Please forgive me if this post Is a little scattered, I'm finding it quite difficult to focus these days.
*I've posted similar stuff here before, but I'm going to keep doing as this shit is ongoing and I'm not holding it in anymore.
My mother is an energy vampire and oscillates between this child like persona and this old haggered witch. I don't know much about possession, etc but the word seems apt. My "mother" is not herself anymore. She is no longer the same person she used to be, and not in a good way.
Whenever I feel "good" she tries to disrupt me and I feel down again afterwards. She is scum of the earth, or whatever is attached to her is. She has treated me like a punching bag and a tool for her happiness since I was a child. She has shut me down since I was a child. Disrupting my accomplishments and deterring me from doing my best.
I'm currently in a situation where I feel insanely trapped. I'm an adult living living at home and have faced long-term unemployment. To add to this my health is not great right now, and I feel so old for my years.
I had a dream where a small hobbit of a reptile appeared as her in a dream and was limping towards me, calling for my affection. I hugged her/it and it grew in size and began berating me to steal more energy from me.
She has also tired to seduce my several times treating me like her partner. It's sick! This hasn't happened in a long time, but has in the past.
She is keeping me in this situation and keeping me tied to her somehow. I need to break free from her. I was travelling once, I left the country and as soon as I landed, she had no idea that I had left, immediate texts and phones calls despite not talking to her for sometime.
A small cat has started coming round to the house for a while now, about a year, and I was travelling for some time. Before I left the cat was in good health, I return and the cat is covered in grey hairs and seems to have aged at an exacerbated rate.
I've had some very strange experiences and occurrences in my life and in dreams these past few years. I underwent a spiritual attack that lasted 5 days a 2 years ago, whilst my "Mother" and her partner where in the house. My life has not been the same since. During what literally felt like a spiritual r*pe where my head felt like a chest of drawers being raided for an extended period of time, I heard a witch of a voice scream "make him simple!" and my mind has felt suppressed ever since. I've also had a complete personality change. I remember my life before, but I'm not the same.
Due to these occurrences it makes it very hard for me to focus and stay on task, but I'm able to fight it. Even now whilst writing this post I feel confused and as if I'm being held back from speaking my truth.
Each time I try to do something to improve my life, something goes wrong. I'm trying to work on projects and do things that will improve my life and I feel this insane resistance each time I do. I heard a male voice whilst I was working on something say "You can't stop him."
I saw the words "Hurry" flash hypnagogic-ally in my vision during the time I was planning some projects as well, whilst sleeping.
When I do something a voice will "Done it" as if it made me do something.
I heard this voice whisper "Sleep" a number of times also.
A voice keeps saying "Sorry" too.
My diet and lifestyle is usually healthy and I was a very active person before. I now find myself eating a lot of beef, and dairy. Something I would never usually do. I heard a female voice say "I need him!!" as if she was being dragged away, and all of a sudden these cravings are gone?
I seen a fat female demon? In my dream taunting me telling me to eat bacon and cream? Despite those things never usually being part of my diet. Wtf?
I've had many dreams in my past where I'm my younger self being driven around by people showing up as old friends.
I've had dreams where I was trying to escape my situation and I was being dragged back to be something I don't want to be. Men in cars blocking my exits and escape, people pulling me back. Something very weird is going on in my life and probably has been going on for a very long time.
I've heard and seen crazy things during sleep paralysis. A voice telling me to choose "Egypt" or "Babylon".
I had a dream recently where these very tall black demons where sat around me at a table. I appeared as a child and they where speaking, they said my name, and afterwards said "He'll do it." or "He'll go."
I've had dreams where I've seen covens of witches flying around. Had dreams or visions where I've seen this witch being sprayed with water as if being cleaned.
I woke up one time whilst people where "having a conversation in my head". There was silence as if a question had been asked and the reply was "Lemuria"? and all I heard was these banshee like screams. "No!!!!!!"
I've heard a voice say "They're still protecting him and he's hell bent!"
I've seen these demons with glowing yellow eyes in my dreams tell me that "They loved eating their own." and that they can't wait to eat me...
I had a dream whilst I moved out last year and my mother was speaking to me whist a man was behind her and she was basically telling me to "come back home". She was being used like a puppet by the man behind her.
Real life, not a dream... Whilst going to the supermarket some time ago I was making my way back home and the journey back was lined with men in backpacks all on the phone standing at consecutive bus-stops (I know I sound crazy... If the rest of the post hasn't already made you think that, lol). This is a strange occurrence as my area is usually very quiet. One of these men tried to stop me before I came to my house and said "Do you drive yet?". I said "What?" and he was flustered. This same man was yelling "Help" on my street a couple of weeks prior. Again, very unusual for my area.
I've woken up and heard voices telling me to plant b*mbs. Saying profane things such as "Public Masturb**ion" and other stange thing like that.
There are English people involved, Americans involved. Something strange is happening in my life.
Even whilst I'm travelling I'll have the most strangest experiences. Being followed, etc. There's so much weird fucking shit.