I guess the rain is down in Africa! But how are ya? ::)

I understand it's volunteer work but like bro told me not to kms bc I shouldn't be selfish?? Now I want to do it to spite him.

Like Can you blend in with society without feeling out of place?

I've seen many people claim otherwise here on this subreddit and elsewhere that you need to focus on yourself and goals first but personally if I hadn't found a fully accepting girl to fall in love with me at 18 I would be dead right now at 20.

Since meeting her, I've managed to turn my life around, I'm way more attractive, well dressed, I got motivated to find and stick with a job and I've been able to go back and apply to a good university. This is all while I don't even see her that much.

A good friend group didn't even help with half of it, only she and living together with her in the future has propelled me to become twice the person I was, attempting things I never thought to. The power of having a person who'll stick by you is really better than anything you can do yourself most of the time, to reach other stages of fulfillment you need it.

Don't let people gaslight into believing otherwise.

-30 teams/cities to choose from
-Teams basically play everyday for six months straight (162 games + playoffs)
-Games will often happen middle of day on weekdays
-Games run late if you’re in central/eastern time zone watching west coast games
-Diverse players from around the world
-Cheap tickets if you want to see in person
-For you neurodivergent NEETs out there, baseball players, especially pitchers, have a reputation for being on the spectrum
-A lot of funny and wonky things happen throughout season (see Jomboy on YouTube)
-Dugouts and clubhouses are cozy
-Perfect sport to have on in the background
-MLB fans are less insufferable and normie compared to NFL/NBA

Embrace the baseballNEETpill.

I'm not here but I haz magic so that phone is propping itself up on the edge of an outlet! nini ::)

Puta soledad

I’m struggling to understand what life is. We are all going to die. Everything has a life span including stars, planets, and the sun.

Why do we care about humanity given that it will end eventually?

Why do people make children given that they will die?

Why people want to collect as much money as possible?

How can i have consciousness?

Why do I exist? Does my cat think?

Why do other people spend all of their lives working and studying? What is the point?

Why are we trying to survive our whole lives since early humans? Haven’t we invented enough stuff so that we don’t suffer immensely with work, studies and psychiatric issues that modern life brings?

I have enough money, cat, home, car, live in a beach town but i don’t really enjoy living.

I’m like a helpless child. It’s not even like I can’t do my job I just can’t problem solve or deal with pressure. I immediately look to another man to solve my problems for me. And they always look at me funny. Idk maybe I’m overthinking it. When they make mistakes I give them space. When I make mistakes they look at me like I’m retarded. Am I an easy target because of my weak personality?

As somebody who had worked in an awful job and got treated badly, my home life wasn't better either. I was (and still am) lonely and never had a girlfriend before, mostly just rotting at home on my computer. I was so burnt out.

At least for the majority of normies, their day ends with the comfort of loved ones, despite a tough day at work.

Autism and loneliness are twin burdens that make it hard for me to find love. Adding a stressful job on top of that, it was hell.

You can rightfully complain about unfair everything is and how careers that aren't soulless often get treated poorly. But unless you're born rich, have people to mooch off of for life or are obviously disabled enough to get NEETbux you need some form of income. It's as simple as that. I don't care if traditional people look down upon me. Traditional people are apart of the same crowd group who will bully lolcows until they commit crimes.

Everything feels so hypocritical. People constantly brag or complain about how little work they actually do in the office every day. Everyone online has a bad manager. But the second you say you don't want to participate, you're a parasite. It feels like people would rather I be a criminal than someone who does nothing.

I hate that they're right in a way. Social services only exist because of other people. Society only runs because of other people. You wouldn't live long on your own in the wilderness. If you even had the chance to try, because countries own all the land. There's just no choice. I don't owe anyone anything if I was simply forced to be here. Hundreds of billions dead and forgotten in history jjust for me to do more work than die. But now most of that work isn't even cruciaI to survival.

have an ego. I am perfectly capable of working. I could condition myself to get used to working. I just don't want to. I'm also terrified. Every career is volatile right now. I'm scared to commit to something because it does not work out. If I try hard just to end up homeless anyway, what was the point? I could've spent all that time having fun instead.

I feels like I was destined to be a NEET. I've always been asocial, and I've never cared about starting a family or other standard goals. I waa very sheltered. During my school years I just did the bare minimum to pass. It all culminated to this. I like living this way, but it isn't sustainable. Some normal things are a huge hurdle to me likely stemming from this mindset.

Sometimes i do ;_;

Im just a lonely nobody. Ill be depressed for the rest of my life

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I understand we all have to work and definitely can't rely on family. Im entering 20s but idk what's preventing me from doing anything. I want to get a job but due to anxiety and lack of social skills, having insecurities and shyness. Im avoiding myself from applying. I previously used to work at car wash, but because I had bad experience at there, I just got really nervous and anxious. I thought I push myself to work in hopes to overcome shyness but negative experience is putting me in a bubble once again. I don't know how I will live life if I'm constantly in the zone of anxiety and overthinking. This is ruining my own life. I don't know how to overcome this barrier. It's preventing me from trying new things, working on my goals, overcoming fears. My mother will get marry in 2027 and I think she will move to her new husband house after they get married. So now I'm just left alone in this world. Sighs I'm so stuck and I can't blame nobody but me. Now what should I do?

Basically how I feel

I'm lonely
I'm suffering

friends...

One of the most painful and lesser talked about parts of being poor is the pain of not being able to move out of a mediocre place while young. Now, living in an American suburb is nothing to complain about of course, I have it better than 90% of the impoverished world lacking base necessities, yes but it's sterile, lifeless, there's almost nothing to do, explore, no interesting scenes to come across. This isn't a new thought at all, I have been obsessing over it from when I moved out of the city and reading about other culturally relevant places, whether through friends or novels. Even abandoned places carrying history near me are quickly demolished, crushing.

This isn't to say bigger cities are practically slums nowadays in the west compared to their former glory (Take Paris or London) but I still think the general feel of a place impacts my everyday mood.

Even discounting cities, small cities/hamlets/villages I've seen in certain countries like France, Japan, and Korea are far more suited for life than most of North America.

It depresses me more to be well travelled than to not have been at all. I have no idea if I'd have a different view actually living somewhere like St. Petersburg and being middle class since I'm still an outsider looking in.

I mention St. Petersburg because The Underground Man, I'm jealous of even his miserable life.

I've been trying to ease off the alcohol for about a week now, I had a plan to cut out two beers per week. That plan failed when I went up to the variety store 5 hours ago to get a 12 case of beer. So now I'm butt naked, drunk, and exhausted after a long goon. There is also a plate of pork n beans on my bed and its 3 in the morning.

At this point, if I rope, I hope I go straight to the bottomless depths of hell and burn for eternity, turn up the heat baby!

I guess I’ve just come to terms with it now. It wasn’t even a week ago when I had plans to stop NEETing and get a job. (I’d have to get grades from school first tho but there is no chance in hell I’ll get them). Not only cause I am not capable but because I don’t even want to do it anymore

My life will probably be very short but honestly I am fine with it. I am not ashamed of who I am and I am not ashamed of being a NEET. In fact I am proud. Idk why but I am

i still remember thinking back to the year 1980 in the year 2000 and thinking that was a long time ago

now it's 2026 and that same timespan fits with 2006 being twenty years ago and it doesn't really seem that long ago.

but it's like a quarter of an average life has passed.

fucking nuts.

Fucking took 10mg Adderall, suddenly could take a shower and do boring shit without feeling like I wanna sperg out. Played CoD WW2, went from having a 0.9 KDA over 200 games to 30 kills 5 deaths, 10 games in a row. I was top 1-2% in DOTA 2, almost good enough to have been making money boosting accounts for £10-20 odd an hour, stimulants would've improved me enough to that point.

It would've meant, if not for neuropathy and having them sooner, I could've achieved my goal (it's kinda sad, but fuck a conventional normie life anyway). Since I have neuropathy and chronic pain that disturbs sleeps and impairs my arm function, I also have heart complications that developed as a result of overdosing due to my circumstances being so shit, which contraindicate (restrict) any stimulant treatment, indefinitely. lmfao.

They felt pretty awful psychoactively, especially Ritalin, didn't see much abuse potential in them, yet they made me so fucking good at games and cured like 50-60% of my laziness. Also let me zip up a jacket and tie shit up quicker, could probably ride a bike or learn to drive if I had them sooner. Now, people will moralize my situation for the rest of my life, and my options are either leech NEETbux (mogs working), or work in chronic pain, coming home to fuck all as an ugly AuDHDcel without any medications.

I've tried antidepressants, all they do is reduce your sense of urgency, they do nothing for my laziness, as it is a direct result of low dopamine sensitivity and chronic pain, not fucking depression. They might reduce my emotional reactivity, but that's it. Anyway, wish I claimed welfare starting 18 and got an Adderall/Ritalin script during my school years. Fucking lol. 27 in just under 2 months, with absolutely nothing to show for it. Even developed mild cognitive impairment, furthering my negative symptoms of ADHD. HAHAAHAHAHA

Anyone else experienced profound improvements in FPS/vidya performance, and irl pace/coordination on ADHD meds? Online, it's just a bunch of non-autistic ADHD only people describing it as giving them, "more focus".

ik how insufferable I sound, I commend you for making it this far if you genuinely read it all, I just fucking hate this world, and my future is so fucked. lmao. Chronic pain turned me into a fucking drug fiend, not having ADHD meds lead to me neglecting a nerve injury, until it got so bad that surgery was required, then that got botched and the guy damaged it, my hand muscles wasted, all of this at 21. g-g