r/Saxophonics • u/InteractionNew9097 • 1h ago
I feel like I can't grow as a jazz artist with adhd
Ive been doing jazz all of high school and feel like a just cant improve and I just did my final jazz audition for MEA and didn't get into either of the A or B bands but a younger classmate and my close relative did . I feel like I waisted 3 years of practicing because I was aimless during all of it and struggling to motivate myself while practicing and because of that I suck at everything my tone sucks , my soloing sucks and my musicality is horrible when just a couple months ago I was playing decently I feel like Ive retained nothing that I learned and waisted my whole time and should just give up I don't know what to do so I guess I'm going to try here can any of you guys tell me what I should work on because as a musician I feel shallow