ill try my best to keep it short
to put it bluntly, i cant practice magick peacefully and without interruption, at least not within my current living conditions, and so i think that is limiting a lot of which i want to do, i cant really make an altar or something, sure i can maybe light a singular candle, but whats the use of that if most rituals require more than that? i only ever performed 2 rituals targeted to Archangel Michael (chaos sigils too but i wouldnt say they have a high hit-rate for me), and id love to do a whole lot more, but again, my hands are tied here, even without interruptions, i cant even imagine myself explaining it to my parents of what im doing, and its not like im some teen that can get it written off as a phase lol
i really like angelolatry, you know when i had slightly more privacy and besides those Michael rituals ive practiced the lbrp i actually felt like im becoming a better person, but now it feels as if its starting to slip through my fingers, im especially interested in the shem angels, but most rituals to invoke them require quit a bit of effort, something i cannot allocate, well theres the GoM stuff i guess, but that ritual takes 11 days aswell and you need a place where you wont be bothered, dont like GoM tho
regardless, this isnt as much as a vent post as it is me asking for direction on what i should do to not slip, ill just go ahead and say this now - no, prayers do not work for me, ive prayed countless times and never have i felt anything, so what is there left to do? what other type of lowkey magick can i practice? like on the surface, there are so many ways of practicing, but when i actually try to put some thought into it, my head is empty, i have some elder futhark(probably elder) runes laying around i got as a gift, you know the basic lo scarabeo ones, maybe runic magick? or talismans of sorts, i dont know, id highly appreciate if youd point to any resources or advice, thanks!