In my teens and youngās twenties, I would get sleep paralysis at least three times a week. I would be aware of my surroundings, able to see my husband and dogs, but unable to move or make any sound. I would hallucinate a shadow person in the corner of the rooms and after so many, I became aware of what they were and squeeze my eyes shut to avoid seeing anything scary.
I started smoking weed and have for the past 5 years and they stopped, I figured it was me growing out of them. Well it became illegal again in Texas so I am now off of it and have had sleep paralysis dreams for the past 4 nights in a row and one of them really shook me.
I was laying on my stomach when I realized I had that familiar heaviness to my body and I was unable to move or speak. It was strange because it didnāt feel like I fell asleep, I could still feel, hear, and see my husband breathing next to me and I tried hard to move my hand closer to him or speak to get his attention with no luck.
I then saw the familiar shadow person start to form and crawl down from my ceiling and quickly shut my eyes to block it out. Them something new happened, I had a falling sensation and felt like I was on hard ground all of the sudden, the texture under my hands sandy and I opened my eyes to find myself still stomach down in my backyard.
I could feel the breeze, hear the crickets and the cars pass on the nearby highway, but I still couldnāt move or speak. I desperately tried to move towards my bedroom window or make a noise to maybe trigger my dogs in the bedroom to bark but couldnāt. I then heard the door to our wood shop behind me open and I closed my eyes again and tried hard to scream.
When I opened them, I was truly awake and back in my bedroom. It was so real feeling and terrifying that I stayed awake since 3:30am. It is now 12:34am the following day and I still canāt convince myself to go to sleep in fear of it.
Has anybody else struggled with recurring sleep paralysis?