EVERYONE knows how bad Humanity can actually be! It doesn’t surprise anyone as to why Humans will always suck we destroy everything and only reward The Evil! For a Species we deserve extinction none of us wouldn’t have any problems if Humanity just didn’t exist for a Species we deserve extinction!

"Die wahre Erlösung liegt in der Verneinung des Willens und der völligen Abkehr von allen Lüsten und Begierden."

"True redemption lies in the denial of the will and the complete turning away from all pleasures and desires."

- Arthur Schopenhauer

Everyday i wake up with this sorrow, knowing that I’m going into a job I despise, to do what exactly? Nothing of worth. I pay bills, entertain myself on my time off and go back to work.. no prospects, no vision for a future. When I think about what I’ll be in 10 years  I picture a hole in the ground. And yet I get home, I lay down, and I have a roof over my head, food to eat, a loving girlfriend, etc etc… so much I’m taking for granted. When I think of all the family I’m losing in my shitty 3rd world country of origin I feel guilty.. when I think of all the kids dying of starvation I feel guilty. When I think anything in my life matters whatsoever I feel guilty..
why would I possibly want more when I have everything I should need right here right now..

“I’m so lucky, yet I forget I’m still hungry, for the future”.

Alas, that’s not our nature, we always crave more, that’s how we get the billionaires of the world, still longing for diamonds while having a fortune to last the rest of their life and the life of the next 1,000 people in their bloodline. We all judge them as the monsters they are but in the same position I’m sure I’d do the same.
Often I’ve been told how much of a good person I am, the people I help, the ones that love me, I hear it all the time and it makes me wonder what good really is if I fit the category.. I’m a total piece of shit, selfish beyond belief, hateful, spiteful, full of lust and gluttony. Then I realized, it’s all of us. Every single one of us is terrible in our own right, for all our potential we are all capable of being the monsters we read about. The Stanford prison experiment was conducted on normal dudes, slave owners were just regular guys capable of love and caring, even now we have a masked armed militia wrangling up children and destroying families and they’re just regular dudes, capable of all sorts of loving and hateful things.
And even if you tried to argue that not everyone is like that then what? We’re just supposed to live among the people who are? Atleast a third of this country is openly okay with that kind of hate and destruction, am I supposed to believe they’re all monsters? Just stay away from them? If we’re not all like that then what exactly is the solution considering those who are like that always inevitably end up in positions of power anyway? We’re Doomed regardless. The good die young and poor.

I often think about leaving everything. Every comfort I’ve ever known, every safety net, this damned city. I think about packing up all my things without a plan and driving into some distant horizon where I’ll have no choice but to be on my own, survive or die.. make a living on my own, earn my existence, DO SOMETHING WITH THIS LIFE… yet I’m a coward.

So I’ll continue to live in my misery until I inevitably put one  in my head and complete my self fulfilling prophecy of being a pathetic waste of space, amounting to nothing of much worth.
Not out of sadness but out of a realization that life just isn’t worth living.. it’s all momentary bliss followed by indefinite suffering. Where the measure of success seems to be being a wage slave and creating offspring to bring into this misery and create their own loop of misery.  Where every good effort one could make will be inevitably overshadowed by some cartoon villain with infinite money. Where all roads lead to suffering.. maybe once my trip to rock bottom is complete I’ll finally leave it all behind and spend my last days just seeing what this country has to offer besides misery, before my funds run out and I’m reminded that the only worth I’ll ever have is as a slave to a system I was never meant to fit into. Always the boy with broken hope. A miracle child, who survived a miraculous premature birth just to end it all knowing it was all for nothing. The tears my loved ones will cry will be lost to time like I will. That’s the peace I want.. to not exist.

I often think about God.. Maybe I’m just meant to be a BlissfulDoomer aware and appreciative of the beauty and potential of the world, but resigned to the fact that the evil forces at play are more powerful and our imminent destruction is the only true outcome of our path, a lesson for a future species perhaps.. maybe we will be the fossils others will find to guide their less toxic and consuming species. I know there is no future for us, but perhaps the beauty in my life is enough, perhaps I live my life just enjoying what I can, appreciating it all before we collapse on our own greed. Maybe we are just the failed science project of a creator just trying to find out what true potential is .. if that were so we would be the last experiment before the breakthrough, the last failed subjects before the creator has their eureka moment and finally figured it out. . So close to being, something beautiful, but not quite right.. infested with destruction that consumes all beauty. Best thing to do now is throw us away, and start over with the new lessons, because we… we just don’t deserve what we’ve been given 

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Каждую ночь я думаю о том чего не хочу у меня появляются странные мысли я не делюсь ими но каждый раз они звучат заманчиво я не когда не видел будущего я никогда не думал что из меня что получится и я не знаю что делать я зашел на редит чтобы выговорить все что накипело и не знаю будет или еще посты или он будет последним .

My friend of 5-6 years and I were on a phone call last night and I made a point about how I won’t be close friends with someone who follows a faith because I don’t. (Which shouldn’t be an outlandish thing to say.) She proceeded to go off on me basically saying she doesn’t trust anyone who doesn’t at least follow a higher power or believes we are here for some greater meaning.

This same friend: is heavily addicted to weed specifically pens, disregarded my suicide attempt, and never is open to talk about other people’s mental health struggles (which we believe it’s because she can’t handle that everyone else is struggling too so there’s no hope for her).

Just looking for your thoughts on this, perspectives would help.

I was wandering through life, trying to live the lives that every human being who ever existed on Earth once lived—in different races, countries, cultures, and centuries. I succeeded. I experienced life from countless human perspectives. I have felt their joy, nostalgia, grief, suffering, and hopelessness.

Every single one of them was trying to give life a different meaning. Some copied the meaning of others. Some created their own. Some rejected the very idea of existence. Yet every one of them became enslaved by the meaning they chose. And some were not even given a choice; they were forced to accept a meaning imposed upon them.

But how can one give meaning to life solely through life itself?

Perhaps one must still give life their own meaning, despite being spiteful, miserable, sluggish, or ecstatic. In the end, what we choose as our meaning may be subtle and insignificant to some, yet heaven itself to others.

I know most of you have since the world is full of dumb ass people and us as nihilists here on this subreddit are very intelligent with critical thinking