Hi everyone! I’m fairly new to exploring theistic Satanism and demonolatry, and I’d really appreciate some perspectives from more experienced practitioners.
On October 14, I quietly spoke to the spiritual beings I believe in. I didn’t perform a ritual, chant any enns, make offerings, or attempt an invocation.
I simply asked whether anyone could hear me.
I spoke honestly about my personal struggles, my difficulty with motivation, my mistakes, and my desire to become stronger, more independent, and more truthful with myself. I wasn’t asking for money, love, power, or material success. I was seeking guidance and emotional strength.
The only other remotely spiritual activity I had done was making a small clay figure representing one of the Seven Deadly Sins.
Then, on the morning of October 15, I had an incredibly vivid and elaborate dream.
Several figures appeared whom I recognized as demons associated with the Seven Deadly Sins.
I’m certain about Belphegor, Asmodeus, Lucifer, and Mammon. I also remember having the impression that Leviathan was present, although I can’t recall his specific role. There may have been others.
What surprised me most was that I wasn’t afraid of them at all.
They were extremely powerful, dominant figures, yet I felt completely safe and protected in their presence.
One particularly intense scene involved Asmodeus physically threatening and choking a former friend I’ve lost contact with. She accused him of behaving differently around me, and I remember him warning her to stay away.
Even during that scene, I didn’t feel threatened myself. Instead, I experienced a strong sense of being protected.
Later, we attended a large celebration near my home, which I had apparently helped organize. The event was extremely successful and attracted a huge crowd.
Afterward, we left together in a car.
Mammon was driving. I remember sitting on Belphegor’s lap before being moved to Asmodeus and then Lucifer.
There was also an intimate, sexual element to this part of the dream. Despite its intense and dominant nature, I remember feeling unusually safe, accepted, and cared for.
At one point, we stopped at a gas station so I could wash up, and Belphegor accompanied me. I remember his presence very clearly.
My personal interpretation
I’ve been thinking a lot about my past lately, especially old relationships, personal mistakes, and the kind of person I want to become.
To me, the confrontation with my former friend felt like a symbolic separation from the past.
The successful event near my home represented something familiar and safe, while the car journey afterward felt like moving forward into a new chapter of my life.
What stayed with me most wasn’t the appearance of the demons themselves, but the overwhelming feeling of protection, trust, and being able to let go of some control without fear.
Here’s what I’m wondering:
I hadn’t performed an invocation or any formal magical practice. I had only made a clay figure and quietly asked whether anyone was listening.
Could a dream like this have spiritual significance within demonolatry, even without an actual ritual?
Has anyone experienced dreams involving multiple demons before beginning formal practice?
And how do you personally distinguish between a meaningful spiritual experience and a dream shaped by your subconscious mind?
I’m aware that I’ve been interested in demonology and the Seven Deadly Sins recently, so I understand that my imagination could have influenced the dream. I’m not treating it as proof of contact.
I’d genuinely appreciate thoughtful interpretations, including more skeptical ones.
Thank you for reading!