r/OntarioNurses • u/Icy_Oven1002 • 1d ago
Venting Not sure on what I should do
Hi, I'm a first year nursing student. This is a mix of a rant and asking for advice. I don't use reddit too much, so please bear with me.
I was essentially forced into nursing by my parents, telling me that nursing was an amazing program, and that it's just hard to get into while being an easy program (turns out, its definitely one of the most demanding programs out there). Later in my grade 12 year when I was considering other programs, they told me that I either study this or get disowned. I didn't consider being disowned or getting on their bad side, so I agreed.
I'm now studying something I frankly have no passion or interest in. It's already tiring and its only going to get worse. I can't imagine myself as a hospital nurse. I stayed in my hometown to save money as well, and I hate it here so much. I thought that if I could stay here for a year and apply to UofT Bloomberg then I could make it out and hopefully improve my social life at least. But now I don't know if I'll have enough for the admission requirements or if I'll make it to then.
I brought up changing my program and going somewhere else for uni, but because my family is heavily patriarchal, my dad decides everything and he would definitely wouldn't approve (despite my mom slowly agreeing with me to transfer). I also deal with mental issues that I am trying to get help for, but I'm somewhat confident that this situation isn't helping whatsoever.
I know I could maybe apply to McMaster Nursing to switch up the social life and hope for the best (I think my father would be fine with that) or secretly apply to uni again using my grade 12 marks (interested in UW GDBA), but that invokes the wrath of the patriarchy. I just feel hopeless about my future and feel nothing but doom. Any advice/tips for what to do or what I shouldn't do?