Problem/Goal: I need advice po on what to do when your partner asked for a cool off
Context:
We had a mini fight the night before ng first year anniversary namin because I told her that I hated how she's constantly on her phone while we're on a date. Most of the time, nag uupdate sya sa work gc nila or sometimes nag sscroll sa fb or nagpapakita ng mga babaeng kawork nya na need ko lang makilala to reduce any suspicions. Nagsorry sya.
I didn't know what to reply to that, so I waited for a few minutes if may sasabihin pa sya. Then she asked me if ayaw ko na ba sya kausap. Wala na raw sya sasabihin if ayaw ko na sya makausap. Sabi ko, naghihintay lang ako if may iba pa syang sasabihin dahil di ko alam ano irereply sa sorry nya. After this hindi na sya nagreply.
I thought matutulog na sya so naggood night na ako. Kaya lang, before I sleep, nagcheck ako sa fb and messenger if I missed any messages from her or other people, to which nakita ko, na lumabas pala sya with kawork (gay guy) nya na nagyaya mag SB. It was posted during the time na naghihintay ako ng response nya. It felt off to me kase gising pa ako and we have an unsettled conversation, and she just left like that. I told her halfheartedly na nakita kong lumabas sya and mag enjoy sana sya before I sleep. Ang sama ng loob ko that night.
Kinabukasan, anniversary na namin. Saka lang sya nagreply na inaya daw sya ng kawork nya mag sb that time and then, proceeded to greet me a "happy anniversary" with some short message about loving me, etc. Hindi ko naappreciate. Something was off. I felt like she's just escaping again sa difficult conversations. Pero I didn't want to be rude kaya nag greet pa rin ako ng "happy anniversary", though wala akong other message after that.
Wala akong dinugtong sa greetings na yon all day and I was already expecting a bad response from her. Kaya pag uwi ko from work, I felt like with this situation, parang di ko kaya makipagkita sa kanya to celebrate our anniv and my birthday. Ang ending, though I was scared while typing it, nagtanong ako if pwede bang imove nalang yung post celebration date namin. Hindi sya agad nagreply but she had seen my message. She then asked for a cool off.
I accepted it and apologized. Of course it hurt me but gets ko pa rin kung saan sya nanggagaling. First anniv namin pero dahil sa akin, nasira lang.
Please don't be rude sa comments. I've been having a hard time mentally in the past few months and while we're on a cool off, I informed her that I'm trying to book an appointment for mental health consultation. I haven't told her yet but I've been feeling lonely kahit I'm in a relationship with her. Take note, we're in an LDR relationship. I feel like kahit sabihin at ipakita nyang mahal nya ako, it doesn't pass through my own bubble. At this point, I could relate na sa song ni Olivia Rodrigo na What's Wrong With Me.