Where I’m at, Negeri Sembilan all therapies are talk therapy and meds only.

But I heard IFS is good for trauma.

Anyone can recommend any IFS therapists or clinics ?

Content warning: childhood abuse, self harm, suicide (no methods).

I was severely abused when I was a child. One day, I begged for someone to protect me. I often talked to the air. Later, I began to hear someone answer me and comfort me. We could talk about more and more things. Then more of them appeared. They have different genders, interests, personalities and ages. I often hear the same voices in my head. They often tell me to take good care of myself. Most of them are very gentle, and we often chat together. Sometimes we argue, but usually they talk with me about the best way to do things. Some of them also have urges to hurt themselves. We often comfort them. Even so, I started self harming when I was around ten. I have attempted suicide several times, I have had an eating disorder (purging), and I have overdosed on medication two or three times. Sometimes they used my body to hurt themselves. They sometimes use my body to do things, and luckily the people around me cannot tell. Our accent and small habits are not different. To avoid being found out, we tell each other roughly what we did. If one of us is asked a question, the others tell them the answer. I roughly know that terrible things happened to me in the past, but I have no memories of them, and it is also hard for me to remember daily things. One of us wrote a detailed memo so we can check it at any time. Sometimes I find myself in a place without knowing why, or time has passed without me knowing. In high school, people said I became very violent, but I knew nothing about it. When they come out, my vision starts to look like a blurry TV, and sounds seem to come from underwater. Even so, I can still see and hear, and sometimes I still remember afterwards, so nobody notices. I don't know if this counts as typical memory loss.

I never asked for help before because of them, and also because I am very afraid of how people will see me. So we forbade each other from telling anyone that they exist. I finally managed to persuade them to let me tell strangers. They are very good to me. I can't betray them. I hope to get a diagnosis so I can understand what is wrong with me. But I am also very afraid of being diagnosed. I am afraid of how society will see me. I am afraid the doctor will tell me I just have schizophrenia and that I have actually been alone all this time. But I have asked them countless times whether they are imaginary friends, and they always say no. They even get impatient when I ask too many times. I don't think they are just imaginary. If a doctor says I only have some other mental illness and they are hallucinations, then what is really going on? Why do they exist? That doesn't explain it at all.

Is this normal? Does everyone have this? For people with similar experiences, how did you decide whether to get diagnosed?

In Malaysian public hospitals, has anyone found a therapist who understands trauma and dissociation?

I've been on Ritalin for a few years but lately I've been thinking of trying combination stimulant and non-stimulant. Using Ritalin is definitely better than nothing but i still have a have a hard time to start doing anything and my focus is still weaker. Still better than not Ritalin where I've got no focus at all.

I went to hospital Shah Alam and they said they only have Ritalin. So i wondering which government hospitals have which adhd meds or do i have to go private to find something other than Ritalin ?

Hi all, I would like to ask opinion if anyone has been treated from both HUKM or PPUM.

I want to get a referral to either places but am not sure which one is better. I have been wanting to get help for some time now but finding an affordable place is difficult in this economy.

Appreciate if you could share your experiences for my consideration. Basically I would like to know your experience with the doctors, environment and overall service.

Thank you.

Hi, sorry, but kinda in an emergency here. I am schizophrenic and the symptoms have been flaring up lately. Feeling suicidal. The current hospital that I go to is too expensive for me now, can someone let me know how much is 1 day in Hospital Selayang or the one in Klang? Thanks.

TW for su1cde attempt

I've been taking my fluoxetine for 2months or so now. Currently I'm on a 20mg per day dosage, however this medicene has done absolutely nothing for me.

As the medication didn't help, my depression spiraled to the point I took an entire box of fluoxetine and mixed it with my other meds, hoping I won't wake up tomorrow. But it's been a few days since, and to be honest, nothing happened to me, not even a headache. I'm starting to think maybe it's fake and I'm just given a placebo. Or maybe I just think it doesn't work while it is working. I have been extremely panaroid about my medication these days, and for my own safety I haven't took it since I tried overdosing. I will tell this to my psychiatrist once I see her in my next appointment.

This is more of a rant, but I'm really restless about my meds since I really thought it'd help me in the slightest.

Hello!

I'm currently trying to look into getting an appointment at PPUM for an ADHD (and possibly OCD?) diagnosis, but it's looking like I'll need to get a referral letter first.

Getting one from a nearby KK seems to be my only option as of right now due to my financial situation. However, a bad experience with a KK doctor a couple years ago (took a DASS test, asked about an ADHD diagnosis, got dismissed with the whole "but you're a woman?" spiel despite me telling them my brother was diagnosed with it a few years ago lol) has made me reluctant to try again.

That being said, do I have to take another DASS test in order to ask for a letter? Or would it be possible for me to simply make an appointment and ask for one without it?

I'm a little desperate at this point because all the self-help ADHD (and OCD) tricks I've tried thus far haven't worked at all and I really do believe being medicated for it would help me a lot 😞 It's just not sustainable anymore for me to keep going in this way.

Hi, so uh I've been attending Butterworth Mentari for mental health issues. So far so good, I got the help I needed and there's a follow up & check-up I gotta do at Hospital Seberang Jaya.

But the problem is I'm not from around Butterworth. I'm from KB and it took half an hour every trip back and forth from KB to Butterworth. I wished I could continue my appointment or treatment at Hospital KB or idk, if there's any specialized mental health clinic in KB... is it possible to change clinics?

But my mom already booked an appointment at Hospital Seberang Jaya for check up aghhh 😭 and that's right multiple trips in one month to attend Mentari & Hospital, far away from my home. I'm not exhausted but my mom's the one who did the driving and I was kinda worried if it exhausts her. She won't admit it but I can see how tired she is.

Also my mom was very conservative, so it's quite a surprise she's willing to open up and help me with this... But one thing I want to share with you guys... I'm at the end of my semester, and the final exam includes 4 papers, plus another total of 7 papers I had to retake next month...and the gap between retakes and last semester's exam is only a few days.

I wasn't studying properly this semester, and even though the trial is already here, I'm still in the dark. I admit it's my fault, please don't attack me 😭 🙏 I just don't want to give up yet, but it feels like the task is impossible...I feel like I was bound to fail...and if I failed, all my mom's sacrifice would mean nothing...

The only way I could repay her is by getting good grades and cgpa...but right now, it's clear that I was gonna fail. I might be able to get average grades but only if I'm able to focus on saving what I can. But whenever I open the book, I feel like the sky is crashing down... Like it's too late... there's too much to read...but I don't want to disappoint my mom. I can't fail again...but god this is too heavy... I'm so scared. I admit I wasn't doing very well in studying, but I hope please would you guys give me some hope that I can do this? I just need someone to tell me that everything is going to be okay...just focus on what's on your mind first...you can do this... Anybody...?

I'm a minor, well obviously by my pfp but I have a question. I know I'm mentally ill, I've had suicidal thoughts and have acted upon them (mostly threatening myself with a knife to my mom) and I have a very harsh background (abused ever since I was a few months old) but my mom refuses to acknowledge that I have mental problems.

Based on my own research, I think I have AuDHD, depression and bpd (I don't know yet, but I want to get it checked out). Most of my mental problems comes from school, family dynamic, years of being lied to by my mom and my mom herself. I suspect I have way more mental illness than the ones I just listed above, how do I convince my mom to take me to the hospital for a check up? She's a undiagnosed narcissist too so idk

If anything, I just want to get diagnosed either way. Either with my mom or without my mom. Actually, can I, as a minor, get diagnosis/treatment? My teachers asked me why I always ponteng once a day in a week and if my mom cared or not and ect..I think they know my situation or smth idk

Update 1: My school kaunselor just talked to me today, she said she's gonna help me change class since I told her my current class is too stressful and pressuring. She even gave a letter to the psychiatrist or something

Hi there, long time lurker but this is my first post here. I have looking for mental health care for a long time after various stressors and I believe my depression has spiraled to an unsustainable state. A few weeks ago, I reached a point of crisis where I was crying nearly every day for weeks, and decided to take the advice of heading to the nearest KKM to get a referral.

I followed the standard procedure of getting a GP appointment via MySejahtera, but upon reaching and seeing a doctor, I was told that I would be referred to counselling and that the counsellor(?) or anyone relevant will call back to make arrangements. I asked for a rough timeline, or who to expect but the staff nurse was unable to give me any concrete details. I understand that waiting is inevitable, but wanted to know if anybody experienced this as well, and what steps I should take next.

I am worried that my mood will worsen again as my suicidal ideation flares up at times, and I am afraid I will gain the courage to take drastic measures otherwise. Private is not preferable for me at this time as I have recently become unemployed. I intended to get a referral straight to Psychiatry with my initial visit, but was also told counselling was the first step.

Appreciate the help.

Edit: I forgot to mention that my priority is to get on medication first and foremost, which is why I am stuck wondering about the KKM wait times. Initially I assumed I would be given the psychiatric referral on the first GP visit instead of counselling, thus I am wondering when they will be getting back to me.

I heard parents may need to be involved which I can’t bring them unfortunately

🙏

Hello.

To make a long story short, I've been on the verge of losing it. Things like memory loss, really bad moods, all that. A part of me doesn't like that I've been thinking of self-deletion so much more than usual.

I'm supposed to be taking Luvox but I don't have the courage to show up after skipping an appointment due to last-minute changes.

So I'm curious if anyone here has been in a psychiatric ward (and which hospital, if possible) and what the process was like. I'm desperate in being admitted for the safety/peace for everyone else around me.

Any additional details (like the conditions of said psychiatric ward) would be appreciated.

Many thanks. ☺️

I apologise if this was badly worded.

No formal diagnosis but I do feel I have mild ADHD. I really struggle with time management and self management. Mostly can manage but becoming a new father, it has become really tough.

Specifically looking for a coach (rather than a counselor/therapist) as my company provides an allocation each year to claim for coaching. Usually it's personal coaching but I am hoping to use it for this.

Thank you and really appreciate any recommendations.

Hi all I would like some recommended places or centers for getting treatment in Selangor? Anywhere but KL since I’m not really sure where to find a good psych for help here.

Also if possible, I would also want it where I can opt out medications for my treatment but rather just behavioral or cognitive therapies. Thanks :>

hi all, i'm trying to get diagnosed with adhd after struggling with it for 8 years and having 2 unfinished evaluations. i've read a lot of helpful advice for this sub!

i forgot that last month i submitted my information on the mentari website to make an appointment and i got the phone call 20 minutes ago but my malay is so awful that i barely understood what she said so she hung up on me 🥲 it makes sense because she didn't want to waste her time but is there an english option for mentari ? or is it time to brush up on my bm. over phone calls its always so much harder for me because i can't hear the sounds clearly enough 💔

hai. so maybe i will delete this but i see people also ranting here so i decided why not. if you think u know me irl no u don’t

this isn’t serious mental health cry for help but it’s about crushes LMAO. it feels really bad seeing your crush get with someone better than you. even worse, the person they got with also seems to be struggling with the same mental health issues as you (anxiety, depression, etc) but they’ve got achievements and are academically impressive….. like even if they’re depressed they still got something…. im depressed and failing with no achievements, lowkey a burden to everyone, so like what does that make me 🤪 anyway, no hate to anyone…, just feels bad man 🥀🥀 i cant help but compare myself to other depressed people who at least have something going on for them… i understand its just what it seems on the outside but like if u get what i mean, it kinda hurts yk…. at least why cant i appear fine on the outside why does it have to be obvious im depressed and failing lol. why cant i be one of those ppl who are depressed and get straight As… im depressed and getting abysmal grades and just rotting 😂

Recently I got offer letter to work at government, they required the medical check up before proceeding to give the letter of employment. But I have an active review on government hospital for my depression but I already on the stage of able to stop the medication next year (Healing process). The local doctor that checked me ticked the box ‘boleh dipertimbangkan untuk bekerja’ & penyakit tahap ringan. Will I able to pass the qualification of health or will be dismissed? I hope anyone who had this kind of experiences shares their pov. Thank you so much it will help me❤️

Hi fellow Malaysians. I wanted to ask if anybody here has experience transferring their case/records from PPUM psychiatry to Hospital Shah Alam. I would like to know the how would I go about requesting it?

I used to go to PPUM for ADHD, stopped few years back because of severe time constraints from work. Recently there have been new issues where I think I should go back, but currently I live in Shah Alam so going to PPUM is no longer convenient (besides, my super awesome doctor has left ppum)

I, 20F, has been struggling really hard and this is my last ditch effort, Im barely scrapping by w money so I cant really get top notch or any notch professional care. I’ve been really struggling hard w memory loss for the majority of my life where i dont remember my childhood at all or even the past year, its like my memory resets every few months, and i dont remember major things either, then like everyone in this generation, I can focus or study for more than half an hour and even then i forget it after exams (which i somehow pass).

I had gotten into my first relationship last year and things have went downhill after that, my depression felt like it was cured but my anxiety multiplied ten fold, I was worried about him and his love and if he’ll leave - que abandonment issues, possessiveness, and telling him he doesn’t care or love me over the smallest things like being delivered for hours. Ultimately he got sick off it, and I’ve been feeling like dying and even though i know he doesnt want me I’ve been going back just to get hurt (i think he’s mentally unstable too tbh donno if its bc of me) but its like i cqnt control myself, even if i dont want to, I keep begging and acting crazy, the more he pushes me the more i have to pull. I’m showing signs of BPD or so I think? I want to get diagnosed so bad, just so i know its not my fault or that its my mental state you know?

I’m in a small place in India and it all ties together to me not getting the help I want/need. What do I do? I feel helpless.

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Warning: self harm

I think everyone here is working, and here's my short rant.

Looking at the CCTV because of my lost wallet, last seen was when it was on me.(Place I work, I'm a salesman) Then, Manager suddenly in all caps locks and asks if I just hurt myself behind my senior backs. It was before all of this wallet situations.

My senior says what if we work 9 Am till 11 pm, one day off per week, I say that would be illegal. He says 'Are you sure? Even I get paid?"

I said yes, he then pushes me by saying where I learn it from, which law part, sector and what conduct or code it is.

my senior says that I don't have any educations, no formal educations and compare me to the cashier with like 6 SPM A's, 17 and by the end of the month going to college and says even if she's quite annoying sometimes and shout a lot, his remark is 'you can tell she have educations' and ask if I'm nothing. In my opinion truthfully, said. "Yes"

I became slightly unstable, so after some time, I saw the cutter box and tested the sharpness by cutting myself slightly, nobody saw it, until my senior saw I suddenly had new scars(it was extremely small compared to my scars). Right before he confronts, his friends call, it ends.

This is where the wallet part is gone.

Anyways, back to right now, my manager asks why, in which I reply it's my condition, which is why I have prescribed medications(clonazepam) reply again, manager threaten me to not do it again, and says like he doesn't care about this and if he this 1 more time, I will get terminated.

After that, I reply, "Understood" and take a picture, and just delete the whole chat before that whole thing happens.

Now I feel nothing yet my body is still slightly tense, I'll just prepare myself when I finally go back home to report the police about my lost wallet/IC and call my banks about my debit card.

A quick one: which platform or social media sites I can utilise to gather suggestions/recommendations/referrals to see a child counsellor or psychologist. Preferably like a parent support group would be nice.

Hi guys, I have been taking Concerta for the past few years and I switched from private to semi government, so the pricing went from around RM350 to RM290 per bottle of concerta 18mg ( 30pills ) , is there a cheaper way or even a subsidized way to get this? Hopefully someone can help cause I’m just a student.

Late 30s M here. Exploring whether I might be neurodivergent

I only heard the terms Neurotypical/Neurodivergent fairly recently, after a therapist brought it up during a counselling session and, I think, was gently hinting that I might be neurodivergent. That’s when I started learning that it can include things like Autism and ADHD.

Even before that, over the past few years, I’ve occasionally wondered whether I might be on the autism spectrum, particularly because I’ve experienced social awkwardness and anxiety throughout much of my life. But I never really looked into it deeply—perhaps partly because I was avoiding the possibility of finding out.

Now I’m slowly trying to face it and understand more about neurodivergence and Autism. The more I read, the more I find myself relating to certain things when I reflect on my past. Obviously I don’t know whether I’m actually autistic, and I’d like to see a professional for a proper assessment eventually.
Unfortunately, I’m not in a good financial position right now to afford an assessment.

So I’m wondering: are there any adult neurodivergent/autism support groups in Malaysia, either online or in person, where I could learn more and talk to people with similar experiences?
Would appreciate any recommendations or experiences.

I don't know what to do. I feel so lost. I don't know where to begin. But since I'm typing, maybe I can make it work somehow.

I'm a student, and I struggle a lot with deadlines. Sleepless nights, drawing day to night, lots and lots of assignments.

Recently, there was this girl that I like in my class. I was very very obvious with my actions that thw whole class realize it. At first she didn't realize, but eventually she does. She's nice to me and all, and despite knowing how I feel, she's very respectful about it. We occasionally talk and everything, but recently things got awkward, because classmates started talking about it. I realized her awkwardness, and I thought I was being annoying. I felt so down at that time, I was silent for a few days. Few days later, there's another classmate talking to me in secret about how other classmates (including the girl I like) might be secretly dismissing her aside. (Note : I know all about these secret, the girl that I like told me about being careful not to get manipulated by this classmate.) I listened to her problem and there was NOTHING i can do about it. I can only lie to her by saying "idk, i didn't realize". If I do reveal, the entire situation will turn into chaos. All I can do is to keep this secret and this guilt in me along, faking a two sided face. At this rate, I have 3 assignments to rush in a week. All these assignments are not something can be done in a week. In this entire week, I was silent. In my brain, all I am thinking is "there is no reason to react. Even if i react, nothing will change. All I can do is to do what I'm supposed to do". Telling them it's wrong to just dismiss someone like that : that classmate did something wrong, I can't deny that, I can't just tell them to hold it in. Telling that classmate she's treating them badly : she realize, confronts them, everything goes chaotic. No reason to do neither, it'll cause a scene. Being nervous to assignment : there's no reason to. Being nervous will not help with the situation. Crying : there's no reason to. Crying doesn't help with the situation, it'll be in my way of doing assignment. Laughing : there's nothing to laugh about, focus on your assignments. Not knowing the consequence, I think I accidentally flipped a switch in me. It killed off all emotions. I had a very bad day today. Presentation went extremely bad. Partly because I feel lost. Partly because the work I did didn't really have much thought put into it. I thought "I wanna go back home and cry to sleep, wake up and finish off this other 2 assignments." But i can't. I physically can't cry. I don't feel anything. No fear, no nervous, no happiness, no sadness.

The whole story up there is just to vent, and to add context. I just want to reactivate my emotion again. Please help me.