hello,
i would like to preface this by saying mentally, i am not in a well state. i was inpatient about two weeks ago following a really bad crisis that ended a 3-year long relationship and left me incredibly depressed. my baby passing today was kind of the tip of the iceberg and i think i can officially say im very depressed right now.
about a year ago, my friend asked me if i could take in her sisters two gerbils. her sister got them (16 at the time) and just straight up abused/neglected them. she would pick them up until they bit her and taunt them, and would forget to feed/water them. i obliged, got them a 50-gallon and stocked it with bedding and toys.
they were very happy (albeit, incredibly vicious) little guys. i am not being dramatic when i say vicious. both of them would climb into my gloves when i was cleaning their cage to maul me, or go for my wrists. i noticed in the past couple of days that Pestilence, one of the brothers, was nowhere to be spotted. i dug through the cage and lo and behold, he had passed. without sharing too many details, his brother took the liberty of eating him, so cleaning out the entire cage to disinfect it and discard of his body was pretty tough on me.
now, i'm at a crossroads. it's my understanding that it's cruel to keep a gerbil alone, so of course i will not be doing that. i have two options;
I. getting another gerbil and bonding them
II. rehoming
i would absolutely pick getting another gerbil in a heartbeat, but i'm hesitant on how hard bonding them may be. i am certainly able to feed/water him, clean his cage daily, but im worried bonding may be too hard of a process for me to commit to.
i love my boy and i want what's best for him. i'm worried that rehoming him to an existing clan may not be possible, because no one wants a nippy, "mean" gerbil.
i feel like im just rambling so any tips, opinions or ideas are welcome.
(pic attached is temporary; i wanted to take all the bedding out to disinfect. im going to grab some more tomorrow when the pet store is open)