I was wondering if anyone has ever been in the same position as me, and in what ways they managed to overcome it.
I'm an early-advanced mature student, I can learn ABRSM grade 8 repertoire pieces in a few months and learn some diploma level pieces as a challenge. My sight-reading is reasonable. I completed my grade 5 theory, so I can identify the chord changes and I have a basic understanding of functional harmony.
However...I nearly always fail to hear these chord changes when I'm learning a piece. I can hear that the piece is moving somewhere, but lose sense of the 'home' key and when 'tension' has been released. I therefore feel like I have no bearing on the structure or journey of a piece which I think would speed up my learning.
I am bad at identifying cadences unless they are in super obvious root positions or cliche sounding etc. It's like I have no intuition for the harmony and can only identify it when I sit down and focus on analysing and writing the chord names over the top of the bar, but then it just becomes more like a puzzle of distinguishing between the passing and chord tones than really helping me understand the music. The chord names I write down just get ignored eventually.
If I play a I-IV-V-I in root position, I can hear what it is by following the bass, however as soon as inversions are used, the harmony just turns into mush to my ear. It's like I am missing the link between the formulaic on-paper analysis and actually hearing it.
I've been discussing this with my teacher, but I think he finds it hard to teach because he learnt how to hear this stuff at a very young age, so he just has a fully baked in intuition. He'll say "Can you hear it resolve?" or "Focus on the journey, tension and cadences in the piece" or "Just listen carefully to what you are playing" and I'm often just sat there confused and frustrated.
I feel like this gap in my skills is probably holding me back from getting to a more advanced level and learning pieces more quickly.
Can anyone relate to this or been in a similar position? How did you get out of it?
TL;DR - I'm terrible at identifying the harmony in the pieces I'm learning, and need some help building that skill.