Before I even get started with this story, dont take this story as lsd ruined my life or anything becasue its my fav drug and i wouldn't say all that. I have only ever bought acid off one guy. That's because he drives to Cali to get it, and he is the only dude I trust since his shit isn't fake. The dose of the tabs I would take were 150ug, which makes me even more curious about my question with my hppd.
NOW FOR THE STORY
With weed, I started smoking in 7th grade and still do. To understand how much I smoke, I go through a 2-gram Muha cart within 2 to 3 days—4 days max. I have been doing this for over 3 years, and I almost exclusively smoke carts now. I used to buy bud, but I don't anymore because my tolerance is so high that bud doesn't get me high unless I smoke a stupid amount. The carts I've been smoking have a way higher THC percentage. Every single time I took acid, I also smoked weed with it.
The first time I ever took LSD, I took 2 tabs, completely unknowing of what I was about to experience. After the trip was over, I realized what I had just gotten myself into was way different than weed. Still, I was eager to explore myself, so I started doing very extensive amounts of research on it because I was so fascinated by it. Two weeks later, I did it again. I read online that the safest timeframe for recreational use was to wait a minimum of 2 weeks before taking another dose to give your brain time to repair a bit. So, I did that. No different than the first time, I took 2 tabs again. I thought to myself, if I can handle 2, why would I want less of an effect from doing 1?
Two weeks later, I did it again, and then again, and again, until that timeframe kept getting shorter over time. I was exploring a little too much and getting lost in the visuals. I took 3 tabs about 4 times, and 1 tab maybe twice, but normally I just took 2 tabs. The timeframe went from 2 weeks (14 days) to 12 days apart, and so on and so on, until it came down to me doing it weekly, and sometimes even twice a week.
For the longest time, I didn't realize it was fucking my brain up. Even with all the research i did knowing the amount i was doing was bad. Then, one day, I was in the car with my homie and his big brother. We were just driving around listening to music. We rolled up a blunt, stuffed some wax in it, and sparked up. Halfway through the blunt, my head started hurting. It was like a headache, but the very front of my forehead felt extremely sensitive to the touch. It was a weird pain, but when I put pressure on my forehead—like pressing the back of my hand against it—it would feel weirdly good. At this same time, I started to notice that I felt really fucking dumb and fried, all just from the blunt we were smoking. It was the exact kind of "fried" you feel when you are on acid and can't think.
After I noticed this, every single time I smoked, it was almost like I was thrown right back into a psychedelic state. When I fixated my eyes on one spot—like I would when tripping—my brain would start to fill in my vision with "noise" that it was supposed to block out. For example, I would see full-blown patterns moving and changing, and objects breathing, though not quite as intense as when I was on actual LSD. Lights had an overly bright glare to them. I also had visual snow 24/7. I would stare off a lot, getting lost looking at something and not realizing I was doing it, which became a big issue for me. for some odd reason mirrors were also weirdly trippy at the time when i had all this going on
I noticed that with how much I smoked, I was constantly stuck in this state. The more LSD I did, the worse it got. Eventually, I started experiencing depersonalization, so I finally quit acid to try and fix my brain. For the longest time, I didn't think I would ever be normal again because the sheer amount of weed I was smoking kept my brain in that hyper-active state every day.
But over time, my symptoms actually started to go away. This is crazy to me because I looked it up online, and in most cases, HPPD doesn't go away if you keep smoking weed. But for me, it did. What does that mean? Is my brain just crazy resilient? The only problems I have with my brain today are that my memory from around the time I was doing acid is a little bad. i plan to do lsd again in the future becasue i love being in that state but will it make my hppd come back after just 1 trip if those neurons fire again?