One year with the Stelligator
One year ago my wife suggested we get serious about looking for another dog. Our last one had passed away 2 years prior. My daughter was a junior in high school and we knew this was the time if she was going to enjoy being home with a new dog.
The dog was always going to be my dog because I am home all the time. I was also allergic and needed to find one that I could best tolerate.
I was not looking at Belgians, had made appointments to meet a Doberman and an Aussie. But I saw her pic in a rehoming post and decided to take a look. I was intending to just check with her because her pic was cute to me. She has one floppy ear that is irresistible. We met s day or two later and within 30 seconds of meeting one another, it was a done deal: totally bonded with each other immediately. Her previous owners were surprised because while she is not dangerous or aggressive, she is not quick to warm up to anyone, especially men with large frames⦠men like me. But she looked me right in the eyes, I knelt down and she crashed into me, full on affection. Miracle one.
And miracle 2: I literally have no allergic reaction to her. NONE. Iām 56 and have had significant dog allergies since I was a child. This was her second miracle on her way to being deemed Saint Stella by my wife.
Got her home and it was golden, a perfect fit. She doesnāt need crate training, and does not have separation anxiety. She doesnāt destroy anything except her toys, get gets along with our cats and is amazing around all children and other pups. Sheās protective without being mean, she gets along with other dogs but does not dominate or allow any other dog to dominate her. She actually protected both of us in those first weeks together when a huge black dog that weighed at least 30lbs more than her rushed us at night on a walk. I let go of the leash. She immediately became the kind of scary dog that Malinois are known to be, put that dog on its back and only let it up to chase it away. She chased it about 20 feet, stopped looked back at me, checked the dog one more time, came back and sat next to me facing out, tail wagging. No blood on her body, no blood on her muzzle. She did enough to deal with it, but not too viciously. She and I totally clicked together like puzzle pieces, totally get each other, love each other and she is my shadow 24/7. She immediately became the Stelligator.
Butā¦. Within one month of having her in my life I got surprised with the bad news that I had stage 3 cancer in two locations, one being a lymph gland. I did not even go in to the Dr for anything related to cancer. It was a shocking, bad turn of events. Iām 56 this year but this time last year I was in better shape than anytime since the 90s when I was a collegiate volleyball player. The news that you have cancer is always terrible, but it was especially devastating because I have enough family history of cancer to know what it and the medical treatments do to your body. I felt like I had just gotten my body āback,ā after a long time just to know what would happen to it.
I had surgery, but had complications: internal bleeding, and had to have a second surgery. I spent the month of December with stitches hanging out of my skin in a few places and massive bruising on my whole mid section. Then I started treatment: all within 6 weeks of bringing Stella home.
My wife is wonderful and a total rock of support but one thing cancer does universally is make you very aware of the burden it puts on your loved ones. We who are fighting cancer are always managing how we feel, but mainly we manage how we present how we are feeling to our loved ones. We are always fighting to not seem ill, beaten or down about it because itās already a shitty situation for them.
Saint Stella sees straight through all that and only wants to love me and make sure I am ok. Thereās been plenty of days in this last year when I held
the dam shut long enough to get some time alone with Stella walking, chilling, sitting around the fire pit and feel how I felt without worrying about how it impacted anyone else. I can attest that she is miraculously absorbent of tears. She knows when I am not feeling well or when I am fighting sadness or depression and she will not leave me to deal with it alone. One of the pics in this post is her in a moment of concern for me when she had gently crawled completely up on me and was studying my face intently, trying to literally get her whole body and face touching mine. I snapped the pic and messaged my wife that I know Stella is helpful in that my wife knows someone is caring for me, watching out for me, literally touching me almost all day every day, making sure I am ok.
The treatments have sucked, I have felt terrible and will continue to feel terrible for a while. My energy has plummeted and I cannot do anything that I enjoyed before I started treatment. If I try, I ruin myself for days from the fatigue from exertion. But I have had this new fluffy best friend who literally makes me laugh, get up and move and be outside enjoying as much as I can of life. Sheās been the most engaging, brightest light, happy place and overall source of the most fun for me all year. Sheās been the miracle of my house and family in a trying season.
Unless something shockingly awful transpires, I should be able to finish treatment. So far, all testing is coming back with good news. Then I hope the side effects abate, and I can get moving, healthy, and fit again; Though there are no guarantees in life, ever. Even if things donāt improve, I know Stella will be right there.
My wife is the great love of my life. Weāve been married 30 years and are still in love. I totally still crush on her. Sheās the real saint and has been a superstar for me and the whole family. But she deemed our Stella, Saint Stella because she came into our lives, my life when I most needed her. The timing was providential. I am a man of faith: I believe the Stella was sent to me as an agent and minister of happy, crazy, silly, fun, fuzzy, protective, guarding and gentle grace in an especially dark season.
TL/DR: my dog is awesome and came into my life when I most needed her.