r/Dystonia • u/FeralTree7 • 21h ago
Myoclonus-dystonia Finally diagnosed after years of gaslighting
I'm a nurse, so I understand the “when you hear hoofbeats, think horses, not zebras” mentality. But after this experience, I feel like multiple neurologists completely dismissed me.
My twin and I both have this condition, and we were repeatedly told we had tics/Tourette's despite explaining that we had no premonitory urge. For a while, we both had suspected some type of myoclonus or dystonia. Even when a resident seemed receptive to the idea, the attending quickly shut it down. The attending came in, asked a few questions like "does it get worse with anxiety and caffeine (yes)," and promptly insisted it was tics. He went on to explain that I was probably so accustomed to my tics that I no longer noticed the urges. My brother and I kind of just resolved to the fact that we have tics. I even went to a tic clinic and spent a ridiculous amount on it. I convinced myself I just lacked the willpower to feel an urge, let alone control them. I also have somatic OCD and that made me question whether I was imagining things, being dramatic, or going down a "what if/uncertainty" rabbit hole.
Years later (a few weeks ago), frustrated by my neck movements interfering with my job, I started researching again. Then I discovered SGCE myoclonus-dystonia, also known as alcohol-responsive myoclonus. Weird, my twin and I both experience significant symptom relief with alcohol. The genetics (autosomal dominant with maternal imprinting) fit our family history, too: my paternal grandmother had similar “tics,” my father doesn't, and my twin and I do. The lightning-like neck jerks, along with the association with OCD and phobias, made me damn-near certain this is what I had.
I was a bit worried that I was just falling into another one of my medical OCD rabbit holes. I told myself I'm getting a genetic test one way or another and if this is negative, I'm done searching for zebras. I met with an online genetic counselor, explained my thoughts, told them I wanted my SGCE genes tested, and they agreed it made sense.
I got my results today.
POSITIVE. I FUCKING KNEW IT!
Ngl, I almost cried because I felt so relieved just to know what this is. I don't even care if treatments don't work as well as I would like. I just wanted to be told, for once, that it wasn't fucking tics.