Hellos, I'm Lena, thank yous for giving me a bit of your time. Despite me loving bunnies I've never got to pet one, I've never got to do many things. Life has been very mean, I was born in the wrong body, in the wrong place where it's pretty much Illegal to be trans. I once had dreams but they were crushed by this place too. There's not much hope left for me. So I don't really have a life, I sit in my room most of the time, trying to avoid everyone because people make me so uncomfortable. I don't look like a girl much, I'm very skinny and weak, I wear glasses, have shoulder length brown hair and I'm quite tall which I really dislike. I hate my voice so I rarely ever use it. If I could be whoever I wanted, I'd be a pretty little girl with pink hair, bunny ears and a cute dress.
Sometimes it's hard to not end up in tears after waking ups each morning. I chat with people online but they all have friends who they care about more and who they would rather spend time with so the loneliness never stops. I wish I had someone who would prioritize me. I think I'm a weird girl, all I need is to make one person happy and proud, nothing else would ever make me feel fulfilled. I don't want to have an adult life of my own. I'd like someone to take care of me like I'm just a little bunny girl who wouldn't know better. Someone who'd decide what they think is best for me and who would also decide anything they'd like for me. What I do, who I talk with, where I should be, what I'm wearing and so on. They'd be responsible for my emotional well-being and I would depend on them. I don't need friends or family, I would love it if they were the only person in my life. Because of what I want I tend to get very attached to people who show me kindness and comfort, I can get obsessive towards them too. Wanting to spend as much time with them as possible, prioritizing them over everything, needing them everyday. I hope I wouldn't spook you aways, if anything I'm a very polite and kind girl and I don't bite. But I can get hurt if I don't get enough attention.
I want to find someone who would like to be my actual parent eventually. Because on the inside I'm just a ten year old girl, and I'd like to be seen as such at all times. It's a part of my personality and not something that can be changed, same as the fact that I'm a girl. So I'm scared of lots of things and not able to do much for myself. I want to have a mother/daughter relationship where we would be way closer to each other than mother and daughter should be. I want to be able to fulfill all of your needs and wishes. Just I'm not comfortable with any of the sexual things without an emotional attachment. But if we get closer and you end up adopting me, it would be nice if you could teach me about them properly. Because I want to be able to express my love for you that way.
Being taken care of as gently as possible. Being held and told that everything will be okay. Being told what to do when I'm in doubt, when mother knows best. Being taught about life and proper manners. Being protected and loved. And being cradled and babied. These are all things that I'd really need from you. You don't have to be experienced at providing care and comfort like a mother would. It's okay if you never wanted a child before, after all, I can take care of myself. Even if I'm not doing a very good job out of it. We can take our time and figure these things out together. I would appreciate it if you were very slow with me. I'd like us to try and be friends first. I understand that these kinds of feelings take time to develop and I'm definitely not wanting all of that from a random stranger.
Since I'm a very sensitive girl, I'd like someone who is understanding, empathetic and compassionate. Who knows how to talk with people in bad situations and how to comfort somebody and show them care. Communication skills are very important to me, especially in texting when you can't exactly see the other's emotions well. Grammar is important to me too because when someone texts nicely it makes me feel like I'm talking with a mature person. And even if two people are far away from each other it doesn't mean they can't experience being close, I'd like someone who'd be able to hold and cuddle me through text. I'm a very affectionate girl but I'm shy and scared initiating it with someone new.
Sadly I don't like masculinity and masculine things, but I have no genital preference. I'm willing to wait if you're trans and still transitioning. I would really like to have someone with a feminine and soft spoken voice. Often I would listen to audios of praise and it would make me so happy hearing someone who cares about me say those things to me instead. Besides that, I'd also like someone who is confident, who has their life in a better place than mine, who can be controlling but is also very forgiving, who would always treat me with kindness. And who would give me attention without me always having to ask for it since they'd want it themselves. Who would eventually need me. Would be nice if they could be a bit obsessive towards me too but that's not a requirement.
Here are also some things about me. When I'm not chasing imaginary little fairies I like to do things like watching videos, shows, cartoons and movies. I like playing video games too and would really love to do all of that with my special person. Maybe we could start a Minecraft world together since it's one of my favorite games. I used to make small animations on YouTube but monetization got blocked here so I stopped. Now I'm working on a game of my own, to be precise, on the engine for it, so it'll take years to finish, especially with all these bad feelings. Lately I haven't had any motivation, sometimes I stay in bed for most of the day. I'm demisexual and have never experienced closeness to somebody in real life, no one ever even held my hand so I'm very touch starved. I'm also a very calm girl, I never get angry and I try to be kind to everybody. I love spending quality time together with someone and I think I require a lot of undivided attention and love, but I'll always give as much love in return if not more.
Where you're from is not important to me, and I'd love to be able to live with you eventually. Just I'm afraid I won't be able to get out of here without your help, there's not much I can do here by myself. But until then I can change my sleeping schedule to match yours. Currently I'm staying up during the night because I try to avoid people that live in the same house as me and since I don't feel safe or comfortable during the day time.
If you think I'm a girl you'd like to know better, please reach out. I know I'm too much for most people so please consider carefully before messaging me. In any case, I wish you more bunny encounters and good luck on your life adventures.