i feel tired and very behind like i have full family support and no worries about finances

This may be a strange question, and to be VERY clear, I don’t have ANYTHING negative to say if you don’t want kids.

But I always thought oh, maybe this is just a loud minority, but what really put it into perspective for me was my mom saying how many guys there are at this church I may go to who want wives, and so many girls who want husbands. So I was like um what’s the issue???? My mom said it’s because the guys want kids and the girls don’t, which shocked me!!! Even in a church, where you’d expect that they’d be the people who would want kids.

I personally do want kids. Maybe that’s why it was so hard for me to believe lol. What’s your reasoning, if your one of these women?

I think the current state of gaming has phased out casual gamers. Why can’t we just play for fun anymore? Why are we constantly getting wiped out by people who haven’t seen the sun in days? It’s tiring to pick up and learn a new game these days, because the strain of building your skills under constant competition just isn’t worth it.
Jarring!!!

I (26F) met a guy (37M) online a year ago. We met in person in December 2025 and were intimate. Since then, we've talked almost daily, sometimes for hours. He's affectionate, shares everything with me, and there's still sexual tension. He started all of this with good morning's every day and goodnight's, and texting me non stop. Like literally. Calling me sweet names and stuff.

Initially, he talked about our future and me moving to his country. Three months after meeting, he said he didn't want a relationship and needed to work on himself. Since then, he's repeatedly postponed meeting and says, "We'll see." Everytime I ask. I travelled to him first time. And he always says "I don't know" "We will see" "in two weeks"

Recently, I bought a ticket to visit him because things seemed to be going well. He exploded, screamed that I couldn't come, said he never wanted to see me again, and threatened to block me. A few hours later, he apologized, saying he values me, enjoys talking to me, and doesn't want to lose our friendship, but doesn't know what he wants. He admitted he can be selfish and treat me badly when overwhelmed. He refunded my ticket when I asked next day.

His message:

I want to apologize to you, and I really appreciate the fact that you always have time for me, that you always care about me, and honestly, it’s really rare to meet someone like that. I’m aware of that. Whatever the reason for it might be, it’s hard to find someone who will listen to your bullshit for 8 hours. I don’t want to end our friendship, that’s not what this is about. To be honest, I don’t even know what to do with my life at this point. When you put pressure on me like that, some kind of defense mechanism kicks in or something, I don’t know. Afterwards I feel guilty about the way I talk to you, because you don’t deserve that. I don’t want to behave like that, because afterwards I feel really bad about it.

I like talking to you. Not always — sometimes I shut myself off, I have my own stuff going on in my head. I know that sometimes I’m selfish and only think about myself. If you’re able to accept our relationship the way it was, and it gives you something too, then we can obviously keep talking the way we used to. But I don’t know what’s going to happen. It’s not about what you think, whether I’ll meet someone or I won’t — that’s not what this is about. And it’s not like you’re...

You’re not nobody to me, you know a lot about me, I tell you a lot. I treat you like a friend, even though I guess I behave differently — but you noticed that at some point. I don’t know, I just wanted to write you a little bit about what I think. I don’t know if it makes sense, but there’s always something you can take from it. 😅 I think I owe you that, because I’m always shouting at you whenever you ask me about something, so I thought that today I’d give you a little bit of my time and actually open up.

You can see how I get when I’m in a certain state — I sing, I talk haha, but afterwards it can also get pretty difficult, like today. Honestly, I was just crying over all of this. But it’s probably the after-effects of the weekend. I haven’t been drinking since I got back, and I don’t want to for now, or anything else either. I’m finding it harder and harder to deal with sometimes.

Sometimes I think it would be best to isolate from everyone and just live like that, because relationships with people affect me pretty strongly. But on the other hand, the thought of being completely alone, not having someone who knows you and all that, scares me. I think about that sometimes, which is why, when it comes to taking care of valuable relationships, I think I know what you mean. One day they might be priceless.

I think I’ve gone crazy haha. I did smoke, to be fair, but I don’t think I wrote anything stupid. I just wanted to explain a little bit — what I think and what’s going on in my head. Maybe it’s a little chaotic, but there’s probably something to take from it. 😅

And I don’t want you to take this message as me saying, “We can talk, but we’re never going to meet.” That’s not what I’m saying — who knows. 😅

I explained that his affection and past promises gave me hope, but it's good to know where I'm standing on. I told him it's weird because even if he was slightly interested, he would meet with me. He said he didn't want to discuss it yet. The next morning, he sent playful voice messages saying, "You don't like me anymore!" and kept seeking reassurance that I still liked him.

He called me twice this week and continues texting, but I'm no longer showing much affection. I don't want late-night conversations or to fall asleep on the phone anymore.

He often, nonstop, talks about himself, his life, and his problems without asking about me, my life, or my needs. He also used to mention women staring at or flirting with him on the train. He displays what I perceive as narcissistic traits, although I can't know whether he has any disorder.

He uses drugs, sometimes drinks heavily, struggles mentally, calls himself worthless, and says he feels unworthy of love. He's also still in contact with his ex, who moved abroad to live with him after knowing him for only a month. I sometimes wonder whether I'm a rebound or filling the emotional void she left. They broke up 4 years ago.

He's planning to visit my country because his family lives here and dental treatment is cheaper. He mentioned wanting to visit more often but never suggested seeing me. I sarcastically replied, "Cool, meet your friends and family," and he laughed because he understood the irony. Instead, he made vague comments about how we might smoke weed together in person someday, adding, "Who knows?"

I feel like his unpaid therapist: I provide emotional support, companionship, affection, and reassurance, while he avoids commitment and concrete plans. He says I'm valuable to him but only sees me as a friend, yet continues acting affectionate and seeking validation.

He is divorced for years, has kids at my country. He had an ex I mentioned after that. He doesn't live with anyone, he sends me voice messages / picks up when I call in the evenings. So he is either still having feelings for his ex (well he said she wanted to get back together but he didn't want to) or waiting for better option.

Why does he want my attention and reassurance if he doesn't want a relationship?

EDIT: And he just told me today he is going to Mallorca for work, he does house renovations and they fly him from another country there which seems weird but ok.
And I told him to party and have a good time and he said "you're jealous haha" and I said "about a friend? nooo hahha" And he said "ok"
Lmao

I noticed in my college that they are dislike black Americans like me, and It's seem like some one-ended beef.

I may be wrong but my observation (more than once) is that when a lot of people are wronged and hurt - and if many of them deeply wish bad things on the torturer - it works to some extent. And the 'inflictor' does get harmed.

In short, does collective and justified cursing work?

Hi, so to keep it short. I'm in a private rental and sue to circumstances, we haven't had internet for 5 days now. So I've had to run both my phone and ps5 of ny data.

My data just run out (I can't renew it right now) but I have 100600.15MB of roll over data. Does anyone know how long that might last me if I'm using it on my Ps5?

I'm not very good with this stuff, so help would be appreciated thank you 🙏 😊

Prices that get higher do not generally help everyone.

I’m sure everyone talks about Evil and it’s benefits to us it’s “often viewed as a short cut” we’re told The Righteous suffer and The Wicked prosper people often love to use History as an example and a reminder as to what unfortunately happens to Good People in our World! Good People may never wield Power unsurprisingly however they’ll forever wield our Hearts along with Kindness and Compassion! But what are the actual benefits of being a Good Person that needs to be addressed?

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Every year or rarely every 80 years

Crying in public transport is definitely not something anyone plans for

Just wondering.

I'm always seeing mentions in posts about people not being clear about what the different emojis mean. I myself have been confused by some of them, and I was just wondering, is there any directory anywhere that explains what all of the emojis are supposed to mean?

It seems like a lot of people use them in different ways. I was just wondering if there was any kind of official statement on this, or is it just up to interpretation?

Like if my cat is sad or depressed what does it do?

When I'm relaxed I have a semi-noticeable lazy eye that I hate having, but when I focus I can 'put it back where it should be' and it looks like I have normal eyes. Usually my depth perception is really bad but when I force my eye to look normal I'm blown away by how far away and weird everything looks.

However while it looks normal it just feels hard to focus on screens or what I'm meant to be looking at and I get all teary eyed really fast (my eyes are teary in general anyway but it gets worse when I do this). In most pictures I take or that have been taken of me I force my eye into this position for the sake of the photo and then let go and make it go lazy again. It also takes a lot of effort to maintain it and I slip a lot (especially when I blink or change if I'm looking up and down). The only other way I can describe it is the 3DS's flat vs 3D mode, in flat mode I can see everything by itself despite it not having much depth perception, but in 3D mode I can only really focus on the subject immediately in front of me and everything suddenly has depth, I also struggle to read when I make my eyes do this

My week has been hard and stressful, would love to hear the positive things going on with everyone! 😁