hi. im a grad who was screwed over in my FYP in last year. for anyone who remembers my original post, i have linked it above and commented what i have found out. copy pasting it here too if its too far deep in the comments.
do note im not trying to pretend i have advice. this is for my own vent/closure, as well as for anyone who saw my original post to have the end of the story with popcorn.
for anyone finding themselves in a similar situation, i wish you the best for any corrective/preventative measures and hope you dont end up in my boat. all the best.
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One year post grad Update:
Yeah, found out my professor lied on my evaluation while sweet talking me to my face. Lied about being late to meetings that never even happened since she never held them, aside from one online meeting to initially engage with her to be under her mentorship, and a group meeting near end of semester one where she was late herself but we didnt have a problem waiting. Also lied by implying i sent incomplete drafts by semester 1 and didnt mamage properly when she herself mentiomed on email that its okay and that it was just a progress check in, when simultaneously most of cohort hadnt even begun writing their FYP draft. Screwed my batchmate over too, who was under the same mentor with me, lied on his evaluation too. We both were guided to do Lit Review by our mentor, and evaluated by the same supervisor and moderator. We both got the C. Found out about the evaluation since we went to go talk to the assoc prof, asked him to send over what the evaluation comments were. Moderator ghosted us, we received the supervisor comments. And saw the lying. Vastly different than all the confidence and sweet talking on teams chat when talking to her before I asked the assoc prof. Before the assoc prof forwarded us the eval, he told us if we really want to bring forward the case to the board, we need to present all proof that work was done, but also be able to peove that the evaluation by moderator/supervisor was biased, and even if we have all the proofs of us sending over and working on our drafts and all communications with both mentor and supervisor, that do we truly have a way to prove that the intention was biased and this wasnt professional judgement? And even if we provided evidence, can we say that the intention was exactly that? Can we really really really? Etc.
[Edit (not in original post): we had met our mentor and he was shocked too, since he said perhaps theres a posisbility that our submissions were slightly less in teems of compeittion to the cohort as a whole, but was unable to understand how the shortfall was all the way to a C. He had said that the professor (our supervisor) had also mentiomed there was no lack of depth or knowledge in the final submit when I had paid 10 dollars for the review. Additionally before the final grades, the day i submitted my FYP draft for a signature, I had asked to pursue a publication which the mentor had been open to. After 2 months of no response she had finally said that the lab/mentor has to focus and had no time for pursuing it and wishes me the best. And then the final evaluation came out.]
To make it worse i remember feeling everything was so unfair as there were classmates who wrote their FYP during a week before final deadline because their project scopes changed last minute, and they srill got an A. I put in a lot of effort into my presentation and it was just discarded because the only question the moderator had was 'why Literature Review. You kmow its not a real FYP right', and left after. Later we asled our supervisor and she said she will help. Then we got the C. And we never knew about the truth on the evaluation later. Just to let you know, the others in the prof's lab all got A or B+, and i saw them work hard so I also know they earned it. Nonetheless was really shattered and probably depressed. Since all i could feel was cheated and this is the slap sealed onto my academic history, the one thing thats supposed to reflect my capabiltiies as a researcher, and this happened.
Took a real hit emotionally, career plan wise, and to be homest my soul just dissipated. Dont care if it sounds dramatic but with the way I was truly trying to turn my life around at Y3 and Y4, finally wanting to love my degree, learn things, wanting to do further education, etc, this whole thing just reallt shattered me. Graduation amd convocation was tpugh to fake happiness and excitement at. Don't have the will to do anything research related again, all my plans and flair and spark for it has died. And there will never be a way to prove any of this if I ever want to be curious about science or doing research again, because even if any graduate college gives me a chance, what am I to explain when it comes up and are they gping to believe a student who claims she got poorly graded or a fairly well known academic institute with professors in impressive fields that did that evaluation. Im tired, and yes, I have given up.
Right after y4s2, I more or less immediately started working full time and adjusting to worklife expectations, so yeah, really felt the world close in on the double. I'm just working now, a bit more put together these days. Just going through the motions, a bit empty truth be told. I have considered still giving the science spark thing a match, maybe try and do something to build my profile on the side, but I just kmow I don't have the real heart to do it anymore. I know life will get better and usually intensity of being upset eases with time. Im getting there. Still, I don't think I will ever forgive her.