I just typed a hour long OCD symptoms in a OCD group and it got deleted because you are not aloud to talk about OCD in a OCD group….. Half my posts I make get deleted and I feel so suffocated right now because there is no help here. I finally had the guts to type out something I have been suffering from for decades and it got deleted. I guess I have no voice and I should just give up on trying to seek help.

18 never had a real job, antisocial as fuck, dependent as fuck, and contribute to nothing basically, i spend any money that i get on video games. i see my future and it is not bright so i might as well get it over with and hang myself or something so i can stop being a burden leech, im a failed daughter😂✌️

i've been hurt for a while now, but i feel like this is my last straw. It's never going to stop, it just keeps on going, i've tried to find peace in life but the only thing i end up finding is more pain. I need some support because the people who i thought will be their for me makes me feel like a burden. I just want to see her again, i think its time to meet her.

I was fired from my last job, and missed an interview with the same company TWICE in a row because of miscalculating time differences as they are in another country.

I have terrible ADHD which led up to me being fired. I was earning a good amount. Today I just couldn't get the goddamn time right for the interview. I already hurt myself with a kitchen knife.

I feel like my inability to function the way I've always meant to keeps getting in the way of bigger opportunities. I feel like less of a human, less than half the person I should be. I don't deserve any of the good in my life. I don't deserve the good things. My dog is sleeping against my leg right now, I wish she had a better mother. I am a failure.

I’m 28. I just think it’s time to call it quits. I can’t get a job been to everywhere bear me (small town if I got part time in the nearby larger “city” I’d make like 10 dollars a week cause of gas) it doesn’t matter I wasted my life getting a computer science degree have no friends no anything wish I wasn’t born as me and well should have just killed myself at 19. I’ve been to therapy taken meds recent hospital visits and nothing will help me. I’m just in ugly socially enept loser that should never exist.

all what I do is apply help family with work or grandparents to hospital visits and I’m just ridiculed for not getting a job or a girlfriend. my family won’t miss me for me but the utility I give for free (I guess im not homeless but it doesn’t matter). I’ll just kill myself near christmas cause I know I’ll just get more why arnt you trying xyz and I do but nothing works.

I've been depressed for a year and a half, and this all started when I was 19. I'd never experienced depression before. I finished school two months ago, and my mother says I don't want to work and that all I do is sleep. She hasn't worked in 15 years and says nobody will hire her because of her age. She's 52 and perfectly healthy.

I was attending a vocational school because I don't see myself as capable of achieving anything better, and I used to give her all my money at the end of every month. She also received my child benefit and part of my minimum income support, because she receives it too and I had to be included in her claim.

I was born as a result of an affair, and for years I had to listen to stories about my biological father, as well as his girlfriend telling me about the things she used to do with him. I was around 11 years old at the time.

My mother is the reason I'm in this state. When I was 9, I was sent to a children's residential home, where I witnessed all sorts of things over the course of a year and eight months. My mother was evicted back then because she wasn't working, and now we're going to be homeless again in a month. This time, though, it's because the landlord wants to sell the house, and there's nothing we can do about it.

Will God punish me for this? Will I be punished for all eternity, forever and ever? I can't live a normal life. I'm constantly suffering, and I haven't received any treatment for six months.

I'm not gonna change my mind,because I'm gonna be homeless soon.

Thank you!

Hello, stranger.

I'm 36, and I feel like I'm no longer capable of doing anything. I was diagnosed with depression two years ago. At that time, I took the medication my doctor prescribed. To be honest, my doctor helped me a lot, especially by giving me someone to vent to. I had never cried that hard in my life until I talked to him.

I eventually stopped taking the medication. First, it was very expensive, and second, I didn't think it was helping me that much. That was also two years ago, when I still had my business and my day job. But now, I've lost everything. I lost my business, and I lost my job.

My wife is now the only one working for our family. I've completely lost my motivation. I even deactivated all of my social media accounts. Reddit is the only platform I still use.

I also forgot to mention that I had suicidal thoughts two years ago. I thought I had already overcome those thoughts, but today they came back. I'm so lost.

At 36, I feel old, especially here in the Philippines. At this age, people expect you to already have a house, a car, and an established career. But me? I have nothing. Absolutely nothing.

What makes everything even harder is that I have a wife and children who depend on me. They're the only reason I've stopped myself from acting on these thoughts. I keep thinking, what will happen to them if I'm gone?

I just want someone to talk to someone who's going through the same situation. I just want these thoughts to leave my mind because I know it would be unfair to the people I'd leave behind.

Please, just talk to me. I don't have the courage to tell my wife how I'm really feeling. My parents have abandoned me, and my so called friends were only around when I had money.

That's why I need a stranger right now.

Thank you, Redditors.

Hey everyone. So since this sub is filled with absolute tragedy I'll keep mine a bit short.
I'm going to end myself.
I'm completely alone and that's the truth.
I have no doctor, no friend, no third person, no parents who ACTUALLY listen, no authority, no future, no life, and just no chance.
I don't want to take any chances anymore.
Months ago I told myself that maybe I was wrong. Maybe there WERE people who COULD understand.
I won't say Humanity is terrible. What I will say is that I was only exposed to the wrong side of it.
I won't try crying or begging for your attention further since I don't want anyone to care anymore.
But my point for this post is, if there's ANY. ANY DAMN POINT.
Beside just waiting till it gets better, please tell me.
And I genuinely mean that. I'm not conducting some damn test.
I'm just asking one last time.
If there isn't be honest.
And forget coming across this post.
Thank you, and goodbye.

i wish i could just blow my head off, but as an only child i would never do that to my family especially my mom. I hate myself so much. every single second of my life that i have to be in my body and mind makes my skin crawl. im thinking of turning my entire family against me by doing something terrible so the pain of me dying wouldn’t sting them as much

I do all this shit and I never get anything done. Im not meant to do school or work. I can't do anything. When I tried to do homework all I could do is cry and throw things and hit myself. I'm an adult, im acting like a child. I should just die.

Over the past 4 days, I’ve taken 115 sleeping pills, 3 mg each, and consumed almost 15 cans of energy drinks like Monster and Red Bull. I don’t understand why I’m still alive and why nothing seems to be happening to me. I’m exhausted, angry, and hurting so much that I just want to disappear completely.

Somehow my life is the worst it's ever been. From being homeless, being raped, being cheated on by multiple partners, being in an abusive relationship where I genuinely thought I'd be killed one day, being suddenly laid off; I've somehow managed to be at an even worse place. I got fired from my job, crashed my car, got overweight, got into debt for no good fucking reason because my plan to finish my degree only to have the rug pulled out from under me because now I can't purse grad school after due to loan limits being put into place this year. I'm ugly, I'm boring, the only miserable thing I'm good for now is being a stray at home girlfriend because I can't find a fucking new job. I'm fucking worthless.

Everyone in my life would be better off with me dead. My ex could finally have his wish come true, my boyfriend would save money, my friends wouldn't have to deal with me, my parents could give their full attention to my sister and niece, the rest of my dance company wouldn't have to suffer through my clumsy ugly dancing. I'm just messing everyone's lives so much worse by being here. I'm deadweight. I have no meaningful future ahead of me. I'm old and fat and ugly and worthless. I shouldn't be alive.

I think about how nice it would be to hike as far out as I can and hang myself. Not one day that passes without me thinking about it.

my boyfriend is leaving for a business trip on Friday, I want to do it while they're gone.

I can't ever feel happy. I'm tired and broken and just done. I don't want to keep going. I don't want to endure more. My life has amounted to nothing.

At this point, ik there's no God. No one will ever help me make my life better. My family will and have provided me with multiple chances. But I can never make good of it and do something with my life. So what's the point. I am sick of trying and then giving up after one bad day. I am sick of myself and how I don't work hard for anything at all. I am so sick of myself and my big words and big promises. And never ever acting upon them.

i am 22. I have done nothing with my life. Didn't go to college,didn't do shit. My friends are either graduating this year or have already graduated and have jobs. Hell even my juniors have jobs. My family is borderline broke. My family has zero respect for me at this point. All i ever hear about from everyone around is how I haven't done anything worthwhile in my whole life. I get called useless at least once a day. I am so done guys. I don't mind the fact that I am not on the same timeline as the people in my life, but I can't handle anymore of this scorn. I am depressed and I have anxiety and I can't sleep sometimes and sometimes all I can do is sleep. I am so tired of this.

I can't ask my parents for anymore chances. I can't live in this shame anymore. I just can't

Was having a heartfelt conversation with a good friend when suddenly I see this message pop up on my notification feed and I just paused for so long.

“you're not behind, i think you're doing well for your age you got a job at (blank) and you're not into drugs or partying”

Only person who knows I started doing drugs again is the person I did them with and my cousin who I tell everything too. And I have barely even gotten this job (my workday is all messed up and ive been trying to reach a manager but I think they are just going to revoke the job offer at this point).

I feel horrible. I will never tell her I was using because she doesn’t need to know. But the fact is that it makes the message she sent not real. I dont have a job, im 70-80% likely, and I am using.

The worst part about it is I loved it. I loved using again. I felt alive, and conscious. I want to buy. I am going to buy. I have the place to buy.

I want to feel real again. I hate this. Ive been sober for 9 months and about 2 weeks. Its been horrid, apart from the 2 weeks I was binge drinking with my friend in the summer. Which again I only felt alive, conscious and free then when I was heavily drunk constantly.

Long story short, I (23F) have a narcissistic Mother, She kicked me out of the house and i am jobless. I am in a homeless shelter, and i am going to commit suicide now. Bye i guess.

There is nobody in this world that cares about me, the only college I cared about, I failed to get into and it's too late to change, with the one I am at now I'll have no future. There is nothing for me, here. I'm scared of dying but I won't make it past 25, it's been too much and I'm tired of being a failure, after trying my hardest since middle school and ending up nowhere. Everything is fucking meaningless and I am all alone with nobody in my corner...

I want to bleed, I want to beaten up, I want to die

Im an extremely horrible person who doesn't deserve to exist. I'm a fuckup in any and every aspect of life ever. I can't even kms cuz I dont have courage for anything. Please, why the fuck am i like this? I don't wanna continue existing anymore, everything is painful, I can't progress or succeed in anything, I have and will fuck up every relationship of my life.

I need to die.

Just like the title says, thinking about suicide just gives me a really good feeling. I've done a lot of drugs, and I feel like suicide would be better than any feeling I've had after taking some drugs. No more stress, no more worries. I still haven't decided if that day comes what I'll commit suicide with, probably I'll do some crazy drug doses, that could maybe kill me, then shoot or hang myself, something quick preferably.

I've also thought of overdosing as a way, but that doesn't sound quick, nor pleasant. The only reason I wouldn't shoot myself is because of how attractive I am. Not that it would matter when I'm dead, but it's literally the last thing I'd do.

anyways, thought I'd post here. >. <

I notice myself having thoughts of not being around I truly feel Unlovable to women I am fucked. I had an injury down there and none the less I’ve recovered but I’m not once what I was. I sound pathetic but I genuinely don’t know I have no self love no self worth

This is probably gonna be long and boring and I don’t blame if you don’t wanna read

I’ve had bipolar 1 with psychotic features for half my life now. I’m 35. I had a SA in January where I was in the ICU for 3 days, I now have to get a brain MRI next week to make sure I didn’t do damage or already had it, but wtf does it matter? I’ve had four inpatient stays in the hospital in a year otherwise. I’m so fucking miserable and I just lose more and more support the better of a person I try to become. It’s like people actually liked me when I was a shit show. It breaks my heart cause I think now all my friends I had I was solely just entertainment for them. I have an elder dog I’m doing everything in my power to hold off for, but what do I do for my younger dog? I’ll never put her in a shelter, she doesn’t deserve that. I could give her away but I feel like some POS will flag me for doing so. I just want wants best for my dogs cause I’m simply no longer ok to stick around life anymore. I’ve tried, I’ve tried so hard, I don’t hate life I actually really like it but something is just fucking wrong with me. I’m so sick of being sad, and I also have some physical problems that are causing serious pain that are contributing to my alcoholism. I love to drink, don’t get me wrong, but I went five years without it and now I’ve been dealing with such serious neuropathy problems and neck pain I do anything to distract myself. If it’s not alcohol, it’s another drug, or gambling, or whatever else I can do. I don’t even know why I’m posting. I’m trying so fucking hard to survive, but I’m so tired of not sleeping, then sleeping for days, no energy ever, no happiness in the little things anymore, and truly getting to the point I only want my dogs to be ok. My family doesn’t love me, I don’t blame them. I just want to be gone already. I’m trying so hard to stick it out because I have no fucking people in my life that would do me good and make sure my dogs are ok. But I don’t have much energy left to even stick around for them

I have tried hanging 4 times, 2 times yesterday alone. I feel an urge to cut myself and I am often unable to control it. These come from triggers which I am unable to mitigate. I still feel the urge. Yesterday something happened which made things worse for me. I can't help but trying to die. Only death seems peaceful

i can’t do this anymore i can’t i really can’t

it hurts so much to stick around and watch everyone who made me suffer feel so happy whilst still claiming the title of depressed. everyone who shaped me with anger and hatred living their best lives while i rot away with no one. they have everything i ever had. my friends, my music, even my mom likes other kids more than me. i have no talent and i have less than average looks. i get laughed at and stared at because to everyone else im just a fucking freak. i have no life to live for.

Me agarro una crisis de la nada y quería lastimarme ahora estoy internada con tratamiento psiquiátrico

Seriously.

i want to give it my all soon to just get this life over with, and im tired of it failing, i want this to be it, once and for all