I am 36M, turning 37 soon. My bırthday is on the 24th, less than 2 weeks from now. I am dreading my 37th bırthday and feel like I do not want this bırthday at all.

I feel awful and hopeless. Just wanting to talk, as I have no friends and thus no support system whatsoever.

I feel like i don’t know empty. Lonely. A void. I have a headache. My sleep schedule is messed up. I feel like a failure. Months of preparation for my admission exam destroyed my mental health and even after all that, I might not get admission to a good med uni. I don’t know what to think or do.

At times, the sadness is too empowering. I don’t know what to do to solve it. I don’t have many friends because most of them went offline after exams and didn’t come back online. I honestly don’t know what to do to feel better on average. The things I used to love I have no interest in anymore. I don’t know how to recover. I feel…..lost.