After an eight-year wait, the day has finally arrived; I’m having surgery tomorrow—nervous, but very excited! ^^

Honestly was super nervous but a few pounds lighter, curbs , hips and chest coming in as well as my hair length lending itself to my new body really elevated my confidence! Not showing my face out of privacy though it is also seeing a lot of beautiful changes ! but I am very happy with how things are going and I just got the refil for the next 3 months! My doctor said we will increase my dosage on my next checkup so im very excited to see what wonderful changes are coming my way :)

Charlotte vs Innsbruck Airport Security… Round Two! 🤣✈️🏳️‍⚧️

So, guess who just managed to cause absolute chaos at Innsbruck Airport security AND passport control?

I'll give you a clue…

It's little ol' me! 💁‍♀️🤣🤣

I'm not entirely sure the poor lady at security had ever dealt with a trans passenger before, because the conversation went something like this…

👮‍♀️ "Are you wearing a corset?"

💁‍♀️ "Yes…"

👮‍♀️ "Are you able to take it off for the scanner?"

💁‍♀️ "Erm…"

👮‍♀️ "Also, do you have implants?"

💁‍♀️ "Yes…"

👮‍♀️ "Can you take them out and put them in this bag?"

💁‍♀️ Confused Charlotte noises and increasingly bewildered facial expressions. 😳🤣

At this point, I genuinely think the poor lass was having a full-on panic attack. She looked completely unsure what to do with me!

Thankfully, a rather nice, handsome gentleman came over, politely asked if I'd mind him taking over, and whisked me away.

A few minutes later, everything was sorted.

No undressing required! 😂❤️

And then came passport control…

Apparently, Charlotte looks so different from the person in my passport that the system wasn't entirely convinced we were the same person! 🤣

I'm choosing to believe that's because Charlotte is considerably prettier than everyday me. 💅😂

Eventually, everything was sorted, and I was on my way.

To be fair, everyone was trying to do their job, and the gentleman who stepped in was absolutely lovely.

It's certainly been an interesting end to my Austrian adventure!

Three days exploring Austria as Charlotte, climbing mountains in heels, chasing waterfalls, rescuing a destroyed wig, and now confusing an entire airport.

I don't think Austria will forget me in a hurry! 🤣🤣❤️✈️

Slaying in my own way🥰

Not fully out but I'm getting there. I thought I would also show off this cute dress from Zara 🩷

Im getting older and just dont fit in with my young trans friends in their 20s! I hope it fit in here

Came out at 33 during the lowest point of my life; three years later and I just get cuter, how the hell does that work lol

Well, I'm glad it did and continues to. Still not even close to mostly good days, but since starting, even with life not stopping, I want to keep going. I want to know where this really ends, and not where a sad man told his sick girlfriend that he didn't want to live past last year.

Cheers, chin up, and to life, my distant siblings.

It is crazy to me that it's been 2 years. It doesn't feel like it.

I'll be honest, I do not see as much difference as I expected at 2 years. HOWEVER - up till 6 months ago I was not on a theraptuic dose. My E was too low, testosterone wasn't adequately suppressed for the first 6 months, so I'm quietly hopeful for more changes now because - my most recent blood test was all good stuff 🥳

I'm actually going to add the blood results I had throughout these two years here, so that you can see my experience and levels and how that relates to my experience (past posts are available on my profile if you wish to see what changed each time I posted).

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For context - I'm 33 and taking HRT prescribed privately through GenderCare in the UK. I started in mid-October of 2024 (when I was 31).

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October 2024 - November 2024:

- 1mg Oestrogen (Estradiol) - oral tablet 1x daily

- 100mg Spiro - oral tablet 2x daily

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November 2024 - February 2025:

- 2mg Oestrogen (Estradiol) - oral tablets 1x daily

- 100mg Spiro - oral tablet 2x daily

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February 2025 - April 2025;

- 4mg Oestrogen (Estradiol) - oral tablets 1x daily

- 100mg Spiro - oral tablet 2x daily

- Oestradial (Oestrogen) blood test March 25: 222 pmol/L

- Testosterone blood test March 25: 19.6 nmol/L

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April 2025 - October 2025

- 6mg Oestrogen (Estradiol) - oral tablet 1x daily

- 12.5mg Cyproterone Acetate (CA) - oral tablet 2x weekly

- Oestradial (Oestrogen) blood test October 25: 172 pmol/L

- Testosterone blood test October 25: 1.5 nmol/L

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October 2025 - April 2026:

- 8mg Oestrogen (Estradiol) - oral tablet 1x daily

- 12.5mg Cyproterone Acetate (CA) - oral tablet 2x weekly

- Oestradial (Oestrogen) blood test April 26: 239 pmol/L

- Testosterone blood test April 26: 2.5 nmol/L

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April 2026 - Present:

- Oestrogen patches - 100 micrograms 2x, changed twice a week

- 12.5mg Cyproterone Acetate (CA) - oral tablet 2x weekly

- Oestradial (Oestrogen) blood test October 26: 751 pmol/L 🥳🥳

- Testosterone blood test October 26: 1 nmol/L

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Changes (20 months HRT - present):

I have noticed significant changes in the last 4 months compared the the previous 20.

Still not where I would like to be eventually, but I genuinely feel I look a lot more feminine. I think I am coming to terms with the reality that I am not one of the lucky few and am probably going to need surgery to get to where I feel comfortable and not dysphoric.

My face, my eyes, my body is starting to change in a more complete way though. I can't exactly explain what it is - it's just, it seems like it's actually doing something more significant now. My breasts are growing still, still somewhere between a b and a c cup, but not obviously because i'm a bit barrel chested. Fat is starting to be more noticeabke on my bum and hips (and I want to try and lose some of my pre-hrt stomach to make that more pronounced).

Not surpising that I'm noticing something more substantial now, given I was under dose for 18 months.

Mentally wise I do feel much more in tune with my emotions, I think. I was experiencing that already but I feel more at home in them - and I feel I am starting to look feminine enough that voice training and dressing more aligned doesn't feel as awkward... course that means I need to do more of that now 😅

If anyone has any questions I am more than happy to answer as best I can.

Em x

Mid-2000’s teenager Brooke would have been SO excited about this

There’s my inner self, out, she’s 52 and loving it! 😻

Alas still no boobs

Last day in Innsbruck! 🇦🇹💕✈️

Well, my little Austrian adventure is coming to an end, and Charlotte is heading home!

I've decided to walk to the airport this morning. It's only about 2 miles away, so why not? 😂

And yes, as seems to be the norm on this trip, I'm doing it in heeled boots! 👢🤣

After climbing mountains and chasing waterfalls in heels, a little walk to the airport should be easy enough!

I also went shopping last night and treated myself to some new eyeshadow. Today I've decided to experiment with white and blue. 💙🤍

I'm still not entirely sure whether the colours work together, but I'm enjoying trying something different and getting a little more adventurous with my makeup.

And look! My eyeliner wings are actually getting better! 😂

Still plenty to learn, but I'm slowly getting the hang of it.

It's been a fantastic few days exploring Austria as Charlotte, and I'm feeling a little more confident every time I go out.

Now, time to get these heels moving. I've got a plane to catch! ✈️❤️

What do you think of today's eyeshadow? Does the blue and white work, or should I stick to warmer colours?

After enjoying summer fashion, I was unsure if I would still love my cosy layers of autumn. It seems I do! 😆

Are you having a good week? How are you coping if you’re dealing with changing seasons?

Today, I felt beautiful. Some days, that feeling is fleeting and sporadic. Today, I didn't have on fancy clothes. I didn't do elaborate makeup. Today was just me, my old beat up sweatshirt and a pair of jeans and I felt beautiful. Which is really hard for me.. Because most days I feel so ugly inside and out. I know i've talked a lot about my separation from my wife. And honestly, I feel like a broken record because these feelings just keep playing on repeat. I have been trying all day long to just get myself to sit down and do my schoolwork with the bare minimum of success. I'm in the middle of midterms, and struggling so much to just make things happen. My grades are fine. I'm not worried about that.I'm just recognizing the struggle that i'm going through and how difficult it is to just "do" sometimes. This is my, or will be my second weekend away from home and it feels like a lifetime. I know it's going to be a long time before it happens for me. But I wish it would stop hurting so much. I can't keep redoing my makeup.

47F. Two years HRT. I thought I'd need top surgery, but considering my growth, maybe not?

It's been a wild ride filled with sacrifice, rejection, acceptance, growth and finding who I am more day by day.

I think one of the best parts has been finding community. Finding myself within the trans and wider queer community has been a joy. Especially participating locally. Helping other girls going through similar things to me.

I came from a place of profound loneliness and isolation to one of being surrounded by support and love. I am so grateful for this!!

I can't wait to see where the next year takes me and how I can grow and help others as well.

I got gendered correctly in my long sleeves crap shirt and jeans with only a little bit of make-up on... I didn't even tell him my name, just moved around.

I thought today was going to suck, but when he said that, my day almost instantly improved.

I have started wearing dresses around the house more - I’m not ready to go fully into the wild yet though.

But today for the first time without really even thinking about until afterwards I went into the garden and took the washing in and went to the car to get my sunglasses. It wasn’t until a few minutes I even clocked I had been wearing a dress.

Feels like a huge step for me but I realise it’s not really that big a thing for some but I am painfully shy and avoid social situations as much as is possible and being outside just in general isn’t my favourite.

I feel quite pleased with myself and just wanted to share

I no longer see myself as in boymode with a bare face

/ᐠ˶>⩊<˶マ ₊˚⊹♡

I guess it’s not so unusual for older trans women to be torn between their family and finishing transition to full time as just me. Over a decade of secretly taking hrt and lying about it to my wife. Over a decade of our kids wondering when we will divorce and dad begin living full time as female. First two grandkids this year, and not certain I would ever be welcome around them again if I am living full time as me. Wanting to just be accepted and loved for being me. Tried the desperate attempt of purging again, after promising myself I would never do that again five years ago. Now I’m rebuilding all of my necessities and planning an appointment for a quality wig. Meanwhile, I’m beating myself up emotionally for again betraying my wife with my secrets. When will I ever get things right!?!