prior to this experience the most I had ever tried was 60mg though I typically did 45mg hybrids or sativa. I recently changed my source of edibles to a prescribed source of indica 30mgs. It’s been roughly 2 weeks since I last did any weed prior to this experience.
Keep in mind i am still quite new to weed so i dont really have any tolerance built up and have only done it maybe about 10 times. i also know 60 is not considered a lot to most people but its the most i have ever done.
It had 45mg and after around 30 minutes I decided to take another 15 because I was impatient (I had done 60 before and it was fine so i assumed it shouldn’t be a problem), around an hour in it began to kick in.
I was sitting at my table on a call doing the thing where you kind of just sit in place and let your body feel like it’s sinking or falling. This was something I did a lot when high and I didn’t have a problem with it, however this time as I left myself “sink”, I felt waves of forces hitting me and they kept coming at me at such high velocity and each time I got hit it would dislocate parts of my reality and identity. It felt like reality was like a raft ontop of the sea and each time a wave would hit me reality would detach and separate more and more each wave that hit me.
I quickly stopped “sinking” myself and I had this feeling of dread or realisation that I had gone too far and peered past this dimension or something. It felt like I saw past this existence and that everything I know and have known is just a simulation. I tried calming myself down but couldn’t get over it and was starting to panic and get extremely paranoid and nervous, I decided to go to my bed instead and try relax. I was BARELY capable of even moving as I was on my bed. I tried to get water and it felt like I had been drugged by like 10 sedatives or something.
Parts of my identity were detaching like my identity and sense of self was like an object rather than like a concept. for example the poster in my room, the idea that I had a poster in my room of a show I liked detached from my body and I saw it float away. the music i listen to, i saw that as a concept detach from me and float away. the games I like, the people I know, my name and everything i felt all disconnected from me and floated away until I didn't even feel like me, every quality and trait that made me myself had left me and I didn't know what I was or what existence was. I remember looking around my room and everything just looked so unfamiliar, like I knew what the things were but it didnt feel like part of me. It felt like this idea of me, was just someone i studied instead of lived, i knew all these things about me but i only knew it and didnt understand it.
I kept getting moments where everything turned into static? Visually and in my mind everything turned into static like I vividly remember seeing my room turn black and white into like little ascii dots and shrink until it didnt exist and it felt like i kept getting glimpses past our understanding of reality. I kept having extremely bad thoughts it was like i was stuck in a time loop of bad thoughts. I remember thinking that this was the end and that i would be stuck like this forever and it was like my room was whispering to me to kill myself to end this feeling and that this trip would never end. i kept hearing people tell me to kill my family and friends to free them of this existence because i had unlocked the true existence. I messaged a bunch of people that i love them for some reason idrk why i think it was because i felt so shit i was trying to cling onto someone to stay myself or something. I took the weed at around 9:43pm and it was roughly 12:20am at this time i think. I was also so thirsty to the point it felt like i was choking to death and my saliva felt like pure sugar it was so sticky and slimy and idk how much longer i stayed awake for but thats really the last i remember. I woke up and luckily felt better but i still feel a bit odd.
Anyways please tell me what you guys think because i have never ever experienced anything like this, perhaps 60 was too much to take for my first time on new edibles but i didnt expect it to be this much. Maybe my old edibles were underdosed? Im not entirely sure but please tell me what u guys think