r/mapua • • 17h ago

treating myself after trying and still failed. (long rant/vent)

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hi. 3rd yr na sana ako, kaso im still on my 2nd yr 1st term. and honestly? nakakapanghina minsan. nung una inaamin ko hindi ko medjo ginalingan. akala ko kaya ko, hindi pala. nakailang retake na ako ng physics 1, ana chem 1, calc 2, and marami pang majors, pati na rin che cal 1, nakakapagod pala no? mula manila hanggang antipolo rizal. tapos ayaw pa ako pag dorm ng mama ko kasi wala siyang tiwala sakin. because i keep lying to her daw, and honestly? totoo naman. kasi every time na gagawin ko ung gusto niya. nagagalit siya, san san nanaman daw ako pupunta, puro raw ako kain kahit may pagkain naman sa bahay. puro raw ako gala sa mga kaibigan ko, eh ang totoo, dati, twice or thrice a week lang kami mag hangout ng mga kaibigan ko. and minsan ayoko na rin, mahirap pala makipagsabayan sa mga naka dorm and mga mayayaman no? ayoko na. hindi naman kasi ako nakikipagsabayan eh, nakikipagkaibigan lang ako. and by the end of the term, last three terms, i tried to limit my hangouts w them and focusing mostly on my studies, but i guess wala pa rin talaga. ang hirap lumaban ng patas dito. naging classmates ko ulit mga kaibigan ko and by the time na napapansin nila na medjo lumalayo ako (or like umuuwi agad, no interactions w them or like lil convos lang) idk. i feel so like..? hindi ko alam, i guess kasalanan ko naman. until nalaman ko nagtulong tulungan pala sila para makapasa sa isang sub without telling me. (ig thats what the “connections” do huh?) habang ako nag kanda uga uga para maipasok sa isip ko ung lessons, and no, im not jealous. its just.. ang unfair minsan no? pero idc anymore. wala lang ako mapagsabihan. wala na talaga. psensya na. i tried my best this term, i though im doing good, i was really good. but i guess wala pa rin talaga. no matter what i do. and i planned to work na rin as a part time para kahit papaano di na aq susumbatan ni mama.. ayun lang. i still feel guilty kasi alam kong kapag nalaman ni mama na i treated myself today even tho i don’t deserve this, she’ll say. “gastos nanaman, may pagkain naman sa bahay. puro ka naman bagsak” i tried to confront her this morning if makakapag dorm ba ako, ang sabi niya? mag transfer nalang ako. i feel so suffocated rn, hindi ako makpag aral dito sa bahay. nahihirapan ako sa byahe. tas ayaw pa ako pag dorm. hindi ko na alam.

but.. i guess after all of those, i still plan to go ahead for my future. kahit mahirap. kahit ganito. alam kong may mararating ako, pinagdadamutan lang ako ng oras.

i was really good…


r/mapua • • 22h ago

College are they even trying at this point?

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80 Upvotes

how ironic. di nalang kami maliligo para makapag-ai kayo mapua


r/mapua • • 14h ago

Rant Wake-up call and reawakening

29 Upvotes

Even though the grades for the 1st term haven't been released yet, I can already tell I failed. I was too used to my SHS semester flow and fumbled the 1st term. I'm a 1st-year AIE student and have fumbled some of my subjects already. There's no one to blame but myself.

I decided to reflect on what I have done in my 1st term and realized it was indeed all my fault. Not my classmates, not my professors, not my friends, but me. I should've done my tasks on time, reviewed properly, and asked for help when I needed it. I was too afraid to even ask my parents for help since I don't want to burden them because my father works late at night and my mother takes care of everything in my home.

Ever since I reflected upon myself, I realized I have to change. I have to wake up early, do my tasks immediately, study well, and ask for help. This time, I won't give up. I'm starting to believe in myself. I had my reassurance from my new friends sa section ko and my best friends. I talked with my parents and told them why this happened, and they didn't scream at me. They understood me.

My parents and professors were right. I'm a procrastinator, and I should've done my work on time. This time, I won't be procrastinating.

To the people in Mapua who are also experiencing this now, I believe in you too. You can change and improve. You too can rise up from the ashes like a phoenix. I BELIEVE AND LOVE YOU, STANGER! YOU CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THE TOUGH TIMES! DON'T GIVE UP!


r/mapua • • 4h ago

i passed

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wala share ko lang na i passed one of my courses na i was sure gonna fail 🥹


r/mapua • • 19h ago

I got curved? And is it final?

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I did terrible in 166 and I was accepting failure since I did not discipline myself properly to study seriously until the end of the week 9. I got terrible scores on both CO1 (20/100) and CO2 (42/100), I only did average on my finals and CO3 (both around 50-55/100), and I already computed my final grades to be around 55%. I ended up getting 71% and 3.00 as my final grade.

Honestly I was so thankful even though I didn’t deserve this. But now I’m anxious if this is actually finalized and the grade can’t be changed now.. what if it was a misinput? Hahaha, I don’t want my heart to be broken but at the same time I don’t wanna keep waiting anxiously for a change in my grades


r/mapua • • 22h ago

College are they even trying at this point?

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22 Upvotes

how ironic. di nalang kami maliligo para makapag-ai kayo mapua


r/mapua • • 54m ago

Rant You can do it

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Hello! Hopefully everyone is doing well and taking care of themselves after this term. I just wanted to share my experience for my first ever quarterm experience, cause tbh everything bad that could have happened, happened to me. First both my desktop and my laptop broke at the exact time hell week was about to start, so there were so many deadlines, projects and activities i had to do and most of them required a pc to complete, so i ended up renting and borrowing laptops until the end of the term since both repairs for my laptop and desktop were too expensive. It was extremely hard and tiring because i was almost always never home because of night classes and the endless borrowing and renting of laptops along with studying for major subjects and doing deadlines, and when i did get home i had to do more activities, chores, etc. But after all those hardships and challenges, i can confidently say that I passed my subjects, some by just 1 point above failing (70-75) and some with a fairly good grade (90+). I know some are probably going through tougher hardships but even though it may seem helpless, you just have to push through since youre the only factor you can actually control. But tbh I can only take so much of this before my brain goes completely crazy.

TO THE ALUMNI, IS MAPUA REALLY THIS WORTH IT? 😭😭😭


r/mapua • • 12h ago

How to manage burnout?

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To all quarterm survivors (before trisem), how do you guys manage burnout after the quarter? I feel like the one week break will just fly by tas start na ulit second quarter huhu.


r/mapua • • 19h ago

Sts

12 Upvotes

Para kang major jill dalisay


r/mapua • • 10h ago

gwa/out/status concerns

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As per the head i talked to, we base on the handbook thats assigned to our batch year level, (e.g. batch 23 = handbook for 2023-2024). So bali yung detail about pag "out", nakabase sa batch niyo.

The copy can be requested daw from the registrar, not sure exactly what window (or baka sa customer service)


r/mapua • • 14h ago

Makati Guard

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I had a weird experience.I was wearing a skit.. The skirt is long.. almost to my knees na. Noong morning, pumasok ako sa school.. d nmn ako sinita . Then, noong afternoon, papasok na ako ulit… Sinita ako ng guard… Eh may nakita nga akong school na mas maikli pa ang suot kaysa saakin... anf weird pa kase siya nag papasok saakin nong morning.. ano yan porket hagard na itchura ko nong afternoon kaya sinita mo na ako...


r/mapua • • 22h ago

surveying finals

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8 Upvotes

sa mga nakapag take na po ng surveying deptals, bawal po ba talaga mang hula or wala po ba talagang credit pag no solution huhu. thank u po sa sasagot


r/mapua • • 13h ago

Unfair prof

7 Upvotes

Saan pwede i-report ang prof na unfair mag-grade sa students?


r/mapua • • 14h ago

surveying final exam

6 Upvotes

daig pa ang cele amp


r/mapua • • 14h ago

College im cooked as hell

5 Upvotes

2 subs hanging on a thread 69.X then another one is no chance na talaga 😭😭 potek nayan talaga ayoko na


r/mapua • • 12h ago

Surveying exam Is straight up GG.

3 Upvotes

Ye reviewed hard but yep gg...


r/mapua • • 14h ago

Failed course / irregular enrollment

5 Upvotes

Hindi nako aasa na mag cucurve pa kasi baka masaktan lang ako if it doesn't turn out the way i hoped (63-65% when i calculated my grade in math 165) Tanggap na irreg na, locked in na talaga next sem, natrauma na eh, so was just wondering if paano po enrollment pag irregular student? Pwede ba online nalang? I wanna go back to the province po kasi to see my family and baka kailangan po pala face to face ang enrollment pag irregular. And also, may pinagkaiba po ba ang enrollment ng regular and irregular? TYIA!


r/mapua • • 18h ago

Intramuros Sir Joseph Santos

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how do I genuinely contact sir joseph from Math165? Missing ako ng isang quiz dahil sa technical problem at sabi niya sa ibang araw nalang daw, pero nung cinocontact ko na sa MS Teams and Course Messages, hindi nagrereply. Hinanap ko na rin sa faculty, wala rin at hindi daw tumatambay don. Saan kaya siya nagrereply? thank you po!


r/mapua • • 10h ago

Halloween Party

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Hello everyone! Me and my friends will be hosting a Halloween party event sa katip on 25th of Oct . Some of us are from admu, ust, ue, mapua hehe so If interested dm me so l can send the forms for the registration and the details. Limited slots nalang left so regis asap and see you guys there!


r/mapua • • 12h ago

Academic Status

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3 Upvotes

Hello, can someone help me understand this paragraph? Is this only for first years who enrolled this semester?


r/mapua • • 13h ago

Curve

3 Upvotes

Hello po, nag ccurve po ba si Sir Dan Magcuyao around 65-69%? Thank you po


r/mapua • • 19h ago

62.4 final grade

3 Upvotes

hello!! ask ko lang if massave pa ba tong grade ko kay miss ponteras sa math165... i only got half the scores on both CO1 and CO2, yung CO3 ko okay naman but I only got 77/105 sa deptals. yung aleks ko di ko naasikaso kaya mababaT-T may effect kaya attendance kay miss plus points ganon (hoping) ty!


r/mapua • • 19h ago

MTH179 PROFS

3 Upvotes

hi! sino po magandang kunin na prof for mth179?


r/mapua • • 20h ago

College Completion Form

3 Upvotes

Hello ask ko lang if hanggang ngayong araw nalang pwede i-process ang complete forms? (For thesis, for OJT, etc.) sobrang haba kasi ng pila and wala pa reply yung prof ko sa report form baka hindi umabot ng 5pm. Salamat


r/mapua • • 21h ago

balancing job and correl

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hello mapuans lalo na sa mga graduate! I would like to ask if feasible ba ang pag kuha ng kahit part time/raket on the side while doing correl? altho correl 1 and 2 nalang naman ang kulang ko pero within this phase ng buhay ko, humihigpit na ang pangangailangan ko.

if kaya nga talaga pag sabayin, what field of part time work yung pinaka ideal?

thank you and God bless sa mga kapwa kong estudyante