I'm not really sure if its something that has to have a formal diagnosis or not but im almost certain that i have body dysmorphia and it honestly sucks. I desperately want to feel like im not unattractive and undesirable and i juat want to be happy in my skin.

Im curious as to whether its just me in my head or if im not wrong regarding my self esteem... ive always been pretty self conscious about myself and i just genuinely dont know if im in my head and over thinking or if im not wrong. I really feel weird posting a picture of myself anywhere because of self esteem and confidence so im posting this way instead. Message me with a chat request and ill be more than happy to give more context.

Soo stuck in a forced arranged marriage and I need to get out of it. It's an extremely exhausting process and Im all alone. Im tired of being interrogated by everyone and there's so much more to come. I sit in anxiety all day. I need someone to make this disappear.

I doubt most of you can make sense of what im talking about.

19 vet student, tired of being lonely and pretending I'm fine (OCD, anxiety, lots of feelings)

Hi everyone. I'm 19, in my second year of vet school, and I'm writing this because I'm honestly tired of feeling alone.

I have OCD (I hid it for four years before I could finally get help) and anxiety, and I take medication for both. I also suspect I might have ADHD and some borderline traits, but nothing is diagnosed. My OCD is mostly intrusive thoughts and guilt. I replay things in my head, look for proof that I did something wrong, and feel the need to "review" my day before I can move on. It's exhausting.

My emotions are a rollercoaster. I'm talkative and I open up easily, but part of me is always waiting to be betrayed, so I regret it right after. I'm scared of being abandoned, of never being loved, and of getting bored once someone's affection is "guaranteed". As a kid I was the clown who loved making people react, and I think I still am, to hide how much I need to be seen and appreciated.

Home has never felt warm. I always had food and a roof, but love felt conditional, and I think that's why I chase approval so much.

I've had two relationships with girls. One was on and off, with someone who kept leaving and coming back, and I got hurt a lot. The other was short and ended because my OCD was at its worst. I stayed "just friends" with both while still having feelings, held on to resentment, and lashed out when I was hurting. I'm tired of this pattern and want to learn healthier boundaries.

At school I did well in first year, but I feel like a fraud. I feel like I've forgotten everything and will be incompetent later. I also worry about finding a job after graduating.

What I love: anime (Bleach, Hunter x Hunter), phonk, gacha games, running, and deep conversations about life, morality and dreams. I'm bi and an atheist.

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It doesn't matter if it is something trivial or heavy, whether you wanna share your favorite song or tell about what's been bothering you, I'm here. You can reach out!

I am looking for someone patient to talk to someone who feels lonely and dependent.

Yesterday, I received several messages of encouragement and support, but most of those conversations never went beyond texting. I was wondering if there might be someone I could call to help me settle down and fall asleep again. I’m having a hard time processing some difficult feelings, and I think hearing someone’s voice might help.

–please.

I can relate - Today is definitely one of those days where I feel like I should just sew my mouth shut, and bury my face; I can't be wrong if I don't exist, right?

Sigh.

How are you, though?

“[I]” I don’t know if you guys know about Cookie Run Braverse Trading Card Game, but I received three warning from the braverse official card game discord server of 9,000 people. First warning was a bit of my breast line showing, and I don’t know the second warning perhaps spamming, and the third was because I accidentally did not have pants on half asleep and the very second I fixed it yet that was the last straw and I got banned from that server when I clearly learned my lesson and keep clothing on. I got banned from two local card shops madness games and comics and lone star pack breaks, and I’m trying to desperately find a community who can play with me for cookie run braverse trading card game….. that is comfortable. I want to enjoy a game. I guess my mouth was just running it by itself. I let my mouth run because I was told this community is nice. So now without friends who taught me how to socialize… I learned it the brutal way, and wished I found a friend who likes playing matches with me for cookie run braverse trading card game and keeps help comfort me… so…. I’m trying to trust this community with this confession, hoping I get good comfort messages. If I feel uncomfortable with any person replying I will remove this post.

[L] I am 25 I am diagnosed with BPD and CPTSD. As a child I was very very angry and had extreme aggression until I was probably 10?? I have not hit anyone since then expect the two times with my ex, With everything I am about to say I cannot figure out if this is reactive abuse or just me being an abuser. All I know is I feel extreme guilt and I do not want to ever do that again

For the last year, my boyfriend has been so emotionally abusive towards me.

Getting angry at me for spending time with family and friends, forcing me to cut ties with them. or If I talk about happy memories he shits on them and says I glorify the relationship he's the only one that has ever been nice to me. Which for a long time I believed it. Calling me a bitch, whore, a cunt, I will die alone, psycho, jealous of his daughter, insecure, stupid, dumb, crazy, I overshare with my mom about our relationship, the list goes on. Gaslighting me. Mocking me. Laughing at me. Making me feel like a constant disappointment and stupid. Picking my actions apart. Silencing my own opinions. Making me feel bad for having a job, I ended up switching jobs. Anytime I ever ever ever felt hurt or upset and tried to communicate he said say "I guess I will not have an opinion its always fuck *his name* Ill just shut up". Which that is not what I am saying but it turns into an hour long conversation I'm confused about why I was even upset, I am apologizing, and he is bringing up every shitty thing I have ever done. Accusing me of cheating for having a old man neighbor that text me at night because my neighbor and I feed deer (I live alone). He threw my phone. I have autistic meltdowns that are only provoked by him, I need pressure to calm down, he gets angry calls me crazy and grabs my wrist so hard I have marks (which I did not ask for that I asked for a strong hug), threw my vape, tried to pick me up and throw me out of his room said " Gtfo of my life, gtfo of my apartment, gtfo of my house, but when I went home he called me back and convinced me to drive back to his apartment.

I do not want to go into the reasons why I hit him, but I hit him twice, I just flipped. The first time I hit him he said that was my one of I did it again he was not going to take it. The second time he chocked me 4 times. I was terrified. I threw his phone (it broke my TV) I threw coke on him and a chair. I know my actions were NOT okay. The first time I hit him I drove my self to the mental hospital after. But I hit him the first time I hit him again after he gave me the warning. I feel like an abuser. I will like I am broken emotionally. I feel like I am not allowed to feel the way I feel because I did that. I feel like I am not allowed to feel like any of the abuse was abuse because I hit him first.

Am I even allowed to feel like a DV Victim if I hit first and if I am why do people not talk about DV victims hitting first if that is even true. Please no judgement I am so humiliated about this I am talking to the internet, which is a mean place specifically reddit, I know me hitting him is abuse that is why I am confused. I cannot handle being shitted on

Edit : I have a therapist and I am medicated. I have recourses and ways to get help and grow. I just needed to vent and get person to person perspective instead of just my therapist.

how is everyone doing today I like to listen and I want everyone to feel heard and important so if you need someone Im here