Advice

Advice

I’m tired of fighting for the right to exist, I’m done trying to be happy, and literally no one would miss me. I don’t want to suffer anymore. I’m tired of being trans in a conservative space I can’t escape, I can’t find work I’m tired of living I have no more dreams left

I promise that I am not a conservative trying to win an argument. I am a transsexual male seeking some sort of masculinizing bottom surgery, I believe either would provide me with relief. My top dysphoria is well managed with the tools at my disposal and I am fortunate enough to not have any issues passing. I have been on hormones since I was younger. I have tried virtually every type of therapy and do not know how much longer I can make it with my genitals as they are. I exercise, yes. I have also been using prosthetics but everything feels fake no matter how “realistic” it is. I just want to feel comfortable in my body not in my clothes. I feel so weak in comparison with how well others are able to handle it if they even deal with it. Again, I don’t know how much longer I can make it in my body as it is.

I’m asking for any resources for a sex change at 17. I turn 17 at the end of October.