r/casualiama • u/miamiiitrip • 3h ago
Trigger Warnings I was raised in a strict, abusive Islamic household and forced to wear a face veil. AMA!
I am the youngest of 6 kids, and I'm 21 years old. I was raised in very tradition Sunni Islam. Among many other restrictions, I started wearing the niqab at 14, and I'd been a hijabi since I was 4. I was homeschooled until ninth grade, at which point after much begging I was allowed to attend an all girls school.
Here's some other restrictions in my household:
\- Fully veiled when going out. Absolutely no pants, dark abayas only
\- No western movies/tv shows/games (watched behind my parents back)
\- No phone until I turned 18 (got one behind their back)
\- Not allowed to talk to boys for any reason
\- No music, ever
\- Arranged marriage at 18
\- Mom always kept track of my period (prayer is restricted during periods in Islam)
\- Basically didnt celebrate anything except Eid, like no birthdays, Halloween, Christmas
I moved away at the age of 17 years old, four years ago. It was always my dream to do so growing up. I never really believed in Allah as a young kid, even. I am the first in my family to leave Islam. My two sisters eventually did fight back a little (one divorced, one did not get married off at 18) but they're still Muslims. My brothers are deeply traditional Muslims and I have no contact with them.
I applied to colleges behind my parents back, and I now identify as mostly atheist. I don't really believe in a higher power, but I also do not have any strong beliefs in what happens after death. Feel free to ask me anything about my upbringing, its effects on me, how I'm doing now!