain in my heart, thinking about how I haven't completed my to-do list and stuff. I start criticising myself so much that I begin sweating, and sometimes, though very rarely, I feel like vomiting as well. My heartbeat gets faster, and yet I try my best to study. But sometimes, the pain gets so bad that I just leave studying and start distracting myself.
Like leaving study nd Then there's no anxiety no pressure what helps?? Give me tips guys I'm really pissed
