Two days ago, I had just finished shitting the perfect consistency for smearing. I did it on my bathroom counter. I was hesitant because I thought about smearing my own poop on my face (and body-basically b covered in my poop from head to toe), & it’s been something I’ve always wanted to do, so I said, “fuck it”, & wow, I’m definitely a fan! I had no idea what to expect, but I decided to try it, & I actually really enjoyed it! I was worried about the smell, as I have a weak stomach lol 😅 but to my surprise, the smell was very faint, yet subtle, so it didn’t affect me as much as I thought it would. When I was applying it onto my face, it felt like I was applying a face mask lolol that’s the best way I could describe it. I hope that makes sense lmao 💀 As I was applying my own poop to my cheeks, I decided to then rub it on my nose, and then my chin. It felt so comforting & the adrenaline took over, but it wasn’t in a high energy way. It was more of a feeling of relief? I’m not sure if that makes any sense. I was having a very stressful morning that day & I needed to decompress. I don’t know about y’all, but whenever I do smear (especially with the consistency I had 2 days ago), it was so relaxing, sensual, & erotic. I was in the present and taking my time. I’ve always had an issue staying present, because of my traumatic past w/ sexual abuse & physical abuse. Disassociation at its finest. 🙃 BUT! No pun intended. Well, maybe a little bit pun intended lol While I was smearing my own poop (so cool to say that) 😃 on my face, I wanted more. I couldn’t stop. I felt like a primal animal, but at a controlled, slow pace. I felt like I had disassociated at one point, but it wasn’t the typical disassociation I am used to feeling. It was more of an exciting moment/feeling for me. I’m finally regular! I used to not b able to poop for 5 days, sometimes longer, but good ole Linzess helps so much, so I’m glad to say I am pooping like a normal person! Haha 😂
To continue… I then thought, “well, it shouldn’t stop here”, so then I proceeded to rub my poop on my breasts, my chest, parts of my back & sides, my neck, parts of my stomach, & then my ass. I’ve smeared my own poop on my ass before, but NEVER on my face, my neck, on my back & sides, breasts, chest, or stomach. I got so turned on-it was a crazy, good feeling. Phenomenal, I should say and/or add. 😊 I cannot wait to do it again & to push my limits more and more. Pushing my limits in a good way. Then I took the best everything shower after. I felt so much more relaxed after. Plus, I changed my sheets & shaved my legs, so that also felt really good. If you’re a woman, you’ll understand, because when a woman takes an everything shower, shaves, & changes her sheets, it’s an instant mood switch. Your shaved legs underneath your comforter & sheets, is such a nice feeling! A mood switch, as in a really comfortable & calming way. ✨
I’ve been embracing my scat fetish to its fullest lately, and it has been a phenomenal experience. I have so many fantasies I want to fulfill. Even newer ones that have come into mind. I’m taking things slow and at my own pace. I feel like I’m truly connecting with myself, because I hid this part of me for so long. It’s a really nice feeling. ✨ Before I opened up about it, my Reddit was completely hidden. I didn’t want ANYONE to know I had a scat fetish. I didn’t want anyone to see what subreddits I was in, commented on, because I literally feared for my life if someone were to find out I had a scat fetish. People outside this fetish, are extremely judgmental & they don’t really understand it.. & that’s valid, but just because I have a certain fetish, doesn’t mean I’m a messed up person, or disgusting. Getting called disgusting, is actually a turn on, but not by some random person who doesn’t know me. Ya know? Sure-I have mental health conditions due to trauma, but it’s deeper than that. It’s a little thing called, fear. Fear can control your life if you let it… BUT! Ever since I told my therapist this year & you all (my first success story), I’ve proceeded to tell more people. I don’t hide my profile anymore. I don’t care if people know I have a scat fetish, because it IS a part of me, that I no longer choose to hide! I don’t allow fear to control my life around my scat fetish. It’s a very liberating feeling to say the least. 😌 My therapist even told me a few weeks back, “You seem more stable.” And I agree! ☝️
A few days after I told my therapist, I told my best male friend. He had no idea it was so involved lol 🤭 I told him, “well, yeah & it requires a lot of trust, respect, & boundaries.” I then told my friends with benefits. It was funny how he guessed it right away. He asked, “is it people shitting on each other?” I laughed and said, “yes, but it’s also deeper than that. It is very involved.” I then corrected him with the term. “So it’s actually called, scat.” I then proceeded to explain it more in depth, & then, we both laughed like little kids after. 🤭 He didn’t judge me whatsoever! It was so cool! 😎 Since then, I’ve told several of my friends, and recently, my sister. To my surprise, everyone, including my sister, has been so supportive, non-judgmental, & kind. Positive too! 😊 They’re always asking me questions about it, so it’s really nice & refreshing, per se. I feel like I’ve become more confident in my own skin & I’ve NEVER been able to feel like this ever! I’m really happy this subreddit exists. Everyone is always so nice & friendly. Understanding too… so thank you for that. ❤️
To end this… if you’re contemplating on being more open about your scat fetish, share it when you’re ready. Don’t force it. And when you do decide to share it, take your time. I was thinking the worst when I had shared it with my therapist, my best male friend, my friends with benefits, my friends, & recently, my sister. I was so afraid of random strangers on the internet or my friends finding out that I have a scat fetish. But you know what? This IS a part of you & that’s okay. ❤️ It’s natural to feel the shame & guilt, because those feelings come with this fetish & that’s okay. I just wanted to say that you don’t have to hide this part of you forever. It’s truly an incredible feeling to REALLY & FULLY, embrace my scat fetish to its full potential. 🥰
Thanks for reading. I LOVE Y’ALL! 💞