r/SuicideWatch • u/Professional_Sky_268 • 12h ago
I’m giving up
(20 f) I moved to uni in a kinda last hope way but i’m doing just as bad as i did at home. i hate my course and i hate being away from home and even if i stick it out it doesn’t mean i will get a job in the industry. if i go home yes i will be closer to my boyfriend but i will still be as suicidal as i am now because there’s nothing else i want to do with my life.
my depression always comes back, even if it takes months or years to get bad it always comes back.
i dont want to work a shit job for the rest of my life and that be it.
my bf will move on eventually if i die as we’re both young but id be worried about my mum but also if im gone i guess i would be thinking about it at all.
i haven’t done anything yet but im almost certain i will, this is kind of a last hope message as i dont want it to be this way but i see no other option. i hate mental illness so much
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u/bay_harbour_gooner_1 12h ago
U wanna talk about what’s bothering u more in detail, just to get things off ur chest, it can get overwhelming sometimes, I kinda get how u feel, I’m anxious about that myself