Misogynistic porn is starting to fuck me up. Mix that with my daddy issues and you get a depraved goonette who just can't get enough pleasure. Right now I'm lying on my couch, fingering my asshole with a vibe pressed against my clit, scrolling through my favorite porn and getting more and more depraved the whole time. I've never been happier. I've got my sluttiest bra on, a paci in my mouth, and I'm always ready to bounce and go dumb like a good stupid girl whenever my clit tells me to. It helps that I'm just a pretty girl who looks so innocent. Watching myself go stupid in the mirror makes me realize how much I love being degraded, even by myself. Fuck, I look so dumb and I love it. It makes me drip even more knowing how shy I am and how I'd never admit to doing any of this, really ever.
Now I'm getting on all fours like a good pup, humping the air.
I'm imagining being the bestest girl and enjoying men peeing on my face.
I'm getting wetter at the thought of an older man who could be my father using and abusing me, degrading me in a condescending tone, then taking pictures of me to jerk off to later.
I'm only watching anal porn and feeling my cunt drip, using that as lube for my plug.
I'm drooling on my tits with my gag in my mouth.
I'm rubbing my clit and watching depraved porn while on the phone with my friends.
My eyes roll back in pleasure at the thought of being fishhooked and laughed at by men.
I'm seriously thinking about walking around my neighborhood dressed like rapebait, hoping a man recognizes me for the dumb whore I am and uses me.
I got next to nothing done today, but there's always tomorrow.
The feeling I get from being degraded, dumbed down, and humiliated is like nothing else. It wasn't this bad a few months ago, but I'm so happy to keep striving to be a gooder girl than I already am.