I did, multiple times, but 1 day of disturbance or some thing that brekas it, and I am out of the loop, completely. 1 day I accidentally went late night coz binged too much (yes, I have protocols to prevent it, but somedays nothing works, and yes, I am prescribed meds but can't have them now coz me stupid) and then wake up late and whole system overflows. 1 day I have to go soemwhere, can't follow the format, and boom, it is end of the line....
Last fall I had to start taking blood pressure meds. I need a stint in my right kidney. In general taking blood pressure meds should be at the same time every day. I’ve got one I take three times a day, two I take once. Then I throw a vitamin in the mix for fun. I have fucked up this shit in every way possible. One morning I forgot altogether. Got about 30 min into my commute before I realized my error. Another morning I had my slippers on. It’s completely fucked my whole deal up, but I just keep pushing. And sucking. And sucking. It never stops, but I think that’s the point. Our brains aren’t wired for a regimented life on a schedule.
It really sucks, to the point that I just physically stop doing it. I got so tired of studying that I could not even read a paragraph without yawning. At present I am so sucked out of making a routine that I am just doomscrolling and binging movies. It just really fucking sucks. I have read at many places that consistency and regularity ain't our suit, but, my parents raised me teaching that only the consistent human being who does the same things daily and walks on the safe path can achieve anything, and now brain just can't accept the opposite, so it either hyper plans for proper routine, or just shuts down and does stuff it deems safe, passive stuff like binging and all. I have so many, I mean so many plans in my head, but they are all, like always, getting buried. It fucking sucks.
Thanks for replying mate, I got a place to blow off some steam that had been accumulating.
Here's what is (so far) working for me. I have basically the same routine, but I change it up. For example, for one week I'll do the dishes first thing when I wake up. The next week, I do them after lunch. Another week and I'll do them every other day instead of every day.
Things are getting done, I get the dopamine hit of getting stuff done, but it's not in such a predictable pattern that I get bored or annoyed.
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u/RandomGaMeRj14 1d ago
I am in this post and this is my current struggle, wanting a form to daily life but every system I make falling down like a house of cards.