r/venting • u/Civil_Ticket7363 • 4h ago
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I woke up today feeling incredibly anxious, paranoid, and just had a terrible gut feeling. The park near me is a massive trigger, but I wanted to face my fears and overcome it, so I decided to skip first period to go sit on the swings.
Mind you, the swings are exactly where I had a massive, traumatic "green out" a few months ago. As soon as I got there, the memory triggered my body completely. Suddenly, my depth perception broke: the swings and the floor looked tiny, miniature, and way closer to me than they actually were. Then, my vision literally turned into a 2D Roblox game. I am not exaggerating or using a metaphor—the textures on the floor literally flattened into blocky, rigid Lego/Roblox grids.
My soul felt like it left my body, and it felt like I was trapped in a completely different reality. As I tried to walk, my vision started lagging and freezing, like my eyes couldn't capture my movements in real time. It looked exactly like a choppy, flat, AI-generated video or a first-person video game.
This extreme visual shift only lasted for a few seconds, but it felt awful and terrifying. About an hour later, it spiraled into a massive panic attack. I've had other incidents lately where things turn small, my vision feels like I'm completely on drugs, and I go entirely out of body. The closest way I can describe it to anyone is that it feels exactly like I'm greening out all over again, even though I am completely sober.
Has anyone else experienced literal, geometric, and blocky visual transformations during severe panic attacks or DPDR? I feel so lost and terrified that my brain is stuck like this.
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u/Shoddy-Sky4171 4h ago
That sounds terrifying, like your brain just hit the reset button on that exact spot and dumped every bit of trauma back into your system at once
I've had derealization where things look wrong, distorted, but never the blocky game-texture thing you're describing. The depth perception breaking though, where everything looks miniature or too close, that part I get. Makes you feel like you're watching your own life through a broken lens
When the brain gets that overwhelmed it can do some wild stuff with sensory processing. Might be worth bringing up with a neurologist if you haven't already, just to rule out anything else
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u/Civil_Ticket7363 4h ago
I have went to a neurologist and many doctors along with that but they all say I am healthy and it’s just anxiety
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u/Civil_Ticket7363 4h ago
I have went to a neurologist and many doctors along with that but they all say I am healthy and it’s just anxiety
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