r/RVLiving • u/KaosKittyMaw • 15h ago
Word vomit: Completely overwhelmed, looking for perspectives - Full time living- huge mistake?
I know a lot of these are self-inflicted wounds. But i just feel so defeated. I am not even quite sure why i am posting this- but just almost feels like giving up and like i made a hugge mistake. like i threw away a perfectly stable good life for insane chaos. any wisdom - life or rv helps.
[Background] we are a pair of city boy/gal in our 30’s. we are insanely blessed to work remotely. our dog is getting old and we want to see this beautiful country but always feel bad leaving him behind with sitter. started dreaming about Van life but ain’t no way my 6’1 SO is gonna be happy in it - esp while we both still work full time. then started looking into trailer, but still wanted more space. ended up with a 44ft fifth wheel Forrest River Salem Hemisphere + F350. Our plan is to go see 49 states in next 4-6 years depending on the pace.
[The prep before the journey] we knew how insane that leap is for white collar folk who’e never done a day‘s repair in life. so we took our time. we’ve researched RV life styles for 12+ months. countless YT videos, went to carpentry school, even took a 5-week RV tech certification class and also driving lessons, and hired inspector because we purchase second hand.
[Sad thing 1 Knowing vs Doing] we know going into this that RV breaks. doesn't matter how much you pay, they are all made in 2 weeks in a production line and QA is not a thing. which is part of the reason i went to RV tech/ carpentry school. but i still find myself knowing nothing. It’s always the same cycle- i feel so confident and happy learning new skills in schools but freeze in real world. from learning to use power tools for first time to buildinv my own damn shed. from not knowing wtf is a multimeter to being able to diagnose tuff. but all that- I still feel like i know nothing and feel useless- im scared in the real world. The thing is just so big and dangerous looking lol Even driving school, learned to 45 degree back in, but now we added a truck bed cover, our pinch point is different again and i can never 45 degree in. SO and i literally spent 1 hr and couldnt. Even though i passed a cert, Im still scared to do things. i feel so ashamed i spent so much time and money to learn and have nothing to show in real life
[Sad thing 2 - Renovation] This is our first month living in it full time. We’ve spent the last 20 days remodeling it at RV park in FL- i wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. We spray painted all of our walls/cabinets - that alone took whole 5 days with proper sanding and prep. we did that in suites in FL heat without AC because vent is covered in plastic sheets. my renovation schedule was 4 weeks. we‘ve completely blown through it. During renovation it’s the small things that would lead me to complete melt down - a stuck/stripped screw that i ended up having to oscillating saw out, pain drip, masking tape fails, etc etc the list goes on. And now all i see is the imperfections- the uneven paint areas, the peels pain because i Accidentally peel off a command strip too hard etc the tiles that’s crooked. the insane amount of trips to HomeDepot was disgusting. My SO tells me to slow down. and to stop comparing myself to picture perfect instagram/pinterest photos. i mentally knows he’s right, but physically my mind can’t stop. Maybe also because lack of sleep? idk. i just feel like everything looks so amerture and ugly- like what have i doneee.
[Sad thing 3 - the breakdowns] going into it i have no illusions that it’s gonna be easy. But the amount is overwhelming. Our camper was in storage was 3-4 months.
- thing 1: When we took her out to campsite on our first short trip, tire debeaded. thankfully it happened when we already got there. Turned out rim was bent. ended up deciding to change all tires out anyway.
- thing 2: Then learn our black tank had a crack. Changed that out.
- thing 3: Then last week FL was rainy non-stop and learned there’s some water intrusion at bottom of 1 slide out- eternal bonded it because sealant wouldn't cure in rain.
- thing 4: Finally time to go on our first big trip ftom Orlando to Northern Georgia. super proud of my SO towing the big ol boy and made the big drive. At one of the gas stop, a truck driver told us something was dragging. Turned out our underbelly near rear black tank fell and it severed a wire. We bought 4 rolls of gorrila tape at gas station. I crawl under and tape the shit out of it until we could get to GA. we learned at campsite that severed wire was for our auto leveler
- thing 5: then one of our gray tank started leaking. which the technician is temp patching it then we will replace it.
all of these - from start of renovation to now in Georgia and all the breakdowns from first big trip happened in a span of 2 month while we both still work full time.
I am exhausted. I feel defeated. I want to give up. I’ve had so many ugly cry melt downs. Idk what to do. I feel like i really gave it my all to be prepared mentally and also skill wise, but I'm just so sad.
yesterday we finally got yo explore georgia a bit. Northern Georgia is so beautiful. And i kept telling myself it will settle down. It will be worth it. But it almost feels like im lying to myself.
Any advice you have or perspective you can give me would really help. I feel like im drawing.
