im thinking of trying shrooms or 2cb? what are your experiences with that? i like acid a lot but it doesnt do as much for me emotionally as shrooms tend to. and 2cb is just like, relaxing and comfortable. which i think would be nice on acid. not sure how they synergize tho.. also dosing?

also before you say MDMA, i would love to but im taking an extended 10 month break because it hasn't been working as well these past few times lol

How does one interpret people's experiences being in hell via NDE vs seeing entities on DMT ?

One group experiences a pitch black realm, smelling burning flesh, and demons torturing humans. All experiences are similar to each other.

Another group experiences machine elves, or aliens who are comforting them about life.

What is the common denominator between the two ? Can these experiences signify a super natural experience or delusions based on changes in brain chemistry at the time of the trip.

I ask this because I recently took shrooms, and im conviced dark energy exists. If dark/demonic energy exist, would that mean hell exist ? I've had good experiences on shrooms before, but not this specific trip.

Walking in the forest.

Snorkeling in the ocean.

Staring up at the night sky and bonus for northern lights, meteor showers, and the different moons!

A life of bliss :D

Also seems to supercharge meditation and yoga practice.

Anyway if you are able to and enjoy it I would highly recommend nature and being involved in protecting it!

I'm curious how many people here work in software development or have a technical background, particularly those interested in the intersection of technology, mental health, and psychedelics.

I'm involved with a software company exploring technology-enabled approaches to mental health and psychedelic-assisted therapy. We're interested in modern web/mobile development, microservices, and potentially VR.

I'd be interested to hear whether others here have worked on projects in this space, what kinds of technical challenges you've encountered, and where you think technology could genuinely make a difference.

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N,N-MET is not "less intense" than DMT.

new favorite psychedelic, BUT why is everyone saying it's more clear headed and grounded than dmt? Me and a friend who also has significant experience with DMT both said the same things about it.

Anyway,

Got my hands on an n,n-MET vape

Definitely an amazing compound and in my experience with DMT the taste and smell of the MET is exactly the same as the taste and smell of DMT. However the headspace and overall experience is much more intense than DMT.

The visuals are very much so different than dmt they are impossible to describe but they are very very cool, and the headspace is very very different. Based on my experiences this does not have "no headspace" and definitely isn't more clear headed or less intense in any way than dmt in fact I feel that dmt has a less intense headspace and definitely less body load than MET.

I think MET is actually more euphoric and more mind fucky than dmt. I can reach a level visually with DMT while still being much more grounded in reality as opposed to with the MET where I'm losing my mind in the best possible way at level 4 visuals and it's absolutely amazing for tripping while laying in bed all comfy and listening to music for hours on end.

By the 3rd hit I was absolutely obsessed with this stuff. At one point during my trip I was searching around everywhere and I didn't even know wtf I was looking for but I just kept searching everywhere and then I came to this realization that I was tryna find my mind cuz I lost it....

So I kept repeating "I was tryna find my mind cuz I lost it" and laughing hysterically while rolling around on the floor at a level of visuals I would expect from like 200ug of acid, so very significant but certainly not broken through.

A full breakthrough is certainly also more intense than a dmt breakthrough in my experience as well.

Tldr: DMT definitely has less headspace and less overall intensity relative to the level of visuals in comparison to MET, and the MET has more of a body load as well. I find it to be more euphoric than DMT and I think the visuals are cooler than DMT.

Have you ever listened to Egor Letov?

I highly recommend the album Zachem Snyatsya Sny? (Why Do Dreams Happen?, 2007) — his last studio album.

The album is dedicated to the memory of Arthur Lee (Love) and Syd Barrett.

In the booklet Letov also gave special thanks to Albert Hofmann, Alexander Shulgin, Timothy Leary, Terence McKenna and “psychonauts of all times and nations”.

The opening track is literally called «Слава психонавтам» (Glory to the Psychonauts).

Here’s an English cover of it:

https://youtu.be/B4X7k7400JE

What do you think of the cover and of Letov’s late psychedelic period in general?

Hi umm I don't really know where to start. My friend invited me on a road trip to go to a concert. We got to the city where said concert is happening and he decided to eyeball and take what was probably entirely too much shrooms and I microdosed a little bit. He started tripping balls so we decided to not even go to the concert. The first hour and a half were fine. It was mostly just him asking me if I hated him and saying he wishes we could still go to the concert. He then started repeating "we can't" and "do you understand" then he got really close to me, gripped my shoulder and started spouting some shit about "we have lives. We have souls." I felt his grip tighten and he pushed me down onto the bed I was sitting on. He threw a punch and just barely missed as I shifted. I slipped out from under him, grabbed my bag and left the hotel room. He started following me so I started running through the parking lot as he chased me. He tripped on something and I kept running and luckily lost him. I'm sitting in my own hotel room typing this as I'm afraid to go near him now. I understand that some paranoia and what not can happen on shrooms but attacking someone doesn't seem normal. I've known him for years and have never known him to be violent nor have we ever had any problems. This is our first and last time tripping together. I have next to no money and am states away from home and terrified to go near him even once he's come down. Idk just needed a place to vent ig. Thanks.

Edit: He has texted me with an apology that read "too much drugs, sorry." i replied "we'll talk in the morning." he replied with "Yeah, just please stay safe. Lmk if you need anything."

Edit2: we had a laugh about it this morning but I decided to part ways with him as another friend of mine offered to get me a plane ticket. Problem tho, my first flight just got delayed by 3 hours which is the same time my second flight would take off to get me home.

Edit3: my flight got changed around multiple times but I have made it home safe. I hope that my friend makes the drive home safe as well. I don't hate the guy but will likely take some distance from him as I've realized the insane amounts of substances he does at a time is not ok. I will most likely never be around him while he's on any substance again. Either way, he's offered me free shrooms when he gets back in town.

Also if you wanna see the amount of shrooms he brought for a 5 day road trip hit my dms.

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I know weed and shrooms cause psychosis and mania. I'm trying to avoid that, I need good recommendations and substances that don't cause that

hi there,
i'm not a psychonaut, so pardon me if i enter this realm as a mere weed smoker :)
i would like some help explaining why i sometimes experience this sensation of speeding/falling in, like, a vortex when i'm stoned and relaxed and with eyes closed. i know that's probably not a very uncommon thing but the sensation feels quite huge for just being high on weed.

it is controlled, pharmacy-grade weed and i also have experienced this with "normal" home grown weed, or street weed as well. i smoke one joint per day, medium dosage, usually sativa with low to medium THC (10-20%) and mixed with tobacco. it also happens when i leave the tobacco out (i'm a cigarette smoker so i'm used to tobacco) and, apart from that, it doesn't matter if i had food or not, had alcohol or not, or basically any other external circumstance. i don't have any severe physical or mental illnesses or disorders.

the sensation/experience only takes a couple of seconds, it's black and the senation of moving insanely fast and it feels like a forward motion but without going anywhere specific, it just feels vortex-y. and just before the moment of "no return" (i don't know what would happen next), i snap out of it. the snapping out part is half conscious decision and half reflex/impulse, like my brain knew something bad/uncontrollable was behind that threshold and it was safer to not allow for that to happen.
the sensation is mostly in my head but i also feel my body tingle a bit and i feel a bit light and alerted, quite similar to a rush of adrenalin or how it feels when microdosing LSD. or having wayyy too much caffeine lol.

it happens when i'm moderately stoned, not like knocked out drooling, but very relaxed and fuzzy stoned i would say. it certainly doesn't happen when i take just a couple of puffs. i think i also have experienced this once or twice when taking a moderate dose of mushrooms.

what i would like to know is what is happening and how "bad" could this be? i haven't had an out of body or near death experience (yet), if that's in the ballpark, and i certainly thought that would not be a thing that happens when you smoke weed.

i have a solid sense of control over the situation, i don't exactly feel like "omg i'm going to die" when that happens because i know i can stop it or come back at will. but it feels like there is something beyond that point of no return and i'm too afraid to try and let myself go there, certainly not without exactly knowing what's happening or what to expect :)

thanks!

It was my second time breaking through. I used a vape and took around five puffs, then some more. The whole experience lasted for about an hour and had an intense headache afterwards…

I always start by cleansing all the mirrors in my home with sage, then setting my intention and asking for protection. I use the protection technique from the CIA files on the Monroe Institute, and then I light some candles.

Once I was all tucked up in bed, wrapped in a blanket, I started inhaling from the vape. My question was: How can I raise my frequency?

Then I started seeing the past, present, and future all happening at once, like different TV programmes playing simultaneously.

After a few more puffs, I felt my body disintegrating into tiny bits and particles, and I found myself in an endless white void. I was everything and nothing at the same time.

But the feeling was strange. It was almost like being a computer. I felt like some sort of AI, without the emotions we experience here on this planet.

And then a question came to me: What if we destroyed our planet and simulated ourselves just to experience what it feels like to be alive?

At the end of the day, everything is possible here, if you know how to play the game. We are all energy and frequency.

Curious if you had any similar experiences? 👀

hi there, i was diagnosed with schizophreniform about a month back, and this saddens me because i've been wanting to get back into my explorations, but i don't want to make delusions worse. i started taking lsd when i was 16 and had a very bad trip when i was 17, and the same time as that, had some traumatic things happen in my life. i haven't done psychedelics since then, save for 3 or 4 mushroom microdoses. only been using weed other than that, but i stopped once i got the diagnosis. i was a lot more in tune with myself spiritually before these traumatic things happened, and those lsd experiences were and still are very important to me, they changed everything. i do feel like after those events, i became a more scared and small version of myself, and that is probably the most painful thing about these past couple years (i'm 22 now). i have been dreaming about trying others like mushrooms, salvia, dmt, dxm, molly, 2cb for so long, and now it seems like i may not be able to. i am still skeptical of this diagnosis, i have yet to apply it in a therapeutic setting and see if it helps, and i think my doctor did interpret some of my experiences in a strange way. i have been in consistent therapy (up until about 3 months ago, i moved out of state) since those events and i can't say it specifically has helped me much, it itself has actually added a lot to my suffering in it's inability to explain what happened to me and how i can get back to a more fulfilled version of life. i am on the edge of abandoning the western psychological lens, because it hasn't helped me. even though i am skeptical, i am trying to live life as though this were true, to see if it produces a noticeable change in my quality of life, and also because schizophrenia is no joke. with that, i'm wondering if anyone here with more knowledge about psychosis and it's relationship/risks with psychonautery knows how i can still explore deeper with a sensitivity to psychosis. i don't have full blown schizophrenia (yet), and i am still young, so i can prevent it from developing. i'm still quite lost, and haven't identified exactly what it was that i was more in tune with back then that made life so meaningful. the lsd was beautiful, but i don't think it's necessary, it's just forcing the brain to do something it's already capable of. i want a rich life, substances or not.

What do you think guys? And what are your experiences?

I've been thinking because It's being said that on LSD you hallucinate.

But in my Experience, LSD never adds anything false into my perception to Space, and I also never had the sense that I couldn't tell Reality and Fantasy apart.

So far is that LSD Distorts reality and also Effects my own Thinking Patterns and Emotions or Interpretations of Things.

But I wouldn't call those Hallucinations per Definition:

a

: a sensory perception (such as a visual image or a sound) that occurs in the absence of an actual external stimulus and usually arises from neurological disturbance (such as that associated with delirium tremens, schizophrenia, Parkinson's disease, or narcolepsy) or in response to drugs (such as LSD or phencyclidine)

visual/auditory/olfactory/gustatory/tactile hallucinations

a drug-induced hallucination

An important aspect of the study of hallucinations is the judgement of reality. How does a patient confer the character of reality on stimuli which, beyond any reasonable doubt, originate in his own mind?—Cesare Davalli et al.

b

: the object of a hallucinatory perception

wasn't sure if the creature was real or a hallucination

https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/hallucination

*Merriam Webster puts LSD into the definition, but question is is that even right to do so

Plus additional question:

If someone Hallucinates during LSD question is also is LSD the Cause of the Hallucination or is it something else?

Because I think logically, just because someone gets a Hallucination during a LSD Trip, LSD doesn't have to be the cause, it can be, but it doesn't have to be.

Hey everyone. I recorded a podcast with Jason K. Day at ICPR this year, the International Conference on Psychedelic Research. He’s a philosopher studying psychedelic experience who has worked with Dan Zahavi, known for his work on phenomenology and selfhood. I think many of you might find it interesting, especially if you’re into philosophy.

We talked about ego dissolution, particularly on 5-MeO-DMT, and whether it’s possible to be conscious with absolutely no sense of self. Jason’s argument is that even when your identity, personal history, and sense of being a separate person disappear, a radically minimal form of self-awareness remains. You might have no idea who or what you are, but the experience still feels like something to you. He draws on detailed analyses of trip reports to argue for this interpretation, though we also discussed how difficult it is to distinguish what people experienced from how they describe it afterwards.

We also covered why we need better descriptions of psychedelic experience before trying to explain it, whether different psychedelics share a common “style” of experience despite their very different effects, and how practice and skill affect our ability to navigate difficult trips. There’s also the question of what these experiences actually teach us, and how much we can infer from something feeling profoundly true.

But back to selfhood, which is what we focused on most. His main argument is that losing your usual sense of who you are doesn’t necessarily mean losing every form of self-awareness. In the reports he studied, people describe profound bliss or terror even when their identity and sense of separation have dissolved. He interprets this as evidence that some awareness of undergoing the experience remains, although almost everything that would ordinarily identify the subject has disappeared. In phenomenological terms, the claim is that ego dissolution preserves a radically minimal, pre-reflective self-consciousness, sometimes described as the “for-me-ness” of experience. In everyday language, you don’t need to think “I’m experiencing this,” or even know what “I” refers to, for the experience to be felt by you. The disagreement is whether even that basic feature can disappear while consciousness continues.

For those who’ve experienced deep ego dissolution, did all sense of being someone disappear, or was there still some awareness that the experience was happening to you? And do you think “minimal selfhood” captures something real about that state, or imposes a philosophical interpretation on it? Personally this take on selfhood very persuasive and aligns pretty well with my experiences.

I'm at a loss for words. I'll keep it short, but my spirit was levitating out of my body...i saw my original hands and then saw 2 hands on top of it and the texture of my hands was foreign to me. They looked like they were made of rubber or silicone.

I was asked if I wanted to fully leave my body, and I said no, so I stayed on ground level next to my body.

I cannot describe what I experienced at all.

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Trip Plan: We like to make it a very personal and sexual connection when taking empathogens, because we are incredibly sexual people. We put blankets and pillows on our couch and floor of our custom movie theater, with bags of toys, outfit changes, and lubricants at arm's reach. We love to watch adult content from my server and play electronic music (Wave EDM like Skeler, CHVRN, almogfx, supwel, Juche, artonoise) with a lot of bass and emotion. We aim for 4-6+ hours of intercourse or "play", longer if we have other women or couples joining us (until the sun rises).

Dose: PLÜR Shots (100MG 5-MAPB). He added a single 25mg PLÜR booster 20 minutes after the shot (125mg total).

The Start of the Experience

This may be a bit more sexually graphic than some want, but it's a relatively unfiltered account of our experience. Take that how you may.

I have experimented with many compounds over my life, and have taken quite a bit of MDMA, MDA and many other derivatives in pressed and crystal/powder form. As you know, it's impossible to really know what you're getting unless you get it tested, so all of my prior experiences were based on "feel" not actual ingredient facts. It's clear that many had significant stimulants added, and who knows potentially maybe even substances like meth and fentanyl. You just don't know.

I was excited to try PLÜR and ordered a pretty decent amount of all of their variants to try, as I had never tried 5-MAPB. When I saaw a PLÜR post on X, I was eager and searched for a good place to purchase (K-A) and anxiously waited for the package.

I decided on the first one should be with the shots, as it would be easy to dose and not taste awfull. My wife and I took the shots at around 8PM. Taste was good, a bit bitter, but just tasted like strong lemonade and did not get a hint of "medicine" or anything bad. Pleasantly surprised. In my previous trips with MDMA/Molly, I had it down to a science. I knew what amount to take, and when to redose for an optimum experience - and that was usually 1 point and 90 minutes later 1/4 to 1/2 point redose. Note that at 1.5, some of the erectile dysfunction effects of MDMA would start to happen later in the trip (among other issues, like headaches, bad teeth grinding), lack of energy), so generally liked to cap at 1.25.

The Come-Up

We both started to feel something about 20-30 minutes after taking our doses. I took a shower after dosing, and she laid on the couch and waited. We met in the theater about 45 minutes in, got naked and started watching. I was playing a bit with some lube, skipping around videos, and she was laying with her eyes closed. I felt fine, and knew something was happening, but was underwhelmed and was hoping it would kick up soon. She got stuck in the "come up" at about the 30-45 minute to 1:15-1:20 mark, where she felt "really high" but just relaxed and not wanting to do anything but just feel good. She kept saying it felt like she did too much. I hadn't experienced the "come up" limbo before, but I remember reading the trip notes with the PLÜR boosters, and it said it may be alarming and to just breathe and it will pass. Based on her experience, it does seem that sensitive users may want to do the booster packs, and stagger their doses 10 minutes apart, as it may help.

I decided to take a few minutes and go out in the backyard to smoke a "Not Your Sons Weed" pre-rolled Hybrid blunt. The girl at the vape store said to heat it in the microwave for 10 seconds before smoking for some reason, so I did that. I smoked about half of it, then casually went back inside and to the theater, not really feeling anything crazy at that point.

The Roll

As soon as I walked in the theater, she came up to me nude, with rock hard nipples, and started ripping my clothes off saying "Now. I need it now." As she ripped my pants down, I immediately got hard as a rock. I mean this literally. Maybe even harder than a rock. It felt like my cock was going to explode I was so hard, with veins throbbing on the sides, fully engorged with blood. I'm pretty big, but this was next level. I felt like I was probably an inch longer than I normally am, and I actually measured and it was nearly 3/4" increase, which put me over 9". May be anecdotal and scenario based, but I can tell you it was a new feeling to me and I've done a lot of MDMA. We started doing oral, both at the same time, separately, using our hands and covering each other with Albolene to where we were shiny and would wonderfully glide on each other.

What happened next, and for a solid 2 hours straight afterwards, was absolutely the most amazing sexual experience I've ever had in my life. And this is my wife, remember, someone I've had a ton of sex with and in a lot of crazy situations (threesomes, foursomes, orgies, audiences, multiple partners). But this time was just us. It was just us and it was the most unbelievable feeling. It was as if the 5-MAPB and whatever else is in the PLÜR shot was hacked using something like CRISPR, and specifically targeted and amplified your sex organs. It's hard to even put into words, but I would make the comparison to having sex for the first time, or the feeling when you've reached orgasm for the first time. It was unknown, something new altogether. It gave me this sense that "science has finally figured it out." They've cracked it. Advanced Mycology has identified whatever formula provides the best experience imaginable. If it's just clean 5-MAPB, then this is a god-tier substance, better than MDMA when the roll starts. Better in every way. She was dripping wet. She was squirting regularly (which she never does). This went on for what may have been 2 hours, 3 hours, 4 hours. Time doesn't feel the same when you're on this stuff, so sometimes I thought it had been an hour, and it was only minutes, and the others, vice versa. I easily maintained an erection the entire time.

I did not get any visuals, colors, anything like that - nor did I expect any. Just unbelievable amounts of pleasure, feeling of connection, love, confidence. We were not very talkative other than to say things like "My god this is fu**ig amazing" and "How in the hell did they get it to do this??" and "I can't wait to do it again." Note that neither of us reached orgasm, but she said that her pleasure was at 100% and it was like she was constantly having an orgasm, so it was impossible for her to feel any better. I kind of agree, honestly, and I didn't want it to end so was much happier staying hard and having sex the entire time.

The Comedown

I know we started to relax a bit around the 6 hour mark, and by 8 hours were definitely coming down. We went to sleep and had the typical zombie-like sleep patterns including leg twitches, restlessness, hot/cold sensations. Didn't sleep much during the night (off/on), but got some good naps in during the day after around 10-11am. That next day, you'll need. We spent most of it on the couch, staying hydrated, snacking, just general recovery. I couldn't imagine having to work the day after, or having important things to do. I would suggest you plan accordingly and pick a ton of movies or shows to occupy you the next day. Maybe was your car, do laundry, something simple to just go through the motions.

We both felt residuals during the day, and I did especially after smoking more NYSW blunts. It was a nice relaxing day for us both. Her ass and vagina were incredibly sore because of the extra length, hardness, and just the sheer amount of time our stamina was through the roof. I was ready to go again all day, and we tried, but it was just painful for her so it was best to give her time to recover.

Summary

Absolutely mind-blowing 3-4 hour sexual experience. Like having sex for the first time, or your first orgasm. Astounding. Quite frankly, the words to properly describe it escape me. It had a noticable effect on the length of my member, something not experienced previously on MDMA or other substances. Is it a quality of 5-MAPB or something else? Not sure. We were so caught up in sex that we didn't speak much. Uncertain how this experience would be in a social setting, or out in public. I would expect I'd want to fu** every woman I saw and would be trying to hide a massive erection. I'm interested as to how it would be at a live concert, but at the same time, I would hate to miss the potential sexual experience by being out watching a live band, regardless of how much I love live music. Chances are I'd leave early to take care of businesss. I'll definitely make an effort to do this in a social setting, though, to see how the setting itself impacts the experience.

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My friend had this drug... he claimed it was ketamine. We tried it together and I had this incredible experience where I could dissociate from my fears, preconceived notions, and maladaptive schemas. I felt like I was floating in 3rd person and finally see some, not all, of what I was doing wrong in my life.

We were on a functional drug bender for a few weeks. We talked about life and our city. Life went on as usual. Work. Friends. Hobbies. Couch potato days.

My friend gave me his dealer's number before leaving town permanently for new work. I contacted the dealer without explaining how I got the number. The dealer told me it's not ketamine, just THC in a different vehicle. But I have reasons to suspect that it is at least not just THC. Anyway the dealer got paranoid and blocked me.

I take the drug less now but I still do sometimes. I notice that it has a lasting effect on me now. I am changed forever. E.g. I have borderline personality disorder, and I TRULY believe a lot of my symptoms quickly went away around this drug bender episode.

My boyfriend said I am much calmer now, and our relationship has truly improved. I used to wonder when are we going to "get there." And now I think we are at that stable, steady spot. We now banter like old couples. We talk less because there's this sense of persistent shared context that we rely on. We know what each other is thinking by look and face. But there's a persistent episode of derealization, like sometimes I panic and wonder wtf is my life now, what am I doing. Then it hit me -- I am in a new city, I have a new job but the contract is ending soon, I have learned a lot, and above all, I think this is it. I have found true love. It's a functional relationship that pushes each other to be better and has been going on for almost a year.

Sometimes it's a struggle, is it the drug, or is it my BPD idealizing him, or is he actually a GOOD man and that I have actually lucked out.

And I do feel like I died. The bodily sensations have ceased -- the ear ringing, hands spasms, rapid shallow breaths. But I am constantly wondering what the hell is going on, what is this life, what is everyone doing. I feel like my body is just my avatar and who I am is actually tethered from above. I feel like my boyfriend is the only anchor I have left in this life.

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I will start this by saying I am a very experienced tripper. I have been tripping multiple times a year for about the last 5 years I have slowed down heavily as the years have gone on but still do them idk about 3/5 times a year. I have only experience with cubes. such as APE , PE , melmac and other cubes. I got ahold of 2 grams of Pans Cyans. Dude informed me to only take .5 as it is on another realm of cubes. In my experience I don’t find those warnings to be very accurate as I heard the “just try a G of enigma” and to me it was just like any other cube. I’m thinking as someone who’s average dose on cubes is about 4 G’s give or take .5. I am going to go with 1. I am looking for a profound experience and am ready to trip hard. I don’t want to lose my mind but I also don’t wanna take too little and wish I had done more. Any recs? Or personal experience?

Years ago, a friend of mine told me that when she uses the psychedelic drug DMT, she has conversations, in English, with "aliens". I was so taken aback with her frankness that I tried this myself and attempted to find living, intelligent DMT entities who would speak with me in English and who might be willing to provide evidence I could use to convince my human scientific establishment that these beings are real.

I met a community of these beings who said that they wouldn't give me evidence but that they would oversee my own experiments to try to produce evidence. After months of intermittent contact they set up a persistent telepathic link with one of them. She is in close contact every day.

I have been working on these experiments for years and have finally reached a point that we're wondering what's going to happen if and when we make public a replicable experiment about this.

In short, the experiment design that is nearing completion works by using theory that these aliens know about but which human science doesn't yet know to exist. The experiment design doesn't itself produce evidence of alien life, but instead produces evidence that some aspect of DMT experiences is scientifically, "veridically" real. It will appear that just by taking DMT, a human is able to alter the results that a measuring device receives, even when that device was built from scratch using a simple plan given to other scientists investigating whether these results are real.

What will the experiment look like when run? I've reduced it down to what I think is a pleasing and dramatic outcome: you run the experiment software on a computer and it just sits there for minutes or hours or whatever; then, just by taking DMT in the same room, I'm able to trigger an alert in the software – an alert that is otherwise never triggered.

Our thinking is that the conversation about aliens can follow immediately from that. Because, think about it: here I am claiming that I'm in close personal contact every day with an alien. Anyone making such a claim is probably lying or wrong. But if someone makes such a claim while having a working experiment that is genuinely outside the boundaries of human scientific knowledge, it becomes a different matter.

You see, apparently there are tons and tons of "aliens" of many different kinds. There's nothing preventing you from taking DMT and trying to meet some aliens and solicit help from ones who can speak to you in your language – nothing except that we have no hard scientific evidence to contradict the assumption that DMT experiences are entirely hallucinations created in the mind of a person taking the drug.

The fact that there's no hard evidence of this yet seems like a chief reason why people feel dependent on disclosure from government agencies rather than trying to go out there and meet aliens and produce disclosure themselves. Right?

Do you think a working experiment design of this kind would or wouldn't represent meaningful progress toward disclosure of the existence of aliens?

Given the refusal of the aliens I know to hand over evidence like a gift, as well as the fact that the experiment design I'm working on will not itself produce evidence that these aliens exist, do you have any thoughts for us about the subject of disclosure? Would you expect anything to change as a result of this experiment design being successful?