Losing hope

[u/Bigwillfiles]

I'm posting on here because I am truly losing my will to live. I have two kids and a wife and they are keeping my going right now. However, it just seems that no matter how hard I try I will never be able to provide them the life I want them to have. Every time I think I've got through one hurdle there's another. I just got a text from my electric company that they will be shutting our power one 10/15/26 unless we pay $2000. We are behind that much because of confusion and deception from my mother in law who used to live with us. I am the only source of income because my wife is ill. I have spent all day seeking assistance but the most I could get was $500 but they want a minimum of $1900 to keep it from disconnecting. I literally took all day just to come up short and I feel like a disappointment to my wife and my children. I've never wanted this life and I try so hard to better myself but I never seem to get anywhere.