And I recommend it to anyone who feels so inclined (39 y/o, 23 months HRT).

Heeeey!

So I am 30 since a few months and life has been giving me hints to finally transition soon, tell people about it and stuff.
Currently I am super uncertain if my body would even look good when having hormone therapy.. I am pretty fine with how I look from the front and the side, yet my back… heeeelp! If I‘d start e. g. by 31 do you think I could still become feminine? I hate myself at the moment for the anxiety I always had and not deciding to transition at 18 to 23 already.. :(

I am very happy about any help, impression, suggestions, experiences etc.

Thanks to a lot of support. I was able to go out for the first time as me (solo)

Almost had a heart attack though

But anyways..... made it back safe, hearts ok lol

worth 10/10 would recommend. 😊

Honestly was super nervous but a few pounds lighter, curbs , hips and chest coming in as well as my hair length lending itself to my new body really elevated my confidence! Not showing my face out of privacy though it is also seeing a lot of beautiful changes ! but I am very happy with how things are going and I just got the refil for the next 3 months! My doctor said we will increase my dosage on my next checkup so im very excited to see what wonderful changes are coming my way :)

Im getting older and just dont fit in with my young trans friends in their 20s! I hope it fit in here

Mid-2000’s teenager Brooke would have been SO excited about this

After an eight-year wait, the day has finally arrived; I’m having surgery tomorrow—nervous, but very excited! ^^

Today, I felt beautiful. Some days, that feeling is fleeting and sporadic. Today, I didn't have on fancy clothes. I didn't do elaborate makeup. Today was just me, my old beat up sweatshirt and a pair of jeans and I felt beautiful. Which is really hard for me.. Because most days I feel so ugly inside and out. I know i've talked a lot about my separation from my wife. And honestly, I feel like a broken record because these feelings just keep playing on repeat. I have been trying all day long to just get myself to sit down and do my schoolwork with the bare minimum of success. I'm in the middle of midterms, and struggling so much to just make things happen. My grades are fine. I'm not worried about that.I'm just recognizing the struggle that i'm going through and how difficult it is to just "do" sometimes. This is my, or will be my second weekend away from home and it feels like a lifetime. I know it's going to be a long time before it happens for me. But I wish it would stop hurting so much. I can't keep redoing my makeup.

only did half my face so i could compare, but shout out to the nice lady at ulta who color matched me. blush is next.

There’s my inner self, out, she’s 52 and loving it! 😻

Went on a whim to have a walk at the beach with my partner. After 2.5 miles we were hungry and thirsty so we stopped at the Sun Deck to relax and enjoy each other’s company… and the sunset.

Over the last year, the internal feelings have healed along with my health but nothing surpasses the feelings that I have when my partner affirms me with the simplest comment where she refers to me as “she” and as a woman. She’s also very protective - it’s something that I couldn’t have considered a few years ago. She stayed!!! 🥰 and I love her.

Just as mentioned, I'm shy of 4 months on HRT and biggest thing I can say is that I feel so much better. I can't wait for the one year mark 🖤♥️🖤

Edit: Started at 32 after having a meltdown on my birthday so y'know that was fun

It's been a wild ride filled with sacrifice, rejection, acceptance, growth and finding who I am more day by day.

I think one of the best parts has been finding community. Finding myself within the trans and wider queer community has been a joy. Especially participating locally. Helping other girls going through similar things to me.

I came from a place of profound loneliness and isolation to one of being surrounded by support and love. I am so grateful for this!!

I can't wait to see where the next year takes me and how I can grow and help others as well.

I guess it’s not so unusual for older trans women to be torn between their family and finishing transition to full time as just me. Over a decade of secretly taking hrt and lying about it to my wife. Over a decade of our kids wondering when we will divorce and dad begin living full time as female. First two grandkids this year, and not certain I would ever be welcome around them again if I am living full time as me. Wanting to just be accepted and loved for being me. Tried the desperate attempt of purging again, after promising myself I would never do that again five years ago. Now I’m rebuilding all of my necessities and planning an appointment for a quality wig. Meanwhile, I’m beating myself up emotionally for again betraying my wife with my secrets. When will I ever get things right!?!

A bit of euphoria at work. Happy Friday everyone.

Alas still no boobs

Grabbed a random nail varnish from a local pharmacy and it matched both my working from home office skirt and summer dress! Yay for little Friday wins!

I'm sharing another picture about 5 years ago, a picture right BEFORE hair transplant and the last picture is a recent picture a year and half later after hair transplant(a few days ago). Also the picture just before my surgery my face was stull recovering from FFS which is why it looks so different from the last pic. A few answers:

Yes, I grew enough for the donor area.

No, I don't use extensions now.

What you see in the last pic is about 3 3/4 years total growth because the transplant mostly had to fix the top area and feminize the hairline.

My hair regrowth routine as I transitioned.

At the beginning:

Minoxidil 2x daily

Prescription Finasteride daily

Spironolactone daily

HIMS Biotin Gummy daily

Estradiol Valerate Injection every other week

Alternate Daily OGX Biotin/Collagen Conditioner and OGX Biotin/Collagen Shampoo

Every 10 days microneedle with a 1 mm derma roller

Every 2 days microneedle with a .25 mm derma roller

After SRS:

Minoxidil 2x daily

HIMS Biotin Gummy daily

Estradiol Valerate Injection every other week

Daily use OGX Biotin/Collagen Conditioner and OGX Biotin/Collagen Shampoo

Every 10 days microneedle with a 1 mm derma roller

Every 2 days microneedle with a .25 mm derma roller

After Hair Transplant:

Minoxidil 2x daily

HIMS Biotin Gummy daily

Estradiol Valerate Injection every other week

Daily use OGX Biotin/Collagen Conditioner and OGX Biotin/Collagen Shampoo

I got gendered correctly in my long sleeves crap shirt and jeans with only a little bit of make-up on... I didn't even tell him my name, just moved around.

I thought today was going to suck, but when he said that, my day almost instantly improved.

Came out at 33 during the lowest point of my life; three years later and I just get cuter, how the hell does that work lol

Well, I'm glad it did and continues to. Still not even close to mostly good days, but since starting, even with life not stopping, I want to keep going. I want to know where this really ends, and not where a sad man told his sick girlfriend that he didn't want to live past last year.

Cheers, chin up, and to life, my distant siblings.