so there are so many things that come together to drive me crazy, but because i'm unexperienced I thought that maybe there are methods to manage that i simply didn't know about, first and foremost, this school that I teach in has a weird system that, you have to teach any number of students that show up, meaning, if there's only one student, you still have to teach them, which technically becomes a private lesson, meaning more efforts and naturally more pay, one that i don't get, i just have to teach whatever lesson comes
I don't know why but I feel like I've been through this so much that I even forgot why It's bad, and now I can't even explain it because it's always been a natural thing to simply cancel class when there aren't many students, especially if it's just one person, but i can't explain it it's like having to explain why we breath, it's been the default your whole life so now you can't just go in and analyse why it doesn't make sense to do otherwise, but the point is, it's so painful to do
now here's the catch, i'm foreign, i'm teaching where I barely know the mother tongue, and that would've been okay if the levels i were teaching are a bit advanced, but they're not, they're either beginners or kids, and I have to go through all this pain not even really knowing how to explain stuff to them
the way this school is labeling me is "speaking teacher" meaning i don't get lesson plans like other teachers, students just come to me and i help them practice speaking, so letting a student go to a lesson specifically dedicated for speaking, without enough level to do that, is just borderline painful for me as a teacher because yeah sure I can review the topics they already did with other teachers, but that would be more like just reviewing vocabulary and repeating phrases, it's not speaking, not really, but even with that, there's only so much you can do before you run out of material, you can do all the activities you want, be creative all you want, in the end, it's you and a bunch of students with a huge language barrier between you
another problem is that sometimes they mix up levels and you end up teaching a few students where one doesn't know anything at all while the other is advanced, so the former is confused and the latter is bored, I have a class where a student literally doesn't know the alphabet, and they just put him there because they didn't have a new group, now what am I supposed to do dedicated certain classes for him and the alphabet?
the idea that the students just study something and then come to me to practice speaking within that topic, is lovely at first, it sounds nice, but overtime, it's exhausting, and sometimes they've only seen one topic that week, but have multiple speaking classes, so let's say the topic this week is countries and nationalities, I'm supposed to hold speaking classes, 4, 5 or 6 of them, with students who only studied countries, with the possibility that only one student shows up, and in a class of students with different levels, while handling so many groups at the same time
here's the thing, I always thought that maybe i'm biased because i hate the school, maybe i just couldn't handle it well, maybe i'm even being lazy and just don't want to come up with new activities and exercises every single day, so teachers all around the world, what do you think of this, is this school really as unhinged as I find it to be or am I just not managing it well, I tried, I really did, the last few months all I've been doing is trying to manage and come up with a good program or schedule or style, you name it, but the moment i enter the class and there is just one student, I really get a feeling of being extremely underwhelmed and sad
as for being creative with activities, sure maybe you can but the kids are just not learning new things, you can't keep coming up with creative activities forever about the same few topics