OFF MY CHEST MUNA
So there’s a classmate of mine in 4L na super bossy and super toxic ang attitude. Dati di naman sya ganyan because friend din nya mga barkada ko. So noong lumipat lahat ng close friends ko to another, nag-iba rin ang attitude towards me. To give you a background, she’s also working at the same law school and taking up law at the same time and beadle pa. So technically alam nya lahat ng chismis inside the offices in law school.
So eto na nga, every time I ask questions sa GC na seemingly “dumb” question for her, kino-callout ako sa GC as if may ginawa akong masama. But kung ibang mga kaklase ko yan, “Haha” reacts lang with matching friendly banter. Whenever I ask profs questions regarding the subject matter kahit it to most of my classmates think it is a legitimate question (and yes they insist din for me to ask), magpi-PM sakin na, “wag ako magbida-bida” or “wag ka na magtanong ng mga kumplikadong tanong at tatandaan ka na ng prof” or “pag ito lumabas sa exam kasalanan mo to”. But yung prof, each and everytime I ask complicated questions, they appreciate naman and even commended for asking them. Somehow, those profs validated me for asking difficult questions.
Tapos every extracurricular activities na both inside and outside ng school (yes isa akong extracurricular person) na involved ako, sasabihin ba naman “talagang sinabay mo pa sa review”. And at the same time, this is the same person na manghihingi pa ng review materials sa akin. Diba? Saan ka nakakuha ng kapal ng mukha matapos lait-laitin or even make me look dumb? Kesa na magtutulungan dahil 4L na, nanghihila nalang pababa? For what, to secure your slot for graduation? Paano kaya pag naging abogado pa to? Ganyan din gagawin nya sa kapwa abogado? Yung mga ganitong law student na may ganitong ugali, eto ung mga di dapat pinapasa sa law school. Bakit kaya 4L na ganun ang ugali? Ang hirap magseek ng validation lalo na’t I feel isolated sa LS kase wala na yung peers ko. Hayst.