for context, i graduated last year and took the CPALE twice, but unfortunately, i failed both times. it really took a toll on my mental health. i'm the panganay na anak and apo in our family, so it's a given that they have high expectations for me. they don't pressure me naman, but you know how it feels when you know na lahat ng mata nakatingin sa'yo.
failing the CPALE twice made me doubt my capabilities and question whether accounting is really the right career path for me. i'm just really burned out.
now, i want to find a job na sana, especially since i've already spent five months resting after my last take. the problem is, i can't seem to push myself to do it because napapangunahan ako ng takot. i've also lost the confidence i used to have back when i was still an academic achiever hahshsa. dagdag pa na i failed the CPALE twice, which makes everything even harder.
i'm also an introvert, and the thought of going through job interviews scares me hahshaha. but i'm self-aware enough to know that hindi ako mapapakain ng hiya ko. i know i need to take that first step, pero napapangunahan lang talaga ako ng takot :((
i guess i'm just looking for some words of encouragement from people who've been in the same situation or have gone through something similar. how did you find the courage to start over and believe in yourself again? :((